Yeah, I get it. I'm not cute. I've never been cute, and I never will be. I'm not the super saccharine, cutesy, bubbly, giggling cute girl. I know that, I've known that since middle school. That's just not me. I'm sorry.
I also understand that I'm always number two. I'm always the second choice after the first has been exhausted. I've also known that for...
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I also understand that I'm always number two. I'm always the second choice after the first has been exhausted. I've also known that for...
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You know, my 4th of July ended up being not so horrible afterall.
I went to work, and there actually weren't many guys that came out. But I still ended up making decent money, considering what was there. I was pleased. I thought it was interesting that a navy boy wearing Abercrombie was totally into me, haha. I made $100 off of him alone, sucker!...
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I went to work, and there actually weren't many guys that came out. But I still ended up making decent money, considering what was there. I was pleased. I thought it was interesting that a navy boy wearing Abercrombie was totally into me, haha. I made $100 off of him alone, sucker!...
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desdenova:
I'm starting to think more and more that it may be neccessary for me, too.
If I do end up going, LA is really the only place I'm considering.
If I do end up going, LA is really the only place I'm considering.
hellynn:
you should do another SG set to make some extra cash money. I know Id enjoy seeing it 
Last night at the club I made $80.
I have to work tonight, my favorite holiday (I love fireworks). And I probably won't make any money and I will have missed fireworks for nothing.
I hate my night job. Happy 4th of fucking July.
Other than work and money though, things are pretty good right now. I'm happy in every other aspect of my life......
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I have to work tonight, my favorite holiday (I love fireworks). And I probably won't make any money and I will have missed fireworks for nothing.
I hate my night job. Happy 4th of fucking July.
Other than work and money though, things are pretty good right now. I'm happy in every other aspect of my life......
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seth0067:
hey man, i went to a movie by myself tonight. wooooooo holiday.
sport:
think of your job as a daily penace to live so fun 
I love SGSeattle. And I mean LOVE. What amazing people really.
And it's just now hitting me, as I'm just getting home, that Adore is really gone... It hit me on Tuesday at karaoke, and I cried. But I felt stupid crying there, so I pushed it away. Then tonight, as we parted ways, I was still thinking in the back of my mind that...
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And it's just now hitting me, as I'm just getting home, that Adore is really gone... It hit me on Tuesday at karaoke, and I cried. But I felt stupid crying there, so I pushed it away. Then tonight, as we parted ways, I was still thinking in the back of my mind that...
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alhim:
*in a freak moment of realization I run down to the dryer in the laundry room to search for the remains of Roxy.
EGADS! ITS TOO LATE!
My mother always told me to check my pants before throwing them in the wash.
RIP. In memory of Roxy. If only I would have known sooner.
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EGADS! ITS TOO LATE!
My mother always told me to check my pants before throwing them in the wash.
RIP. In memory of Roxy. If only I would have known sooner.
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monkey13:
Change is always difficult but in the end very needed and good usually. Hang in there and it'll turn around. I've gone through too many weeks of confusion, alcohol and self reflection only to come out the other side 100x's better than before. It can't rain all the time.
Here we go again...
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rybo:
another day. another dollar. 
it_thing_hard_on:
If this is about what I think it is, then 
. If it isn't, 
.
. If it isn't, .I just put in my two week notice with my really rad day job. I'm really sad to be leaving it... it's just customer service, but I love it. It's a small company owned by a husband and wife, he started it from his apartment years and years ago.
The environment is laid back, the people are just awesome. I have a lot of fun...
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The environment is laid back, the people are just awesome. I have a lot of fun...
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vikprez:
It is still hard to believe, and this last month will just fly by too.
chloe:
awwwww!
So proud of you for making such a gutsy decision. That's what my boy is going to do too. One of these days. Sigh.
So proud of you for making such a gutsy decision. That's what my boy is going to do too. One of these days. Sigh.
I just got back from my second night at the club. Hmm...
Last night was my first night, and I have to give a huge thanks to my friends who came out and supported me: Adore, Seth0067, PunkJr, Kara, Volks, vikpreZ, and MrDiety. It made my first night mostly bearable. And since it was my first night, I...
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Last night was my first night, and I have to give a huge thanks to my friends who came out and supported me: Adore, Seth0067, PunkJr, Kara, Volks, vikpreZ, and MrDiety. It made my first night mostly bearable. And since it was my first night, I...
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lily:
well its always hard for the new girl, well actually it depends on what club you're working but it takes a while to get regulars. At certain clubs i worked i would take my piercings out just because it was better for business, of course i still have tattoos but sometimes i realized that wearing hot pink shiny thong and top would make me alot more money than my blackness fishnets,boas, garters. But above all of that its really about acting, I've seen the most gorgeous girls not make shit because you really have to be flirtatious and act like you are really into the customers. You've danced before, You know that some nights are shit while others are amazing. You never know. You are exceptionally Goregous, I've always thought so, You'll be fine.
kimmi:
It isn't because you aren't attractive, because you are. Sometimes you will make money and sometimes you won't. Don't be too hard on yourself pretty lady! I used a lot of vitamin e for my bruises and such!
I hope things work out better for you!
I hope things work out better for you!
I'm pretty unhappy right now. And I'm not sure what it will take to make it right again.
Am I just going to L.A., or am I running away to L.A.? There's a big difference, and I'm not sure which one it is that I'm doing. Either way, I'm going, and here's to hoping it makes me happy. Oh L.A., are you holding what it...
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Am I just going to L.A., or am I running away to L.A.? There's a big difference, and I'm not sure which one it is that I'm doing. Either way, I'm going, and here's to hoping it makes me happy. Oh L.A., are you holding what it...
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mrdeity:
You looked great last night and I want to wish you the best of luck tonight!
[Edited on Jun 26, 2004 4:54PM]
[Edited on Jun 26, 2004 4:54PM]
whatisthelight:
I hope the new job is going well. I wish I could have made it last night but while taking out money at the ATM at the movie theater I saw my account was overdrawn. Negative money. Ouch! Hopefully I will see you soon and not just on Tuesdays.
Hopefully I will see you soon and not just on Tuesdays. Yeah. Apparently no one at all comments in my journal here anymore. I guess my entries just aren't that entertaining. Well, I'm sorry folks, I can't just make shit up. Actually I guess I can, but I don't. *sigh*
The last week has been really hard on me. Personal relationships are all outta whack all over the place. Fuck. And I've straightened a couple out,...
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The last week has been really hard on me. Personal relationships are all outta whack all over the place. Fuck. And I've straightened a couple out,...
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cutnhalf:
Its hard to lose people that are important to you and it is even harder to lose thenm so close apart....I buried my grandmother(on my moms side) in April of 03....I was her caregiver for most of the 1 1/2 befor she died....Two months later I lost my grandpa(on my dads side).....It was rough and Iam very sorry you and your mom are going through that....I hope things are okay.....
ophelia:
I'm sorry that things have been going badly lately I hope that the LA move helps with that. Have you seen Synnove's group yet?
Thanks for commenting on my set with Tiamat
I hope that the LA move helps with that. Have you seen Synnove's group yet?
Thanks for commenting on my set with Tiamat
Three journals entries in one day? It must be some sort of record for me. Especially considering it's been a very low key day, I haven't even left my apartment.
The phone conversation I was so looking forward to didn't quite go as well as I had hoped. But you know what? I was honest and up front. And that's all I can give anyone....
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The phone conversation I was so looking forward to didn't quite go as well as I had hoped. But you know what? I was honest and up front. And that's all I can give anyone....
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luminaire:
Hope everything's going well. Would be a shame for things to start sucking now, after they've been going so well.
vikprez:
I have been in and out all night, I will give you a call tomorrow and say hello
[Edited on Jul 10, 2004 10:36AM]
[Edited on Jul 10, 2004 2:07PM]