aeryka

mmmm.....multigrain bagel...toasted and smothered in peach preserves and butter with a small glass of eggnog.

tomorrow ((actually today)) is X-Mas. i dont feel like its christmas at all. yes ive bought gifts. yes ive decorated a tree. yes ive done all that christmasy stuff but still i have no christmas spirit. and as horrible as this may sound im sick of the salvation army people with their stupid bells and buckets. i swear the guy outside my store the other day was drunk.
i guess im just a scrooge. bah humbaug.

i did find gifts for my boyfriend. and while i think i actually did a good job, all the reciepts are stapled together and waiting for his disapproval. ive got my fingers crossed for a good eve and day. i could use them.

i think im going to go to the arboretum sometime next week. as long as its not bitterly cold and windy. it was very nice and sunny today and melty. hopefully it will stay that way.

im starting to suspect that my current and past drug use are taking their toll. my head and my emotions seem so messed up sometimes that it seems to be possible. unless theres some other reason im suddenly mildly dyslexic and borderline bi-polar/crazy. but maybe its just my paranoia.

well another year is almost over and not much has changed. im hoping that 2006 will bring with it much needed changes and events that will start the rest of my life. im kinda excited for some reason. i never get excited about the new year. just the parties before it ends.

Merry Christmas to everyone and if you dont celebrate then happy Sunday December 25th.

i have nothing left to say right now.