sureality

Somethin' filled up
my heart with nothin',
someone told me not to cry.



You ever stop moving and just look at you life?
There was a point when the volume went down, and all I could hear was my heart, I was happy.
It may have been flawed, it may have been hard, but it was true, and absolutely stunning.


I miss that.

If there is one thing Ill give my subconscious, is that its really original, and sometime quite literal. Tonights beauty of a dream was based around an old Nintendo video game. Me and the love of my life lived as these video game characters. I was literally a video game character from the Nintendo days. Small, short legs, round body, little mustache, and she was...
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I miss my best friend today.

It hurts when they miss you too.

But I thank God that it does.

Another day.

The brain is still buzzing, and the heart swollen with pain, it's just a lot duller.

It's strange how desaturated the world is lately. It makes me realize how truly happy I was. I'm a lucky bastard for having it as much as I did.

Can't wait till the new years has come and shit is back to normal. No one is around...
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MIND KILLING.....RESTRICTING....FEAR IS THE ENEMY ON MY PATH!!!
"Guitar Solo"

Yes the rumors are true. New music video on the way. In the edit room this month, it's gonna be a big one.

Should keep me busy through the holidays..thank god. Any moment I have to myself just plain sucks.

My dreams are so vivid, and last nights...I didn't want to leave.
"Look at what I got" she says. "Come play with my butt, it comforts me".

When it gets to hard to breath I start writing. I have been writing down every memory I have from the past 4 years. I'm afraid of loosing them somehow. Like someone spilling water on a painting. Our...
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You try to be admirable. To do what you heart says is right. Most would find that comforting, romantic, and desirable. The one finds it to be a curse. One comment can send black oil over all of your memories. Life loves to fuck with you.