Fuck... I hate reality.
"Your rain falls like crazy fingers
Peals of fragile thunder keeping time
Recall the days that still are to come
Some sing blue
Hang your heart on laughing willow
Stray down to the water
Deep Sea of Love
Beneath the sweet calm face of the sea
Swift undertow
Life may be sweeter for this, I don't know
See how it feels...
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"Your rain falls like crazy fingers
Peals of fragile thunder keeping time
Recall the days that still are to come
Some sing blue
Hang your heart on laughing willow
Stray down to the water
Deep Sea of Love
Beneath the sweet calm face of the sea
Swift undertow
Life may be sweeter for this, I don't know
See how it feels...
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So this weekend I found out that going to an SG party where you hardly know anyone is much better then going to a wedding where you hardly know anyone. Earth shattering news Im sure.
So some things that happened at the wedding:
The minister caught my eye. He seemed so familiar...where do I know him from? Oh, he married me! Given the current state...
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So some things that happened at the wedding:
The minister caught my eye. He seemed so familiar...where do I know him from? Oh, he married me! Given the current state...
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thejuanupsman:
Something I said? 
I much prefer SG events to weddings.
I much prefer SG events to weddings.
hubble_____:
Fruit, cheese and crackers for dinner?
At a wedding?
Who the hell are these people?
Talk about working things through on a budget.
At a wedding?
Who the hell are these people?
Talk about working things through on a budget.
As she pulled the little, cut crystal plastic bowls out of the bag, I realized that I have no American family BBQ in the park skills. Im lucky if I manage to touch on the main food groups of sugar, salt, pickled, and meat, not to mention having to remember to bring a table cloth. I think things like Oh- a large package of frozen...
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missmyla:
haha I was EXTREMELY wasted! I'm normally the shy quiet one... ask anyone!
And this morning, I had my very first official hangover (didn't last very long) AND I threw up for the very first time after drinking as well! haha Not much to be proud of, but now I know what people are talking about haha.
And this morning, I had my very first official hangover (didn't last very long) AND I threw up for the very first time after drinking as well! haha Not much to be proud of, but now I know what people are talking about haha.
taoshen:
Wow, your kids are so lucky. It's amazing how many parents don't teach their kids what's in their own back yard ...
I'm okay ... had a weird couple of days. My dogs ran away and that's left me a little bummed. Lots of other weirdness abounding too, but I'm managing. :-D
Nope, not around this weekend. Wish I were though, that sounds fun.
I'm okay ... had a weird couple of days. My dogs ran away and that's left me a little bummed. Lots of other weirdness abounding too, but I'm managing. :-D
Nope, not around this weekend. Wish I were though, that sounds fun.
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bastardo:
A ficus plant makes you happy? Porch railings make you happy? I get confused.
bleunuit:
I love jasmine... its beauty and subtlety... its fragrance mysteriously permeating the atmosphere around it like memories of the love of your life when you're far away... 
When you are an addict some mornings are brutal. I swear I need coffee before I can manage to make the damn coffee.
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vinylgypsy:
never been big on coffee, the taste alone reminds me of smoking..plus those candy-ish fancy frappa-whatevers can turn me into a dangerous bloodthirsty man.
that is why i drink tea
thank you for your words, my cousin is actually showing some small (but important) improvements which is better than none at all.
that is why i drink tea
thank you for your words, my cousin is actually showing some small (but important) improvements which is better than none at all.
thejuanupsman:
I wish I could bring myself to make the changes you have. I just can't be the one to do the hurting. And that seems to be the only way it will ever happen. I try to justify it in other ways, but deep down I know I am just too much of a coward. So I wait for the day that she tires of me. Knowing this isn't doing either of us any good. Not that I am always miserable. There are good times. Just never as good as I know they should be.
Anyway, thanks for listening. Sometimes it really is very nice to have someone who has been through something similar. Even if I hate to think that they have.
I am so glad I never acquired the taste for coffee. Although my need for Diet coke gets pretty intense sometimes too.
Anyway, thanks for listening. Sometimes it really is very nice to have someone who has been through something similar. Even if I hate to think that they have.
I am so glad I never acquired the taste for coffee. Although my need for Diet coke gets pretty intense sometimes too.
Earlier today I was asked what I got angry about. Well I get fucking angry when my six year old comes home crying from her fathers house because he had spent the part of it crying because he felt No one loved him. My little girl was crushed, not only because she didnt want to see her daddy hurting, but because she thinks he doesnt...
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rodan:
Ummm - wasn't he there with his six year old daughter, the very embodiment of "someone that loves him"?
Sheeeesh! words fail.....
{ holding your hand }
Sheeeesh! words fail.....
{ holding your hand }
commonman:
Dumbass. Definitely find a mutual friend and pass along the message to grow the fuck up!
Dumbass. Definitely find a mutual friend and pass along the message to grow the fuck up!Tonight the neighborhood was filled with our childrens laughter. I could hear their footsteps pounding up the sidewalk, and shouts being punctuated by the bouncing of a ball. It reminded me of so many summer evenings of my own childhood. They were free, easy flowing nights when we would roam in groups, from one yard to the next, chasing fireflies, playing tag, and riding our...
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acidevangelist:
fear is an industry for the media, it sells papers. most people are too ignorant to question anything.
rouke:
I can remember leaving the house at 7am and not returning until 9pm all summer long.
Just playing with my friends all day long. Ah, the memories.
Oh! I still live in a place like that.
Just playing with my friends all day long. Ah, the memories.
Oh! I still live in a place like that.
After almost a week of great music, after almost week of great everything, after almost a week of great, perfect, wonderful, incredible, EVERTHING, Im driving home and an old Cure song comes on. And now, even though, Ive filled myself with Lucinda Williams, Jesse Sykes, and Norfolk and Western, I just cant get it out of my head.
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catiedid:
LOOKS LIKE I'M COMING TO PORTLAND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YIPPPPPPPPPPPPPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
I think I'll make the trip kid free. One plane ticket is much more doable then 3.
YIPPPPPPPPPPPPPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
I think I'll make the trip kid free. One plane ticket is much more doable then 3.
redheadedleague:
Here's to incredible everything, and The Cure.
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catiedid:
thinking about you and hoping your week was wonderful
catiedid:
what a wonderful escape fantasy!!!
we must talk this week, I want all the super happy making wonderful details!!! *sigh*
we must talk this week, I want all the super happy making wonderful details!!! *sigh*
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rhanarose:
I can't ride for a while I have a cyst at the base of my spine - on my tailbone - and it is causing me much pain and even more frustration........... 
Shit - I may have to have surgery on it - and that is definitely not in my plans right now!! SHIT !
Thanks for the anniversary wishes.....but nothing to celebrate, unfortunately........
Your journal is - as always - a delight to read!!
I have a cyst at the base of my spine - on my tailbone - and it is causing me much pain and even more frustration........... Shit - I may have to have surgery on it - and that is definitely not in my plans right now!! SHIT !
Thanks for the anniversary wishes.....but nothing to celebrate, unfortunately........
Your journal is - as always - a delight to read!!
escottie:
that's so freakin' cute, aeryn!
int he third pic, you almost got the landing spot for the water in the right place.
int he third pic, you almost got the landing spot for the water in the right place.
We could still stay in touch by email, right? Or would you be disappearing altogether?