Friday Apr 05, 2013

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you know your back is against the wall when the only thing that wants you, the only thing that you can count on, is the thing that will kill you.

Wednesday Apr 03, 2013

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i may be changing my user name on here some time in the next month.

last night i went out to see Sigur Ros.. and what a fantastic show.
i took someone, but i might as well have simply been there alone.
against the backdrop of the music.. i had time to think. i suppose i came to some conclusions on a number of things...
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Saturday Jan 05, 2013

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im tired.
i feel as if Legion is sitting on my chest, making sport of my very life breath.

my 'friends' are people that won't even text me back. i have lost the most precious things i held, and i am stretching to consider any reason at all that should keep me here.
still, i just don't know what direction to look in...
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Thursday Sep 13, 2012

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i feel as if i am standing alone in the middle of 5.9 billion Jerry Springer guests.
my god, where are the rest of you?
it's like a nightmare.
niobe:

It took me a long time to reach the point I am in now.

Tuesday Sep 11, 2012

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i have edited my profile to update it and make it a little more currently relevant.
it was bugging me, for whatever reason, that the information was all so old.

i do not sleep so much now. before Cass left me i was sleeping fine. Now, i wake in jumps or hyperventilating after only a few minutes. We have that moment at the edge of...
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niobe:

Ugh. I know how you feel. frown I really do. It's not a good feeling. Everyone keeps telling me it will get better. I hope they are right.

And I will see your response easier if you respond in my blog. wink

Friday Sep 07, 2012

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days in to this shit. no sleep, cannot eat.
as for the more serious matters in life, i am struggling to even move, how can i do something about them.

i have been through this shit too much before. i am not like you. i cannot heal, not from betrayal like this.

i know what must be done, and i am filled with resentment for...
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niobe:

frown

Thursday Sep 06, 2012

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hm. have they changed the way the blog works around here? i come around so rarely anymore.
i dont even recognize any of the models. i guess i will figure it out.

why i am here... it is this blog, actually. my life is in a state of horrid upheaval.
i was recently left.. by the girl i was with.. my best friend, or so...
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niobe:

frown Sometimes writing it out can be helpful.

vassago:

uh.. people will be able to see this? well...fantastic.
im sure you are right, and im not as crazy as my blogs will sound.. i hope. i am just really, really disoriented and overwhelmed.
thank you for your consideration. it doesnt go unappreciated.
oh, does replying here mean you can see it?

Friday Jul 23, 2010

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i wonder if anyone will even read my posts anymore.
it isnt like i know anyone on this site any longer.. though i certainly used to.

i keep saying that i am going to start 'keeping up' with my blog and my presence on here once again, and i did mean that. however.. the last two months of my life have been an unprecedented nightmare...
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Wednesday Jun 09, 2010

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I would love to think that the purpose of my life is not the practice of lachrymology.
yet here i am, confused and locked in chagrin.

at least i find some stupid comfort in the likes of tim and eric.
.. which i am watching right now.

I have burned through these last horrible three weeks by focusing on the one real thing i have left...
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Thursday Feb 25, 2010

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It has been a really long time since i have been truly active on the site.

I havent looked through the forums or the newer models in a very long time. Nevertheless, I have chosen to maintain my account here and make an effort to become re-aquainted with SG as it is at this point. Looking around, quite a few things have changed..

Life for...
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Monday Mar 02, 2009

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I miss her so much.
i haven't heard anything in days, and my imagination is playing against me.. who was she really with? why was i blown off? why were these events so covert?
should i be feeling this way..?
i cant help that this feels like a place ive been dragged to before.
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vassago:

adore me.

vivid:

will do.

Sunday Jan 18, 2009

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As usual, it has been awhile since i have posted on here.
I rarely visit Sg lately.... though i have meant to do something about that for awhile.

Im going to be adding some images to the "pics" section, should anyone care at all. I've made it a point to get re-aquainted with this site... i see that a lot has changed since i...
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