aeryka

so i got two new fish most adorable things in the world. did what i alway did and threw em in there. now my tank is empty....they allllll died. my GIANT black moor who i adored also went belly up. now all i got is that stupid plecostemous.

im so miserable. i dont normally ride the PMS train but i was a raging bitch the other day. almost took off anthony's face over some shit at blockbuster. i was crabby, impatient, fidgity, restless and whiny.

and then yesterday the weepies started. cryin all over the place for no real reason. took too many clonopin and gin and tonics so i was kinda messed up but we went to get food from hollywood grill anyway. i fell down the hardwood staris and now my ass hurts like hell. they have the most amazing nachos. after eating i fell asleep. couldnt find my mask tho which sent me in a dither. so im freaking out and he doesnt care so i just go to bed which really upset me cuz i wanted to be held soooo badly. affection is in high need right now.

im starting to think i might be bipolar or something.

allll i know is right now i feel what i think might be the worst ever. i wanna just die. im gonna go to be cuz im into too much pain to care anymore.