Last weekend was my friend's Diana's birthday party, dare to say, it was crazy. A mix between birthday and ladies night and fuck everything and lets get drunk.. wich we did, obviously!
But before everything colapsed, we danced like maniacs and it felt AMAZING, I have never danced so freely and not giving a fuck, and music that I enjoy (not MY favorita songs to dance to, but good ol' rock n roll).
My friend had ana amazing time, we all did until some point when we were so wasted it was just "whatever if it doesn't make me happy".
My friend Melissa tho, had had a fight with her boyfriend earlier that night, and that bugged her and it played out in messages all night, it was super sad to see her upset and sad over him :( I hate when things like that happen to people I care about. Weird enough, I've got a lot of friends that are in relationships they are not happy about, or in relatonships where is more fighting than being ok, and yeah, I totally understand the fact that they don't want to end things with someone they love, but I hope they understand that sometimes it's better to leave it at that, than to try to expand and fix things while not everyone in the relationship is willing to put the same amount of effort.
About me, well, a week before my birthday my ex-boyfriend told me he wanted to "try" things again between us, and because of the history we have, I did not take him seriously, because he changes his mind like he changes t-shirts, one day he wants this, the other he wants the opposite and etc. I have to say that we've been like "fooling" around and going out on and off for a year now, everytime he grows close or something, he said he did not want anything and then he stoped talking to me and ignoring me for three months until he wanted me back.
So after he told me really wanted things to move forward, I was cautious, because he is like that, he may really want it, but then he doesn't.
After saying this, he ignored me for two weeks, not talking at all, and when he did he was treating me like I should be thankfull because HE wanted me back. And my mind was super confused. The next time I saw him I forgot my cell, and when I went to pick it up at his place, he had checked it and left it with the doorman.
The next thing I now he had blocked me from every social network possible and the only reason he gave me was that “he had made his choice”, never saying about what and basically treating me really badly. I grew tired and told him to go fuck himself.
Since the longest time I have been sure that I will never let someone I care about, treat me like garbage, and that includes people I love. I’ve come a long way learning this, and hell, I don’t need some moronic hipster to treat me like I should be thankfull for him hitting on me, HE should be goddamn thankfull because I am the best he can have, I am smart, beautiful and over all of that, I’m going to be an SG, so he can go screw himself, and every other prick like him, can go on and screw themselves.
*mic drop*
Ocean, out!
PS: I SO want to see the new Captain America movie!! Damn.
Those are my dearies ♥ Diana & Melissa ♥
