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Monday Jun 19, 2006

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I'm seriously considering adopting a drug-free lifestyle.

Every time I drink alcohol, I regret it. I have one beer and want to sit on my ass at home and do nothing. I have two and I pass out within the hour. And my tolerance is not going up any. I've had beer 5 out of 7 days last week.

I drink water, eat healthy and even drink pedialyte in between beers and I STILL have a hangover the next day.

I don't think I'm that much fun anymore when I drink. I get all tired and want to smoke more pot to wake me up, which wakes me up for a minute then I pass the fuck out.

Which brings me to the pot. My dearest friend for the past six years since I discovered it as a wonderful way to temporarily forget my worries.

But now, I am starting to feel held back by this old friend. I've cut back from smoking at every opportunity to smoking after work. That's 11 hours less smoking every day for a few weeks now.

Which is grand. I've been getting SUPER stoned at night. But still. After I smoke I get sooooo stupid-feeling and sooooo tired and good for nothing! I don't feel stimulated by it nearly so much as stifled by it now.

I usually smoke when I feel overwhelmed. Lately though, it makes the problem worse because I 'wake up' after my pot induced stupor and freak out all over again coz I just wasted all that time and energy smoking instead of finding solutions to my problems.

Anyway, I probably won't go quitting cold turkey. I still love the pot. I know it has worked wonders for me.

But I'm cutting back. Again. More.

And I'm only drinking beer because I love the taste. Drinking very s l o w l y.

ooh, cool:

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Some troubled waters show signs of calming down. The best thing you can do right now is not stir up any past matters. Let the universe do its work. Meanwhile, your good mood will just increase with these changes.



damn right:

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You have confidence in your ideas and you know exactly what you're doing -- that is all you need for success. So why are you getting hung up on what other people think? It's likely that your insecurity button is getting pushed by the usual suspects. Opinions are good, but everyone has one -- and they aren't all valid. Consider the possibility that jealousy could be clouding someone's judgment. Stay open to compromise, because a fierce show of independence could send the wrong message.

temper:
Ha, I was gonna just say "Well, time for a change then, eh?" but now...

Perhaps, you've just been too much of a booze and pot fiend to pay any attention to such matters. Hm? Hm?
I'm so wise.

By the way, beer is shit. Tastes good and all, but I can't get drunk off it either. Just makes me droopy, I go home/to bed, had anything from 2 - 6 beers and while I'm never even tipsy, I get a hangover. So... I just drink whisky. I'm intoxicated, energetic (seriously!) and as long as I don't get stupid and mix with other liquour, I'm hangover-free.

Pot is infantile.

So my point is - drug free is not an option. You just have to find the right drug. wink
Jun 19, 2006
lemuria:
ive cut back as well lately and i feel much more able to think in the daytime. i feel more myself and have a great time. i just get home and think about my shitty relationship as of late and it makes me feel happy to smoke. eventually, in the not too distant future, i shall no more. as for the beer, ive never been a fan..well thats a lie, when i was in college and i went to a party and thats all they had i was known to drink my share of yuenglings. jagerbombs are what keeps me up at night and busy as a bee. i clean my house at three am when im drinking those fuckers! ahhaha biggrin i hope your changes go smoothly. kiss kiss
Jun 19, 2006

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