so ive decided that just because im single doesnt mean i cant go out for a nice lunch somewhere new....by myself.
i went to Heaven on Seven in downtown Naperville. I've had this thing for bloody mary's lately so i got two while i was there and since they are a New Orleans style restaurant they were spicy and yummy. I tried their gumbo and i had a talapia on top of white rice and crab cakes. it was an awesome lunch even if i was alone. i also decided that if i want to go do something then im going to. sometimes i just cant find someone to do them with and i end up missing out and being bored. well from now on fuck it. im gonna go see the movies i want, go to the restaurants i want, see the shows i want, and in general do what i want by myself. i dont need someone else to have fun and who knows maybe ill actually meet someone on these little trips. im not saying im always alone. i have friends and occasionally someone im seeing as more than friends but i dont always have someone there like i used to. plans need to be made and i dont really like to make plans. i like to just do when i can do.
im trying really hard to be ok with this. i dont do well alone well i haven't in the past. i talk to myself in my head too much when im alone.
i miss that person to go have brunch with when we wake up, finding a place to have dinner much later than most people because we were too lazy all day, someone to shoot pool with.
i think ill be seeing Zombieland alone this weekend. It's one of those i don't want to wait for to come out on DVD or to hunt for online.
ug. but im ok. im new, reinvented, myself and content with who i am. happier now that im making myself happy and not constantly worried about someone elses unattainable happiness to make my own.
i bought the new alice in chains today and Breaking Benjamin.
i love this song
working an overnight tonight. atleast its will be with my hot manager.
i went to Heaven on Seven in downtown Naperville. I've had this thing for bloody mary's lately so i got two while i was there and since they are a New Orleans style restaurant they were spicy and yummy. I tried their gumbo and i had a talapia on top of white rice and crab cakes. it was an awesome lunch even if i was alone. i also decided that if i want to go do something then im going to. sometimes i just cant find someone to do them with and i end up missing out and being bored. well from now on fuck it. im gonna go see the movies i want, go to the restaurants i want, see the shows i want, and in general do what i want by myself. i dont need someone else to have fun and who knows maybe ill actually meet someone on these little trips. im not saying im always alone. i have friends and occasionally someone im seeing as more than friends but i dont always have someone there like i used to. plans need to be made and i dont really like to make plans. i like to just do when i can do.
im trying really hard to be ok with this. i dont do well alone well i haven't in the past. i talk to myself in my head too much when im alone.
i miss that person to go have brunch with when we wake up, finding a place to have dinner much later than most people because we were too lazy all day, someone to shoot pool with.
i think ill be seeing Zombieland alone this weekend. It's one of those i don't want to wait for to come out on DVD or to hunt for online.
ug. but im ok. im new, reinvented, myself and content with who i am. happier now that im making myself happy and not constantly worried about someone elses unattainable happiness to make my own.
i bought the new alice in chains today and Breaking Benjamin.
i love this song
working an overnight tonight. atleast its will be with my hot manager.
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jaythered:
shoot pool? too bad you are so far away. i'm always looking for someone to play.
scotty:
I always go out and have lunch and a coffee by myself 
