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So. I'm back to looking at the sunny side of my life.

I need to get some cds to burn. You know that feeling where you still love all the music you have but it just doesn't match your mood after listening to it many times over and over?

I can't even tell you how much electronic music elevates me. I need to tattoo 'Stop feeling sorry for yourself and go listen to some music NOW' on my hand or something. If I just made myself stop and listen every time I started feelin iffy, it would be cured I bet. Hmmm, this is a good experiment.

I'm SUPER stoked that today is my last day at Whole Foods. !!!!!!!!!! There are some dank ass people working there but other than that it blew for me.

I'm feeling positive about a new job. Something close to my house so I don't have to do 110 to get there in twenty minutes. Something personal, with a handful of employees. Something where I will get recognition for the work I put in. Something where I make more money. Something where I will NOT work weekends. Something lower volume and lower stress. Bosses who communicate would be nice.

I've got an interview to schedule with a lil coffeehouse that may just meet the criteria. And if it doesn't there's got to be a place that will.

I am soooo grateful to Shawn. He's taking care of me. It's creepy how our love is so much stronger now after 'breaking up'...we started noticing everything we adore about each other on a daily basis...sex is rad. ...I have a feeling we'll continue to be unofficially together for a looong time. It gives us both freedom from resentment and jealousy. He's happy because he can have all the pussy he wants and have me. I'm happy because I can have all the pussy I want and have him.

The other night we had some foursome hot tub action. We were all faded as hell after the PB block party. Shawn, his best friend, his girl and I were chillin and then this fine ass woman comes and joins us. (Fine ass literally--her man(the man of the house) was lifting up her dress to show me her ass earlier and I almost splooged all over the couch.)

She's chillin and flirtin...I hadn't noticed her all night except for the ass flash--maybe she was dressed differently? But she was flirting with Shawn earlier when he was sittin with his head on his knees trying not to pass out...

So then her man comes in and we're like bootsy. (Shawn's best friend and girl were in their own lil world this whole time)
So then it just turned into couples action. I was on Shawn's lap facing away with my legs kinda floating and Sky(what a rad name!) was facing her man across from us. I just kept staring at her back wanting to just go pull her off but it was his party so I didn't want to piss him off...

Anyways so they kind of float closer to me and I can't stand it so I start reaching out and caressing her back...

After that it became a delicious Sky/Bethany sandwich.
The guys were doin their thing with us too but I don't think we noticed them all that much except when Jimmy would pull her away--break!--...

WOW doesn't describe how turned on I was. Every time I'm with a woman it gets hotter to me. Every time I'm with a guy it gets lamer (except Shawn).

I can feel her and see her right now. I want more Sky! And some more girls. A LOT more. I'm so sprung.

Yah so on that note and with some rad footage in my head now, I hope everyone has as good a day as I'm havin!