aidan

I swear I'm retarded when it comes to relationships, which is why I am single again. I guess I don't really know how to be a big enough douchebag. When I'm dating someone I always feel this need to take her out and have fun all the time like an idiot. I always want to spend a lot of time with her and give her a lot of attention, but she would probably enjoy it more if I ignored her most of the time, especially when we're at a show or a party. I think it freaks her out when I give her gifts at random for no reason, so I need to stop doing that. I probably shouldn't listen to her so much when she's talking either. I'm sure she gets pretty annoyed by it. Maybe I should start basing my relationships on sex, instead if spending time with her doing other things like I tend to do. And when I do have sex, maybe I shouldn't get so into it, you know? I guess I could cut out all that kinky foreplay stuff, and cut the actual sex down to 10 minutes instead of going on for hours. I don't think girls like it to last that long. I'm just selfish sometimes I guess. And I know it's weird when I notice little things like when she does her hair or makeup a little different, or if she gets new shoes or jewelry or something. I should stop paying so much attention to those things, and focus more on her boobs and ass. They are pretty freaking sweet after all, and that's all girls want us to notice anyway, right? For some reason I always feel a need to tell her how pretty she is all the time. She doesn't want to hear that. She knows she's pretty already. I don't need to tell her. And I suppose I should start yelling at her when she talks to other guys, because otherwise she'll probably fuck them, since there's no way any girl could be "just friends" with guys. I need to get a little jealous dammit, and start worrying about what she's doing at all times of the day. If I can just work on these issues, maybe she will stick around for once.