addendum, briefly:
got a new vibrator. they've made a new edition of the one that took me a whole year to break and HOLY FUCK it's excellent--near noiseless, very powerful. highly recommended, put out by TLC, bullet-style silver vibrator thingy. checked the price on the vibrator erich got me as a present that appears to have......met an early end [my mother unpacked some of my...
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got a new vibrator. they've made a new edition of the one that took me a whole year to break and HOLY FUCK it's excellent--near noiseless, very powerful. highly recommended, put out by TLC, bullet-style silver vibrator thingy. checked the price on the vibrator erich got me as a present that appears to have......met an early end [my mother unpacked some of my...
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*sings again*
LLLLEEEET'S TAKE THE SKINHEADS BOWLINNNNGGGG
if anyone can't tell, i'm feeling a bit better today. got some sleep finally. and some decent food. took my russian test and hung out with renee, who i lurve. so. goddamned. much. if she weren't married i swear i'd try to pounce her, fuck the ethics of not pouncing your gsi.
and it was a bit rainy...
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LLLLEEEET'S TAKE THE SKINHEADS BOWLINNNNGGGG
if anyone can't tell, i'm feeling a bit better today. got some sleep finally. and some decent food. took my russian test and hung out with renee, who i lurve. so. goddamned. much. if she weren't married i swear i'd try to pounce her, fuck the ethics of not pouncing your gsi.
and it was a bit rainy...
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everything i said in the last entry came true. every last fucking thing. i wrote this last night, sometime in the 5 a.m. hour:
i said earlier that i wanted to break everything. so i did. some of the things broken in one fell swoop:
1. myself.
2. a chance at a friendship i'd wanted badly because i value this person that much...finally somebody i...
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i said earlier that i wanted to break everything. so i did. some of the things broken in one fell swoop:
1. myself.
2. a chance at a friendship i'd wanted badly because i value this person that much...finally somebody i...
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hastur:
I have many BP friends. I had BP tendencies in High School (my teachers explained my behavior by thinking I was constantly taking hallucinogens. I had not tried them yet). BPs are in touch with the insanity of modern life.
One BP friend who went temporary insane and thought his coworkers were a part of an international conspiracy perpetuated by the corporation he works for - his meds were off. He ended up confronting them creating a company-wide incident. Fortunately, his psychiatric bill was paid by the company and he is much better working for them. He's an anti-authoritorian of sorts and knows that corporations are corrupt, but his episodic ideas were out their.
Also , my first two girlfrends had some mental trouble. I attracted it, my behavior was out their at the time. The first was BP. I think I was a little to klingy for her. The second, I don't know. Actually we had one date. She scared me away. A beautiful woman, an excellent singer and a good lyricist. Its just I was hoping to get to know her a little more before talking about marriage, kids, and a white picket fence. (Frankly I was interested in her because she did not seem to bee the white picket fence type.) She stalked me for 3 months. I heard later that her parents instutitionalized her. I was sad. I don't think an institution would help.
So, it could be worse!
If you drown yourself, you'll be the living dead. Yikes! Isn't that what the norms do? Seems to me thats the road to insanity (normaility), drowning your self.
One BP friend who went temporary insane and thought his coworkers were a part of an international conspiracy perpetuated by the corporation he works for - his meds were off. He ended up confronting them creating a company-wide incident. Fortunately, his psychiatric bill was paid by the company and he is much better working for them. He's an anti-authoritorian of sorts and knows that corporations are corrupt, but his episodic ideas were out their.
Also , my first two girlfrends had some mental trouble. I attracted it, my behavior was out their at the time. The first was BP. I think I was a little to klingy for her. The second, I don't know. Actually we had one date. She scared me away. A beautiful woman, an excellent singer and a good lyricist. Its just I was hoping to get to know her a little more before talking about marriage, kids, and a white picket fence. (Frankly I was interested in her because she did not seem to bee the white picket fence type.) She stalked me for 3 months. I heard later that her parents instutitionalized her. I was sad. I don't think an institution would help.
So, it could be worse!
If you drown yourself, you'll be the living dead. Yikes! Isn't that what the norms do? Seems to me thats the road to insanity (normaility), drowning your self.
scylla:
communication between us is erratic given the sketchtacular qualitity & frequency of both of our internet access times. other than offering huggage and sympathy I don't know how much more I can do since I live farfar away. I can only hope that you are able to work through the difficulties with your meds and with your social life right now. and I would put an emoticon in but they all look really trite. I know you have lots of passions and you will channel them logically and well.
the bipolar journal. yes, this will be another out of control entry so just brace yourself if you decide to read this...this has become my honest journal, maybe because i know there's no risk here--no one's reading and that's what makes it safe. on to the mission at hand:
"I draw them on reckless, etched in, scratched in like resurrection. your sins are killing you...
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adelina:
oops, it double posted 
[Edited on Sep 08, 2003]
[Edited on Sep 08, 2003]
*sings*
"and i go window shopping with a brick"
"and i go window shopping with a brick"
seswhen:
Hey acheron! Are you really from Yugoslavia? I often window shop with a crowbar.
adelina:
Brick window shopping is considered vandalism, isnt it?
have this vague uneasiness these days. it sneaks by my left shoulder and i can feel it hovering there but i can't bring myself to look at it for fear that i'll submit. but it's there, the nausea...that perpetual loneliness (ha, once upon a time, i thought i was an existentialist. my friends made sure to remind me that i'm just angsty) that reminds me...
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i'm so tired, i'm gonna puuuuuuke! 
why isn't there a snoring icon? i couldn't sleep last night, even with my meds...admittedly i didn't take the ambien but melatonin's been working. fuckit. well, it sure as fuck is sleepytime now.
why isn't there a snoring icon? i couldn't sleep last night, even with my meds...admittedly i didn't take the ambien but melatonin's been working. fuckit. well, it sure as fuck is sleepytime now.
dilligan:
you are hot
*sings* i don't really know her *guitar* but i think i could love her...*guitar* crimson and clooover...over and oooover.
-*renee voice* i call on vyerochka and she says "myeoww!" and that's always the correct answer.
addendum to renee's statement: it's always the correct answer unless you're talking about joyce. then the correct answer is always mrkgnao! hee. if i had a thrash punk band, that's...
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-*renee voice* i call on vyerochka and she says "myeoww!" and that's always the correct answer.
addendum to renee's statement: it's always the correct answer unless you're talking about joyce. then the correct answer is always mrkgnao! hee. if i had a thrash punk band, that's...
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ahhhhh! school! IIIII'M GONNA BE SIIIIICK! YAAAAAAAAYYYY! *snore* ugh. back to the russkovo yuizick homework.
time for a real entry? maybe.
i'm sitting by a kitty today for money. a step up from panhandling with kody. i find it terribly ironic that i told eric at the point when it all got messy that someday i wanted to date a boy with a mohawk...and now i am...
it makes me want to play dating scavenger hunt.
ay, that can sound...
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i'm sitting by a kitty today for money. a step up from panhandling with kody. i find it terribly ironic that i told eric at the point when it all got messy that someday i wanted to date a boy with a mohawk...and now i am...
it makes me want to play dating scavenger hunt.
ay, that can sound...
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yaaaaaay i have a new account. hi! 
scylla:
Yay it's acheron the foxypants! *jiggityjigjigjiggerton*