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Can't sleep
Way too fucking late at night
So Update time....

Last weekend was pretty fun. Friday night was SGSD night and although I'm a way too quiet and shy to strike up a conversation beyond hi I'll definetly be showing up for a future event. It was actually my B-Day last weekend so I spent a little time with family as well. Some minature...
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Fuckin hell !!
So I've been trying to get all the credits I need for my Pharmacy Tech Recertification to get a job out here in Cali. I basically graduated from college with my useless Associates in Liberal Arts and a Pharmacy Tech Certification and never used either to my benefit.

What can I say? Self Destruction doesn't pay and now I have to earn...
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Fuck today was strange. Not really a bad day or anything but DAMN did I want a cigarette today!! I quit six months ago but had the eye twitch and freak out withdrawals! Arrrggghhh!! Sweet, sweet cancer sticks. Blackened lungs and a hacking cough again

Anyways, I'm using a new screen name. I hate thinking of names. I always feel like I'm nicknaming myself. I...
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The Superbowl the perfect reason to drink yourself stupid. It was actually a pretty damn good one too. My heart was saying Cards but everyone knew it was going to be the Steelers winning it. Can't believe it is already Feburary though, that just makes me think that my birthday is coming up soon. At least I can say that the past year has been...
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So I'm still around. Not online too much lately since I've been down here is southern Cali, the Inland Empire, doing my Rehab. Yeah, at least it feels like Rehab. I'm still doing a little boozing but no cigarettes or any other substances and other assorted self-destructive behavior. Its been OK. Its sucks trying to make such a big step with all the drama going...
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So I made the move to SoCal, been here since August actually. But haven't been online till now. So I had to get away from the poison in Albuquerque. Some kind of evil energy resides there I think, and it was consuming me. Where I'm at now is alright, but sure as hell not the place I plan on living for long. I really wasn't...
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Well I started for Vegas and wound up in Southern California. Hmmmm Well more updates soon......

Oh and I REALLY WANT TO SEE THE DARK KNIGHT DAMN IT !!!

So I'm finally getting the fuck out of Albuquerque and its about DAMN time!! I'm kinda nervous cause I'm planning on moving without any real plan or idea about what the hell I am going to do. But you know, its not like I have any kids, its not like I'm married and its not like Albuquerque is the kind of place that you don't...
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New Poritshead. DAmn its good. Get it.

And if you don't know who Portishead is then What the fuck is wrong with you??

Have you ever felt like you are close to the end?

I cannot go through this again
I cannot go through this again
I cannot go through this again

Been over, and over and over this before..........................

If you are reading this than you must of stumbled upon my Blog by mistake.

If you've met me than I'm sure my memories are alot different than your own.

If I ever appear in your memories, sorry about that. Its an on going problem.

I'd like to forget myself too.

OK.....
What the FUCK just happened here in my life?!!

I feel ill.

Pointless to rant about it but what else to do at 3 in the morning.......