People call me an artist but I think that's bullshit. I'm as much of an artist as any other human being. If I'm an artist, everyone is an artist, even if your art looks like shit. Mine does. I only show you what looks good. For every picture I finish, I have just as many shitty pieces stacked at the back of my desk.
The secret is repetition and developing the will and patience required to prevent you from quitting. I don't know how to draw anything. I've just sat down and drawn thousands of trees so I can fool you into thinking I'm good. If I decided to draw a frog on a log on a whim, it would look shitty. I have to practice a lot when I draw new things. It takes me a long time before I like what I see.
It's hard for me to get excited or think anything made by humans is impressive. We are bullshit artists, all humans. Don't get me wrong, I appreciate beautiful things. I've come to realize that supernatural is just superstition. We practice and learn. we communicate and expand our minds. We are slaves to patterns and routines. I don't find this to be a negative outlook.
I've never understood the obsession or need or want of a higher power that controls things. What a narrow and boring idea. I remember being forced to go to church and seeing how negative those people were. I felt like they were lying to me so I'd obey them. It was never even slightly persuasive. As I grew up I realized that some people were really good at convincing other people their bullshit was real. I also realized that everyone had a bullshit story for sale. At that point I didn't hate religion anymore. I knew everyone was the same and since then it's been hard for me to be offended by anything.
I love doing things any way I want without a fucking concern about someone elses ridiculous opinion. I like not destroying my mental health by constantly trapping myself on trains of bullshit. Believe me, I've bought into plenty of bullshit, especially when I was young. The trick to enjoying life is realizing when to jump off the train of bullshit before it derails and kills you.
