sanguine

im sitting here, messing around on the computer...

i realize the house is quiet... pin drop quiet...

my spawn is barely ever home anymore..... doing her own thing, with all of her friends.

next year, she will be old enough to drive O.o

im just thinking.... damn, it has gone by soo fast

the older she gets, the less time she spends with mom...

i...
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WHOREBAGGEDHOLYMOTHERFUCKINGSHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I GOT THE ROUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HAVE WEEKEND TIME OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*CRIES*

ive put of shopping long enough..... gah, i hate going to buy groceries... the supermarket is always filled with soccer moms.......

then house cleaning....

this is not going to be a fun day...

anyone wanna come help.... ill clean naked..

i feel sad today, not for myself but for a good friend

his mother has advanced cancer throughout her upper body... today they were going to sit with the doctor... not to find out what they can do, but how long she has left....

i cant even imagine what it is like for him to go through... sitting there listening to someone tell you that...
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i love my choice in breakfast foodz this morning......

a huge fucking bowl of chocolate cherry cordial icecream and a glass of orange juice


breakfast of champions!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


after note:

i gave it a good go... i only got half way through the bowl...and had to stop

ive been working soo much....and not really doing much in life outside of that.... sleep work sleep work... not much interaction with humans :p and i dont think that there is all that much that i am afraid of in life.... but lately i fear that i am forgetting what love is.......

waking up for work, 3 hours late, because you forgot to turn your alarm on.....

is not a good thing

my poor child.... she has been sick for almost 6 weeks now.... and what started out as a simple cold.... now turned into a sinus infection and minor bronchitis... they gave her 3 meds she has to take.... and this morning she woke up with a rash all over her body... head down to toes.... its so bad....... so now i am giving her benedryl...
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so the reality of me having weekend time off... is very near..... like within 2 weeks... this just isnt one weekend off... these will be my days off during the week from now on.... if this happens.... OMFG.... i might actually have a little bit of a life

today... im just tired... meh

i just love it when my father calls and says... i cooked a big pot of whatever for supper... come on over....
i always jump on that.... no cooking and no dishes for me!!!!

this weekend we are supposed to be in the 60's .... its about damn time... i have had enough of this winter bullshit... im ready to...
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as always... an interesting night with the boys.... i always seem to come back looking like i got beat up though not sure when i was nominated to be the punching bag O.o

right now my daughter is getting over a cold... and barely has a voice... it takes everything i have to not piss myself laughing at her.. its funny enough she is sooo...
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im feeling pretty tired today.... im not quite sure... i think my levels are off again... i really didnt feel like going in to get the blood work done to find out... but i think im gonna have to breakdown and go.... if its off and i dont take care of it... i could have some major problems starting with my heart..... grrrrrrrrrrrrr

i would...
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