_chris_

sigh...

i have the biggest crush on this girl megan at work... at the same time, (i think) she also has a crush on me... i'm so retarded when it comes to things like this. i hate this, not knowing what to do.

i can't stand the thought of two people, who are really into each other, never actually getting together because neither knows what to say or do. (i know - it's happened before...)

but she's such an awesome person, and she's so, so cute. i just feel completely retarded whenever she's around. i don't know what to say, i don't know what i'm doing half the time, all i know is that i like being around her...

(also she's a bit younger than i am... not a bad thing, just not what i'm used to.)

today, megan and her friend michelle (another co-worker) were going to prom with two friends of theirs, and they stopped by work, all done up looking fucking gorgeous, just to say hi to me. i can't think of much that makes me genuinely happy, but that did it. then i took a pic of both of them with michelle's camera, and then one with megan's camera, and then one of me and megan...

she's such a cool person. digs all the same stuff i do, fun to be around, interesting to listen to... and she smells so, so nice. she got her nails done for the first time the other day, with little tiny white stars, they're really cute. she was showing them to me yesterday...

hopefully i won't fuck this up. i really, really hope that doesn't happen...

if i can get a hold of those pics, i'll post them when i have a chance. i don't imagine that anyone out there is really THAT interested in what's going on in my life, but then again... add to that the fact that i'm not very photogenic...

so yeah, gotta go now... bye. more later tonight, maybe.