yeah i know ive fallen off the face of the planet but this job of mine takes up most of my time and i guess i just dont have that much time to devote to my online world. so yeah i was lazy on vacation and i took no sets. yes i know i suck. i know i suck balls. i dont know why its so hard for us to just fucking take a set. maybe because we dont have much confidence in ourselves. maybe im just not that into it anymore. we did try but the light wasnt cooperating.
so my friday nite is once again dissapointing. here i come home so that i dont piss the BF off because im out with other people and i get home so that im available for when he gets off work and he goes out. and i dont know where hes going and i dont know what hes doing and yeah it bothers me. and of course i have no friends so i have no one to hang out with and the people i was hanging out with i dont want to see cuz i dont wanna sit around with them and people i dont know and just get fucked up all nite. im kinda sick of just getting fucked up. i would like to go out to a club or a bar or something but i have no one to go with. so here i am at 11:51 on a beautiful friday nite....blogging online. and then ill be going to sleep. and this nite is just a bad omen. ive got the weekend off and watch here now i have the time to do fun shit and none of what i want to do or expected to be doing will happen. this always fucking happens. nothing ever goes the way i plan. normal courses of events never are normal. but fuck why am i complaining? thats fucking life, right?
and the fucked up part is that i bet if i had stayed out with them he would have wanted to do something and then would have gotten pissy with me for hanging out with people he doesnt like me hanging out with and then i would have felt bad and guilty. i never win.
hey atleast i got a pretty new skirt. but my buzz is wearing off and now im in the mood to get fucking trashed just do i have something to do but i dont wanna do it alone cuz then ill just feel like a loser.
::sigh::
so is my life.
so my friday nite is once again dissapointing. here i come home so that i dont piss the BF off because im out with other people and i get home so that im available for when he gets off work and he goes out. and i dont know where hes going and i dont know what hes doing and yeah it bothers me. and of course i have no friends so i have no one to hang out with and the people i was hanging out with i dont want to see cuz i dont wanna sit around with them and people i dont know and just get fucked up all nite. im kinda sick of just getting fucked up. i would like to go out to a club or a bar or something but i have no one to go with. so here i am at 11:51 on a beautiful friday nite....blogging online. and then ill be going to sleep. and this nite is just a bad omen. ive got the weekend off and watch here now i have the time to do fun shit and none of what i want to do or expected to be doing will happen. this always fucking happens. nothing ever goes the way i plan. normal courses of events never are normal. but fuck why am i complaining? thats fucking life, right?
and the fucked up part is that i bet if i had stayed out with them he would have wanted to do something and then would have gotten pissy with me for hanging out with people he doesnt like me hanging out with and then i would have felt bad and guilty. i never win.
hey atleast i got a pretty new skirt. but my buzz is wearing off and now im in the mood to get fucking trashed just do i have something to do but i dont wanna do it alone cuz then ill just feel like a loser.
::sigh::
so is my life.
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missstarsucker:
I think eveyone has had a night like this. I often sit home bored and alone. It sucks! But if you ever need a friend look me up! It can only get better right? Take care... 
darling69:
IM DEAD!