reverendbenzo

I feel tired inside like my skin in on too tight. Sometimes I wish I could just take a break from myself. I have not felt this alone in my life. Sorry for the whiney post but sometimes seconds turn into hours and hours into days. The monotony alone is pure torture.

My ongoing state of involuntary celibacy is a constant sort of amusement for my boss. I wish I could find as much humor in it. She just came back from vacation and you know how everyone always brings something back for someone right? Well she bought me a create-a-date. You put it in water and it grows. She had a big shit eating grin on...
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I wanted to update this journal but my mind is a complete blank right now. I could tell about work but that would just be boring so here are a few random facts about me:
-I was born in Macon, Ga. on Dec 9, 1972 (huh huh I'm old).
-I fell down the brick steps of my family's old house when I was two. The...
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I have to work with Anne *shudder* later tonight. What's even worse about this is that it's the weekend and we have the possibilty of being secret shopped looming in the background. For anyone else this wouldn't be a big deal. Stay out on the floor and ask EVERYONE if they are finding everything okay. That's it. If they do indeed need help then help...
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I had a guy ask me tonight for "that religious movie about Jesus." He didn't want The Passion. He didn't know the name of it or who was in it. He did know it was a new release though. Thanks for the info pal. A religious movie about Jesus, give me a break. What else kind of movie would it be, a fucking romantic comedy...
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My day was spent doing normal and possible even mundane activities yet I can't shake the feeling of mild accomplishment. I woke up fresh and haze free around 9:30 ( a full half hour before my alarm was set). I cleaned cleaned and cleaned my house from top to bottom. I am embarrassed to mentioned how many bages of trash that was carried out. Of...
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We have a new girl at work and she is so fucking annoying it hurts my brain to be around her. "Where does this movie go? Where does this movie go? Where does...." over and over and over. She doesn't like me either. She told everyone she thought I was mean and that I was foul-mouthed and hard to get along with. Uh, yeah. That's...
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I think it's still there waiting. Attached perhaps floating in the ocean of alcohol. It's calling. It's voice is getting louder and I can no longer ignore it. Just try and see what comes out. I need something to pass the time. I haven't been this lonely in my life. Pick up and get comfortable. Eat and drink. Get rid of this elephant off of...
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I want to update but my mind is a total blank right now. I dunno.
Well work was stressfull. I'm sure I'll get reamed out tonight. I hate that deadend job.
I just got through watching Serial Mom and completely forgot that L7 was in it. God I used to love them. Jennifer Finch is so hot.
I got drunk last night and threw up....
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Okay here goes:
I woke up Sat. with a very bad sore throat. I took a vitamin C tablet and drove to Matt's house where he was suprsingly dressed and ready to go.

About 20 miles into Florida we saw a sign for a 15 foot great white shark. We stopped but was informed that the shark died last the week before.
I have...
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This will be my last journal entry until Monday. Oh I know I can hear the hearts breaking all ready! The next time you hear from me I will be two SGBs richer. My truck is up and running so the possiblilty of ending up stranded on the side of the road are slim (hopefully I didn't just jinx it). I have my T-shirt, shitload...
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I had a customer come up to the counter last night with a copy the brilliant film City Of God in his hand. Now normally I don't question their choice, but the film is foriegn. I've gotton countless complaints that they "didn't know they were going ta havta read" that I always point this out when someone goes to rent a foriegn language film.
Me:...
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