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yesterday was pretty great! We stopped by dereks grandmas memorial garden, it was kinda sad to see that all the wildflower seeds we'd spread about it, didnt take but it was recently tended, so that may be why. It looked nice though, and it will be breathtaking once spring comes again.
After that we went to dinner at claim jumper. If you don't have those...
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faye:
Thank you for understanding.
I guess I can understand in a way. I know I was well received and maybe it's horrible but I did like that...but at the same time I never set out to hurt anyone. I have never said anything hurtful to anyone in that group at all. I have a lot of friends that have come out of that group and if I have the time I'm there commenting.
I know that there were members comments that feuled this...and that's what I get all the time.
Like...oh you better watch your crown Miss Faye...and shit like that. And now I'm just ready to snap because MEMBERS made this fight. Not the girls at all. While they may feel whatever it is that they feel towards me it's people saying shit like that. The girls in the group are nothing but supportive to each other.
I just hate that people treat me like I walk around like I'm little miss popularity or that I'm so stuck up and I think about no one else and stuff. In an email once someone said that they bet I made fun of the other girls behind their backs because that's what they would do if they were me. And I honestly couldn't believe it, I was just like AS IF I WOULD EVER DO THAT. I support those ladies with all my heart. I just feel like some people think I'm such a bad person for all of this. Cathedra felt that way too and now she's gone. She didn't leave for that reason but she did hate being treated like this and so do I.
I really don't mean to start anything with you or anyone else in the group especially the girls. I would feel better if you just removed the thread. I shouldn't have opened my mouth in the first place.
I guess I can understand in a way. I know I was well received and maybe it's horrible but I did like that...but at the same time I never set out to hurt anyone. I have never said anything hurtful to anyone in that group at all. I have a lot of friends that have come out of that group and if I have the time I'm there commenting.
I know that there were members comments that feuled this...and that's what I get all the time.
Like...oh you better watch your crown Miss Faye...and shit like that. And now I'm just ready to snap because MEMBERS made this fight. Not the girls at all. While they may feel whatever it is that they feel towards me it's people saying shit like that. The girls in the group are nothing but supportive to each other.
I just hate that people treat me like I walk around like I'm little miss popularity or that I'm so stuck up and I think about no one else and stuff. In an email once someone said that they bet I made fun of the other girls behind their backs because that's what they would do if they were me. And I honestly couldn't believe it, I was just like AS IF I WOULD EVER DO THAT. I support those ladies with all my heart. I just feel like some people think I'm such a bad person for all of this. Cathedra felt that way too and now she's gone. She didn't leave for that reason but she did hate being treated like this and so do I.
I really don't mean to start anything with you or anyone else in the group especially the girls. I would feel better if you just removed the thread. I shouldn't have opened my mouth in the first place.
faye:
Thanks you're the bestest 
OK well, Derek informed me that back in the day whenever there was a mishap in the system(like during ww2), they refered to it as a gremlin. So maybe that's what the person meant, not that I actually look like a gremlin. But still...who knows.
I'm sorry if I haven't commented in some of your journals in a while. I've been rather caught up with...
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_pauly_:
Thank you for the birthday wishes Nikki 
, your word were so sweet 
Oh and yet another beautiful profile pic of yourself
, your word were so sweet
Oh and yet another beautiful profile pic of yourself
cinnamon_spider:
just wanted to say thank you...
your comment on my PSW set... well, I have a hell of a lot of issues about my appearence, YEARS of issues, lol... but my face is my worst enemy... my most hated body-part... and for a woman as beautiful as you to say what you said about my face... well, I was touched and shocked and I really appreciate it! Thank you!!
your comment on my PSW set... well, I have a hell of a lot of issues about my appearence, YEARS of issues, lol... but my face is my worst enemy... my most hated body-part... and for a woman as beautiful as you to say what you said about my face... well, I was touched and shocked and I really appreciate it! Thank you!!
Derek has two days off in a row for the first time in a long time. It makes me so happy!
I'm just patiently waiting for showtime at the apollo to come on so I can wop-wop with the best of them. I so love monique. She's a big sexy gal, and I adore her.
We were going to go visit Dereks grandma tomorrow, but...
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I'm just patiently waiting for showtime at the apollo to come on so I can wop-wop with the best of them. I so love monique. She's a big sexy gal, and I adore her.
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brokenhouse:
hey..! maybe i wouldn't have been so snarky had she not insulted me first.. i tried playing it down at first!!
anyway.. we have kissed and made up in our journals and the feud is over. please i don't want another one with you.... please!
i am certain she has a sense of humour.. i was just on the defensive which i'm sure you would have been had you had been in my position with someone you had never met.
i am sorry if i have upset you as well.. truly.
please can this be the end of the matter
anyway.. we have kissed and made up in our journals and the feud is over. please i don't want another one with you.... please!
i am certain she has a sense of humour.. i was just on the defensive which i'm sure you would have been had you had been in my position with someone you had never met.
i am sorry if i have upset you as well.. truly.
please can this be the end of the matter
brokenhouse:
thank you so much for getting back to me
i love the group and i understand and respect that the position you took was the right one and was for all the right reasons. it never occured to me that some of the girls were sensitive, because in my mind they all look so stunning, so i shall certainly be more mindfull from now on and not be on the defensive.. i'll save that for the boards
again... thank you for your reply, it was very appreciated
i love the group and i understand and respect that the position you took was the right one and was for all the right reasons. it never occured to me that some of the girls were sensitive, because in my mind they all look so stunning, so i shall certainly be more mindfull from now on and not be on the defensive.. i'll save that for the boards
again... thank you for your reply, it was very appreciated
The funeral service was beautiful, and I was more emotional than I expected I'd be. Derek and his brother both handled things so well! Derek gave a reading, and he didn't falter once. He has such a great speaking voice. So rich and deep. Everyone tells him he should do voice over work.
I had never been in a Catholic church before. It was interesting...
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finch:
i really like their self-titled album. it's good some completely rad songs on it.
it's good some completely rad songs on it. 
alpo:
No, thank YOU for showing them off.
What a sensitive and moving journal entry. I'm sorry about your loss.
What a sensitive and moving journal entry. I'm sorry about your loss.
dEREKTheReds grandpa passed away Wednesday morning, give him some love.
Update:
The funeral will be on Tuesday. Derek is such a strong person! He went to work today, and so far he's been taking everything really well. The funeral will definitely be hard on him, I'm sure thats when the finality of it all will set it.
The worst thing about all of this...
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Update:
The funeral will be on Tuesday. Derek is such a strong person! He went to work today, and so far he's been taking everything really well. The funeral will definitely be hard on him, I'm sure thats when the finality of it all will set it.
The worst thing about all of this...
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burningleviathan:
thats okay. i'm glad you two are dealing with the grief well.
Yeah they are, i'm glad you met someone you connect with so well.
weve figured it out for the most part.
thank you for the compliment.
Yeah they are, i'm glad you met someone you connect with so well.
weve figured it out for the most part.
thank you for the compliment.
howdypardner:
you'd actually be surprised how well you can learn to cope. . .It sucks and is hard for a time, but then life has this way of moving on, you get past the grief and live, sometimes you still cry and have fond memories, but death is eventual. . .we all have to pass that veil sometime. . .I don't know. The main thing is it can hurt and shit, but you can learn to live again, life can forces you, the sun still rises and sets and you still have yourself to take care of. . .
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kytar1:
Sorry to hear of the lose, we're here for ya boo.
[Edited on Jul 28, 2005 10:17PM]
[Edited on Jul 28, 2005 10:17PM]
yumchen:
Sorry to hear that Hugs to you and your family.
Hugs to you and your family.Time for an update.
Grandpa is doing a little better. We went to visit with him on Sunday. He was awake and able to communiicate a little. His body is still weak, and his throat was sore due to all the tubes they had down it, but he was able to respond to us when we spoke to him, and he even laughed and smiled...
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Grandpa is doing a little better. We went to visit with him on Sunday. He was awake and able to communiicate a little. His body is still weak, and his throat was sore due to all the tubes they had down it, but he was able to respond to us when we spoke to him, and he even laughed and smiled...
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devil_bitch:
I am no good at confortation at all. I tend to let things go and let the universe sort it out. Good luck babe. Glad to hear that Grandpa is doing better and yes it is stupid and RUDE for people to take up 2 slot machines at once.
queenmab:
Hey Nik,
I'm so sad about derricks gramps.I feel for u both, i really do.I send all my good luck(which is low)But perhaps it could help.I miss u. Perhaps this note may find u somewhat "well". None the less,I miss u.Please call me love.
With all mylove,
...Beth
I'm so sad about derricks gramps.I feel for u both, i really do.I send all my good luck(which is low)But perhaps it could help.I miss u.
Perhaps this note may find u somewhat "well". None the less,I miss u.Please call me love.
With all mylove,
...Beth
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juanita:
<3
pogue_mahone:
Fantastic!
Dereks grandpa is in the hospital. It's pretty scary, but my mom in law said grand-dad is doing better, and we're supposed to see him tomorrow. He is 80, and he has cancer. And due to some of the medications he's taking, when he fell down in the hallway, it caused some internal bleeding. According to Dereks aunt, 6 months ago he was given 3...
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_sarah_:
You're doing an awesome job as group owner.
niobe:
Wow! You are hot!
I'm back! Was having some tech difficulities, but it's all sorted now! As I have just bought a new computer!
I'm back! Was having some tech difficulities, but it's all sorted now! As I have just bought a new computer!
Sorcha has appointed me, new owner of PSW. 
I've been a member of SG, and PSW for a long time now, and I've always considered PSW my little haven on this site. So it's awesome that she thought of me to take her place, now that she's gotten so busy.
My best friend Roy, cam to visit me the other day. He spent the night,...
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I've been a member of SG, and PSW for a long time now, and I've always considered PSW my little haven on this site. So it's awesome that she thought of me to take her place, now that she's gotten so busy.
My best friend Roy, cam to visit me the other day. He spent the night,...
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shimmer:
oh yes...and that guy? is that roy? he's a major hottie! wow! lucky girl you are to have a friend like him. and he's a lucky guy to have a gorgeous friend like you! don't worry, i won't delete you from my friends. those people were prob just really busy with a lot of friends, or had bugs up their arses!
bella_donna:
congrates on psw!! thats so rocking awsome! and thanks for the lovely complement on my set 
I love those photos esp the second one with the latter awsoem work lady!!
I love those photos esp the second one with the latter awsoem work lady!!
My god it is fucking HOT in here!! 
I hate not having a/c. But I also like living here for free, so I guess I really can't complain.
There is a chance that Derek and I will be getting a vehicle! YAY! I really hope it works out. I'm so sick of never being able to go anywhere without a few weeks advance notice. His...
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I hate not having a/c. But I also like living here for free, so I guess I really can't complain.
There is a chance that Derek and I will be getting a vehicle! YAY! I really hope it works out. I'm so sick of never being able to go anywhere without a few weeks advance notice. His...
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_pauly_:
Congrats on being the new owner of PSW hon'. I could'nt think of anyone else who could do a better job
delilahb:
I'm so happy you're the new PSW group owner!!! nice set, by the way!
yeah not having a scanner would kinda suck
i hope we dont have to move him, gah that would suck ass
u should try out for SG, ur so cute,
have a nice day
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