s5

exhausted. can't think. have no more room for more thoughts, words, choices. need to sleep, need to keep going. can't stop.

update: today is better. i slept.

i'm in the worst mood right now. i hate relying on other people, especially when it's work related. i take great pride in what i do, and right now i feel angry.

i want to be in bed. i want other people who should not be in bed, to be out of bed, responding to their pagers. i want to be in bed.

busy with burning man building - no time to really post or update.

smooch smooch!

it's ironic that while all the nasty high-school debate club style threads have been all over the boards, that i've been reading 'ethics for a new millennium' by the dalai lama at the same time. it's interesting to compare some of the more bloodthirsty discussions to the pragmatic calm i find in this book. his words are like a beautiful warm quilt of reason and...
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there is no word in tibetan for 'guilt'.

the cat still hisses and growls when she smells her on my clothes. even though the other cat is long gone.

the cat knows things. this is why i love her.

i am practicing wu wei through the act of this journal.

i wish to bathe in ice cubes and fondle liquid nitrogen.

O is scared that i'm going to turn into the bunny from donnie darko and start talking in the creepy voice.

am i the only person who sleeps with their eyes open?

today it became clear that the billboards are really going to happen. as we were weighing the merits of styrene vs. vinyl vs. canvas, i thought oh god, this is really happening isn't it - we're really going to build giant velcro billboards. it's one of those things that, when repeated inside your own head, sounds more and more absurd until the very notion of...
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