Today's another day. Just like every other day. Except I get to see Wesley today. It drives me insane that I have to go visit him like that. I know we're like half way done with this jail nonsense, but it still feels like it's an eternity.
Last night I had to go to the E. R. for certain reasons (don't worry everythings okay just gotta take some meds and drink alot of cranberry juice) and it really sucked when the doctors, nurses ect asked where Biancas father was. The looks of pity, disgust, or just plain old "oops lets not talk about that sorry 4 asking" looks really starts to get to me.
The doctor I saw looked like he felt so bad that I was out here by myself, I could just see the compasion in his eyes. Even asked me if I already had my sonograms n pictures done yet.. lol (what a nice doc). I really felt alone, lying there staring at the machines monitor me. I'm starting to miss him a lot.
I can't stand going to the doctors appointment and him not be there to hear Biancas heartbeat. When I was watching her on the sonogram machine and I found out she was a girl, I started to cry. I really wish he would've been there to experience that with me. To experience the rest of this pregnancy all together... This is really starting to get to me. He needs to hurry up and finish up in there
I'm going crazy
Well yeah back to the ER topic... The telenurse lady said I should go down there cuz it might be my blood pressure blah blah. But yep, another UTI. I gotta follow up w my doc in 2-3 days so we can see why I keep getting them... They won't go away Well see what happens... I hope it's not effecting Bianca
Last night I had to go to the E. R. for certain reasons (don't worry everythings okay just gotta take some meds and drink alot of cranberry juice) and it really sucked when the doctors, nurses ect asked where Biancas father was. The looks of pity, disgust, or just plain old "oops lets not talk about that sorry 4 asking" looks really starts to get to me.
The doctor I saw looked like he felt so bad that I was out here by myself, I could just see the compasion in his eyes. Even asked me if I already had my sonograms n pictures done yet.. lol (what a nice doc). I really felt alone, lying there staring at the machines monitor me. I'm starting to miss him a lot.
I can't stand going to the doctors appointment and him not be there to hear Biancas heartbeat. When I was watching her on the sonogram machine and I found out she was a girl, I started to cry. I really wish he would've been there to experience that with me. To experience the rest of this pregnancy all together... This is really starting to get to me. He needs to hurry up and finish up in there
I'm going crazy
Well yeah back to the ER topic... The telenurse lady said I should go down there cuz it might be my blood pressure blah blah. But yep, another UTI. I gotta follow up w my doc in 2-3 days so we can see why I keep getting them... They won't go away
Well see what happens... I hope it's not effecting Bianca
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_chaos_:
He has to go to ISF which is like a treatment center. is PO recommended that cuz she knows i'm gonna have a baby in march. As a matter of fact she's on maternity leave (the irony in that huh). He's pretty much just waiting for them to transfer him from jail to the center. once he's at the center it's a 45 day substance abuse program. After that he has to wear a monitor. lol sucks 4 him!! But it's WAY better then him going back to prison..
pattti:
awww man. I started crying reading this. I know what its like to have the baby daddy be in jail. I got lucky and he hasnt had to do any time for the past year....I get so upset thinking of what it would be like without him. I feel the substance abuse thing too. Ryan and I are both recovering heroin addicts and both have done our fair share of time in treatment centers and halfway houses. I totally feel for you, if you ever need someone to talk to, I am here.