polygirlaz

Things I have decided. He must say I love you first. I must make my own plans and not wait around the house for him. I will not text him unless he does it first. I will become my own person. Seperate from him and alive in my own way. I am tired of just being a part of someone , what happened to my...
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I have hope. Keep smiling I tell myself , keep your head up things will get better. Went to the boys house last night . Hung out for a while , watched the Vampire Diaries.He held me for a bit and was extra affectionate which was quite confusing. I kept wondering what kept him from kissing me or other things but I knew the truth....
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Please God take away this pain in my heart. These tears are just too much . I dont sleep all I think about is him . I want him to hold me and tell me he still wants to press his lips to mine. I need his caress so much I feel like I am empty. I will be going to his house tomorrow and...
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I am in man hater mode. Went to the boyfriends house today and he gave me the let us began an friends so we can work on our trust issues talk . Wtf. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr My stupid ass agreed cause I dont want to lose him . So Tuesday we are going to hang out. Now if I can just stop crying.

Love
Cheri

Finally finished my paper for class. Two more weeks I tell myself. This ought to make you giggle. Everytime I do work for this class I listen to the Contempory Christian Station on Pandora. Its a religous class you sillies. Anywho I heard this band and why I damn near fell over. Thought I would share it with you.

Kisses Cheri

Its the little things. Like this week . Bought some new clothes for work . That felt good. Snuggled with the boyfriend , helped him with laundry. That felt good. Had multiple orgasms even better. Started doing my own nails. Bonus self care. Learned how to hem my own pants. Less frustrated that I can never find pants in my height.
Woke up , loved...
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I really need to update this more often . Latest update continuing my training with Sir . It is going very actually and he has said he is impressed by the progress I am making. Still have not purchaded a journal I will do so today. It should prove to not only benefit me sexaully but emotionally as well . Been reading quite a bit...
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Started working out again. I need to be healthier not only physically but emotionally. I will alternate between the Wii fit ( day one ) and swimming thirty minutes every other day. I took the first step and started today. I have will have to make a concious choice to watch what I eat and consume on daily basis. Took a trip last weekend to...
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In a fantastic relationship . My new Dom has brought me to new highs I have never known . I love the way he cares for me afterward . It is extremely important to properly care for your sub in every way before and after play. He had proven to me that I have no fear when I am with him and shall call myself...
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Love Cheri

Its official Im in love or lust of just turned into a teenager. I spend the day texting him like a mad person and every one I get back makes me smile. He calls me beautiful which I still dont understand. I dont see it but isnt that typical of every woman nowadays. We've become obsessed with todays idea of beauty that when someone actually...
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I am tired of the lies. The games these men have played. I have recently broken my relationship with the man in my previous post. I found him to be screwing my friends mother of which he lived with both of them . He seemed to think it was no big deal and that his girlfriend should get over it WTF. I wanted him to...
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