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your journals are entertaining. I like girls but could never see myself having a relationship with one. we are quite crazy. I also don't think peni are beautiful. I like hip bones and belly buttons.

I peruse SB every now and then to size up the competition.
I am so putting those dudes to shame.


And I don't think you'ure a bitch for calling out a loveless relationship when you see it.

And you totally got it going on, girl, so fucking work it.
It's the summer, so enjoy it.

oh that sucks. I'm sorry.
and here I thought she understood

thank you for commenting on my set. I appreciate the feedback, and your support and appreciation for my efforts.

I just learned that i have a work party at 9 pm on Friday
would we be back by then?

ps. I feel like I'm being so selfish or something.
like I can't leave till after 9:30 I have to be back by 9.
eh but just like Evan said, I'm the one who wanted Cory fired.
I have to deal with the extra work load for getting what I want.

Well, after reading that, I can only reiterate everything i said in my previous note to you...you amaze me hun. You've obviously been through (and are still going through) a hell of a lot, and from the little glimpses of your personality that i've seen in your journal and the comments you've left on mine, you really have become an incredibly beautiful person despite your setbacks. i'm proud of you for where you are today and everything you've achieved and i barely even know you.

you said that you can't keep friends, but i can't believe that's true...not if you treat all of your friends with the kindness and compassion that you've shown me since i met you on here. like Edrok said up there *points*, i want to be the best friend that i can be to you, and so i'm stepping up as someone else who you can talk to if you want to. i might not know exactly what you're going through, but i guess i can at least empathise on some level.

you and i have very different medical conditions, but the experiences we have been forced to endure by our psychiatrists is very much the same. indeed, i was prescribed some of those same substances that you were given for your anxiety, and just like you, they made my problem even worse. i'm ashamed to say that i wasn't as strong as you, and i caved to the effects of my meds...i gave up caring about anything and tried to put an end to it all. it didn't work, and so here i am today. it's sickeningly ironic that something that's given to you to make you better can make things so much worse, especially when an incompetent misdiagnosis is the sole reason you were given them in the first place. technically, i'm still supposed to take that medication, but i haven't taken any of it (except the stuff to thin my blood) for about two years now, and i can honestly say that i feel all the more better for it.

anyways, this wasn't supposed to be about me. all i'm trying to say is that i guess on at least some level, i can understand some of the things you've faced, although i don't even pretend to understand everything you've been through and are still going though, and if you ever want to talk about anything, you can write to me either through here or through e-mail (AndNowTheActionIsOnFire@hotmail.com) whenever you like. i'll always listen to/read everything you have to say, and even though i may not always be able to help, i promise i'll always do my best to understand. we may not have known each other all that long, but i care about you hun...*hugs* you're an amazing person...don't ever think any different.

xoxoxox

I'm not exactly sure. I've never been there and I'd like to go...
but it is my only day off this week and I'm not sure how next week is shaping up
we only have 3 employees left to work in my store.
days off aren't seemingly easy to come by. I was supposed to have next saturday off to go to the Ministry concert but Darnell doesn't see that happening. I told him to at least have me open so I can still go.
I'll get next weeks schedule tomorrow and then I'll have to make a decision.
I would feel kinda bad leaving Evan alone all day but he's a big boy and he gets to do stuff without me all the time.

Neat picture. Ribbit.

yeah, i know what you mean...i've worked some pretty scummy jobs in my time. i think the worst was probably scrubbing toilets in an all boys school... =/ i did that for two years...if i can handle that, i can handle anything! heh. i'm signed up to just about every job agency in the area, but there just doesn't seem to be anything going =( part of the problem is that i'm only going to be living here for the next month or so before i move back to liverpool where i come from, and so nobody wants to take somebody on for such a short period of time. it's a pretty crappy situation =( i guess i'll just have to keep on trying and hope that somthing comes my way soon...

Certainly sounds as though you spent an awful lot of time on the phone lately. for what it's worth, i don't think you're cruel at all... =/

You went? Way to not tell me.

hmmm I dunno. I've never been there. Could be fun.
What time do you plan on leaving?
I still have the Friday morning meeting at like 8:30. it's an hour long.

I'm not sure what color I'll get. I asked for blue or green.
not sure when I'll get it either. Last time I won something from Motorola it took like 5 months!

erm...it may have done...*scratches head* i didn't see any kinda message indicating that i'd received a friend request (but then again, i've never had anyone make a friend request before, so i don't even know if you're supposed to get one!) but i see that you have been added to my friends list. does that automatically add me to yours? you'd think i'd know this stuff after being a members of this site for years...heh. sorry for sounding so dumb....*shakes head sadly*

No, I'm smart. S-M-R-T, smart. My kitchen is chock full of pointy things & hot things, neither one of which is conducive to enjoyable recreation. Plus it's kinda small.

wow...it sounds as though you had an interesting day with your uncle. Like MistressMiss says up there...*points*...I think it's kinda cool that you can talk to family like that. I've never really had that kind of relationship with any of my family members. I was always the black sheep, so to speak.

As for your godson's father, I can see why you're not exactly sad that he's gone. I can't believe that anbody would do that to somebody they were expecting a baby with. Guys just don't have any concept of responsibility or emotional attachment these days...*sighs* I wrote a huge entry in my SG journal about this the other week. I guess guys just really piss me off sometimes, y'know? But yeah...I think there is some truth in what your cousin said in her eulogy. Regardless of whether or not his father was an arse hole, she does have a beautiful little boy now and nothing his father did can change how precious he is.

Anyways, I'll wrap this up before I start rambling anymore...heh. I hope you don't mind me commenting on your journal...I just saw some of your notes on Clio's page and you seemed sweet, so I wanted to stop by and say hi =) Hopefully I'll see you around sometime...

I hope you don't mind me saying so, but i think the photographs in your "sexy cupcakes", "deck" and "bound" picture folders are amazing...you look beautiful in them. how come you're not an official Suicidegirl? If it's ok with you, I'd really like to add you to my friends list...

Love your thoughts - very powerful stuff.

You're still with us because all of us care and you still have so much shit to do in life.

The heart is an organ of fire!!

It's a dangerous statement your making... reading from your links:

Next to systematic use of condoms, regular testing is key.

Thanks for the testimonial.

thank you for the testimonial as well
and YAY for Mos Eislys as well.
I wish I could go back there soon. I want my back piece worked on!