I think that I might be burning out. 
I have been working so hard for so long. Sometimes it is hard to get that foot to go in front of the other. I don't want to be burnt out, but does sheer will have anything to do with it. I have become so leveraged in self-imposed responsibility that it's hard to see though the murk...
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I have been working so hard for so long. Sometimes it is hard to get that foot to go in front of the other. I don't want to be burnt out, but does sheer will have anything to do with it. I have become so leveraged in self-imposed responsibility that it's hard to see though the murk...
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We had our office party last night and it turned out ok. I drank allot. And then I drank more. I don't think that I did anything embarrassing. My ex called me as we were leaving and I ended up meeting her for a late dinner. We went to this great little Italian place in the pearl district that I didn't know about. it was...
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kimmi:
I like how you did that picture...very very neat. I need to learn how to do shit like that. Thank you for commenting on my hair! 
Made my day! Well...I am off...I need to go get my Jonny t-shirt. My email address that I normally use is Twiztidbtch4life@aol.com. Okie. Bye now.
Made my day! Well...I am off...I need to go get my Jonny t-shirt. My email address that I normally use is Twiztidbtch4life@aol.com. Okie. Bye now.
linz:
you have great eyes.
I'm not feeling so hot.
Probably the emotional rollercoaster and the booze and all the other various forms of self abuse...
hmmm. ya think?!?
(anybody wanna cheer me up?)
kamikazepilotgea:
I think these gals make cuter invalids
http://www.experimental.com/slocombe/
http://www.experimental.com/slocombe/
I am verrrrrry, verrrrrrry tired. This day has been me trying to hold back a mountian of stress back all day. I really just want to go out and get smashed... I have an early morning though.
aaaaaaaaaaarggh. Fuck it. I deserve a teeny tiny little break from reality don't I.
I really just want to go out and get smashed... I have an early morning though.
aaaaaaaaaaarggh. Fuck it. I deserve a teeny tiny little break from reality don't I.
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user8935778:
yayyyyyyyyyyyyyy doggies.
boooooooooo early mornings.
boooooooooo early mornings.
user8935778:
we can pretend to kiss.
I sit happy.
No real reason.
Just happy.
I'm not asking questions.
No real reason.
Just happy.
I'm not asking questions.
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miffy:
I love your picture as well... I'm such the dog lover. I just got a new puppy a few months ago and how she brings me joy! (other than that whole chewing everything to shreds thing)
nisi:
it runs in my blood. always trying to catch up with the kumpania, but lagging behind. perhaps on purpose. my time will come, for now i enjoy this life.
I've been waiting all morning for the train from seattle to come in bearing an old childhood buddy. Turns out that it was late because it hit someone. A person, not a car... WTF is with the trains in this country? I took a train from Seattle when I moved from there to Santa Fe years ago and the same thing happened outside of LA....
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nisi:
strangers on a train - by: alfred hitchcock
when i lived in queens, ny i had to walk home from the N train late at night because i worked in manhattan. So, before i knew my hood, i created tactics to discourage anyone from bothering me. i would walk really BIG, like i was a giant. i accomplished this by taking huge strides and swinging my arms violently. i also talked to myself OUTLOUD in a made up language. "edabout egan omachi luncie...." in other words my walk home was totally insane. hee hee.
have fun with your buddy.
when i lived in queens, ny i had to walk home from the N train late at night because i worked in manhattan. So, before i knew my hood, i created tactics to discourage anyone from bothering me. i would walk really BIG, like i was a giant. i accomplished this by taking huge strides and swinging my arms violently. i also talked to myself OUTLOUD in a made up language. "edabout egan omachi luncie...." in other words my walk home was totally insane. hee hee.
have fun with your buddy.
user8935778:
i backpacked through europe only on trains. 45 days. on the train into italy from switzerland, there happened to be no open cabins. so i sat inbetween the two cars.. by one of the exits.. smoking cigarettes.
apparently a group if italian soldiers were on the train and they saw me get on. so they sat with me in the end of the car and entertained me on the way to venice.. well they tried to get me to get off at their base with them.. but i made it safe and sound to venice. oh what a letter to penthouse that woulda been.
apparently a group if italian soldiers were on the train and they saw me get on. so they sat with me in the end of the car and entertained me on the way to venice.. well they tried to get me to get off at their base with them.. but i made it safe and sound to venice. oh what a letter to penthouse that woulda been.
It's friday the 13th...
I was born on friday the 13th. seriously
The x-mas season has never really turned me on... bad childhood baggage and the complete commercialism I guess.
How do you feel about it?
I was born on friday the 13th. seriously
The x-mas season has never really turned me on... bad childhood baggage and the complete commercialism I guess.
How do you feel about it?
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demolitionkitten:
I don't know if it's the time thing.
My last BIG relationship ended well over two years ago and I dated a few people since. It was nice and fun and all that stuff. I just think I'm too selfish- like with my time and stuff and so I push people away because I'm afraid of hurting them.. because that is what I seem to do.
but sooooo... christmas. Yeah, usually I love it. I love making presents, buying presents, spending time with friends/family... but this year I've been really weird. I haven't gotten into it at all. I hope it kicks in soon...
My last BIG relationship ended well over two years ago and I dated a few people since. It was nice and fun and all that stuff. I just think I'm too selfish- like with my time and stuff and so I push people away because I'm afraid of hurting them.. because that is what I seem to do.
but sooooo... christmas. Yeah, usually I love it. I love making presents, buying presents, spending time with friends/family... but this year I've been really weird. I haven't gotten into it at all. I hope it kicks in soon...
user8935778:
I'm jewish. Not really practicing.. but I never got to have an xmas. but I know that I get lonely around those fucking holidays. I feel like everyone has someone to cuddle with but me.
Sorry I didn't reply yesterday.. I meant to. I did finish my paper, btw. I slept from like 2-6 am. Then from 6-7 I wrote the last 5 pages.. and then from 7-9 I wrote another 7 page paper. I'm a writnig machine! weeeeeeeee! We can cuddle. I dig the new picture.
Sorry I didn't reply yesterday.. I meant to. I did finish my paper, btw. I slept from like 2-6 am. Then from 6-7 I wrote the last 5 pages.. and then from 7-9 I wrote another 7 page paper. I'm a writnig machine! weeeeeeeee! We can cuddle. I dig the new picture.
I'm having a much better day today. Funny how that goes. One day everythings shit and the next... s'all good. Much thanks to Jackie for taking time out from writing her paper to help cheer me up last night. Gave me lovely dreams... mmmm, fez. 
The rains are finally here. Took long enough this year, non-stop now. I'm off for a very soggy dog walk....
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The rains are finally here. Took long enough this year, non-stop now. I'm off for a very soggy dog walk....
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Shit, I sooo totally fucked up and all day I have been thinking that I had x-mas vacation starting saterday. 
So I was a week off...
My life has pretty much ground down to a lulled monotone drone. Punctuated by crawling out of bed in the morning, in the dark, and dragging my sorry ass home again 10 to 12 hours later, in the dark....
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So I was a week off...
My life has pretty much ground down to a lulled monotone drone. Punctuated by crawling out of bed in the morning, in the dark, and dragging my sorry ass home again 10 to 12 hours later, in the dark....
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user8935778:
GAH! that was so easy! I never win anything. I feel like I should make an acceptance speech or something.. um... I'd like to thank you... for updating your journal..
I waited all night. Yes. That's right. And.. then I went on AIM to say hi.. and then.. you weren't there. And I'm writing a 15 page paper on the historical significance of jewish funerals.. and i need a break.. and um. .
then I read your journal.. don't sweat the work shit. you know why? because it will all end soon. we're all just cogs. then you get a break. then ill wear pigtails and a plaid skirt.. and we can play rodeo.. and i can ride you til you buck me off. haha can you TELL that I'm delirious.. did i even spell that right? WHO KNOWS.
i'm just a rag tag kid from miami who has no idea what shes talkin' about in the wee hours of the morning.
I waited all night. Yes. That's right. And.. then I went on AIM to say hi.. and then.. you weren't there. And I'm writing a 15 page paper on the historical significance of jewish funerals.. and i need a break.. and um. .
then I read your journal.. don't sweat the work shit. you know why? because it will all end soon. we're all just cogs. then you get a break. then ill wear pigtails and a plaid skirt.. and we can play rodeo.. and i can ride you til you buck me off. haha can you TELL that I'm delirious.. did i even spell that right? WHO KNOWS.
i'm just a rag tag kid from miami who has no idea what shes talkin' about in the wee hours of the morning.
user8935778:
you're on! then you're off! come back!
sleep.
aquatic dreams.
aroused slumber.
unsatiated longing.
aquatic dreams.
aroused slumber.
unsatiated longing.
user8935778:
you changed your picture. yay. nice goatee thinger. i dont know the proper facial hair terminology.
i wish i had slept well.
what are you longing for?
thanks for the compliment.
i wish i had slept well.
what are you longing for?
thanks for the compliment.
user8935778:
wake up and make a new journal baby.
anyhow.. i'm applying for the crush position. i have an extensive resume. weeeeeee.
anyhow.. i'm applying for the crush position. i have an extensive resume. weeeeeee.
Mmmmm. what a nice cozy morning. Nice cuppa coffee. All bundled up in a cozy chair with my pups all curled up about. the phone off. Nobody messin' with my groove. a sweet little cocoon. I might even light up a fire, who knows.
I really should get some stuff done... baaaa.
I really should get some stuff done... baaaa.
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linz:
both!
nisi:
hope your weekend is treating you well. 
~K~
may the strength return with the light... brightest blessings of clarity to you. take care, nisi