Thanks for all the people that left comments wishing that things will get better soon. I appreciate it! I just know its gonna be a while until I can stop making myself feel bad and just move on. I had a lot with this person and it hard to just move on. I hurt them by thinking I needed to leave. People kept telling me... Read More
Honestly the hardest part is just pushing through the nonstop shitty feelings and being lonely. So keep it up. You have my support if you need somebody to vent with.
Right now things are just horrible and I am sad things had to be this way. I am just hoping for things to get better super soon. I just have to kept reminding my self to look at the positives even though right now I feel like the only thing I can think of is the negatives, I know I need to do this for... Read More
2) the Avs routinely dissapoint, much like the Broncos and the Nuggets and the Rockies. its kinda how we do it Denver dont' lose hope, though. another World Series/Stanley Cup/Super Bowl/NBA Championship is just around the corner!!!! i mean, HEY--apparently something cool happened with Denver's MLS team, or so i read in the paper.
Thursday: I got my hair done and I started the book Choke by Chuck Palahniuk.
Friday: I did a bunch of homework to catch up and read a little bit more of Choke. I Also bought my guy friend Robin, a t-shirt for Valentines day.( I know I am early but I wanna make sure it gets... Read More
I am doing a lot better. Its nice to see all of you willing to care to comment though. It means alot
So I am going to fill you in on my awesome Christmas that I had with my best friend that I promised I would update on.
Its was nice to just hang out and have fun... Read More
Wow. I am sorry its been really hectic, especially in being able to get on the internet, I have working so hard trying to get the last minute things for school done before finals, and making sure I am giving the attention to people I care about.
I Just got back from break and I am ready to go back on break. : /
Thank you for your input...I really appreciate it The whole thing is just frustrating to say the least. I know I can't force her to like me, and I wouldn't think of ever trying to do something like that. It just feels like I was strung along and played like a fool and it has me feeling pretty pissed off about the whole thing.
When we first met she was just out of a relationship and wanted to be single for a while. That was fine by me, and even though I've never hid how I felt about her, I did my best to never force things or put her in a position that would make her feel uncomfortable. And for a while there it seemed like things might go somewhere. Like when I met her mom for the first time and asked J what she thought of me later on, she tells me that her mom asked her if she could see herself dating me and that she said yes. And that wasn't all that long ago...Feels like overnight things just changed with us for some reason.
And then the whole conversation we had where she told me why she didn't see me as anything more than a friend really pissed me off. The few weeks before that conversation, she had been avoiding me like the plague. I knew things were headed south, but I kept making an effort to get her to come hang out with me and to see different sides of me. So then she tells me that I'm not X, Y, or Z and I'm just like, how the hell do you know what I'm not when you've never let me be anything other than just a simple friend? When you've never had a chance to see anything that I may have to offer.
I mean, normally I don't have a problem with rejection...But this one is just different. I put in a lot of time and effort with this girl and fell for her pretty damn hard...It just effing sucks lol I probably will end up sending off that letter because there are things in it that I want her to know. If she reads it and decides that she wants to give me a real shot at things...A chance to show her what I can be and who I really am, then great. If not, then it's whatever...Honestly, as much as I like her, I'm ready to just be over this and admit that my friends and family were right and that I gave her a hell of a lot more than she deserved
Quick blog: Gonna go on a 6hr trip tomorrow to help Alyeska get her kitty's from her dad and go to thanksgiving with her family. Will update better blog soon :/
I spent time helping alyeska move into her new house, which by the way looks amazing! She has made it so cute and made it her own. Before it was just a small house, now it is her home.
Just last weekend I went over her house and we sat... Read More
I shot a lot before I shot my first .45, so kudos to you!
PS, My trick to shooting bullseyes.... I shoot a couple hundred rounds and am bound to get a few, but not necessarily on the first shot! :-)
So today I felt really accomplished. I got to my first class today and the test that I was so worried about ( because the teacher is so picky on test answers) I found out I got a 98% on the test! Yippee!! That made me happy the rest of the day.
Then tonight I had two papers due and I did them in... Read More
Okay so my fall break was a good time. I got to go to lincoln again, and see the home opener for the Lincoln Stars. YES.That was so awesome even though we lost, in more ways then. First Alyeska about got into a fight. Read spoiler for details on what happen.
And who doesn't love boobs !
dont' lose hope, though. another World Series/Stanley Cup/Super Bowl/NBA Championship is just around the corner!!!! i mean, HEY--apparently something cool happened with Denver's MLS team, or so i read in the paper.
Hope things between you and your dad get settled soon!
The whole thing is just frustrating to say the least. I know I can't force her to like me, and I wouldn't think of ever trying to do something like that. It just feels like I was strung along and played like a fool and it has me feeling pretty pissed off about the whole thing.
