I'm fucking depressed.
The kind where you want to curl up in bed, or better yet if there's a handy hole in the ground to swallow you up it would be great.
I was all stoked because I was actually going to have a Christmas this year.
Well, not now.
I just figured out bills. I should have waited til after the holiday.
We're like $300 short for bills and rent. That's not counting the money my boi was supposed to set aside for my Christmas but didn't, money for sockings and other little things, money for all of the family bullshit secret santas we have to get, the money for the tickets to the New Year's party (AND the drugs AND the hotel AND the gas etc)...
Basically there's NO FUCKING WAY we can get away with having any fun or even buying me something, because we'll be borrowing to try to make rent.
*SNIF*
At least my boi got his present. Hmpf. I was starting to perk up at the thought of some fun and spending some dough on something other than bills.
Now I guess I'll have to try to find something to be happy about. Barf.
I guess I could be happy that my boi hasn't dumped me yet.
Ok, so I thought of one thing. One fucking sad little thing to lift my spirits.
Forget it. I'm a lost cause now. I've been struggling my whole life, and probly will for the rest of it, so I should just sink into the misery and get used to it.
The kind where you want to curl up in bed, or better yet if there's a handy hole in the ground to swallow you up it would be great.
I was all stoked because I was actually going to have a Christmas this year.
Well, not now.
I just figured out bills. I should have waited til after the holiday.
We're like $300 short for bills and rent. That's not counting the money my boi was supposed to set aside for my Christmas but didn't, money for sockings and other little things, money for all of the family bullshit secret santas we have to get, the money for the tickets to the New Year's party (AND the drugs AND the hotel AND the gas etc)...
Basically there's NO FUCKING WAY we can get away with having any fun or even buying me something, because we'll be borrowing to try to make rent.
*SNIF*
At least my boi got his present. Hmpf. I was starting to perk up at the thought of some fun and spending some dough on something other than bills.
Now I guess I'll have to try to find something to be happy about. Barf.
I guess I could be happy that my boi hasn't dumped me yet.
Ok, so I thought of one thing. One fucking sad little thing to lift my spirits.
Forget it. I'm a lost cause now. I've been struggling my whole life, and probly will for the rest of it, so I should just sink into the misery and get used to it.
engrishmofaka:
Yeah I'm in the same boat. Like way negative on the cash flow and I can thank the law for that one.
brutalfetus:
yeah san diego will do that to you. it took me years to get the job i have now and some stability. portland was way easier.
