monovox

I've had some good days off and all to myself. Although it is good, I am very prone to living too much in my head. It is difficult to to come out of when I come back to civilization. I think that I need things in my life to be a little more concrete for a time. Ah shit, who knows what I need. I...
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I seem to have napped all afternoon. I haven't done this in years. Quite the luxury for me. I tend not to nap much as many times I don't fully come out of dream state and am tre grumpy if I have to be social. I would prefer to linger in dreamstate most of the time anyway (some would say that in some ways I...
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The horra'...The horra'

i am jumping out of my skin. a manic burning alive from the inside. unsated fire. boiling, surging emotions. i can feel the intensity eminating from my eyes. maybe it's just the full moon. i need to sleep and find peace..

rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrraaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*twitch-twitch*

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Morning... I am exhausted, bleary eyed. I'm not even quite sure what the hell that was all about...

I really slept in... I have been exhausted. perturbed and unsettled. I am feeling a bit better this morning though. The nights dreams seem to have soothed the tension lines on my forehead. I do remember the Basilica of Sacr-Coeur was in my dreams...thanks I'm sure to N. and watching Amelie again yesterday.

I awoke to sun and the crows at my window. I know...
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I had a great 3 day weekend planed out, but I have been robbed. I think that I am running out of steam here... I really need some sun.

The corvus disguise, false familia, spousal judas... she gently drifts out into the past as a dream. the carcass she pulled around herself to slip into my world lies at my feet, the black feathers flutter with a sick wet rustle in the breeze...the storms last death rattle.

Standing at the waters edge as the morning light peaks up over the horizon glinting off the...
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Wax and wane. An itch so deep, yet right there. I so want to relieve it, I hold back. The sensation spirals higher and I embrace it. Madness follows in the intensity and then is gone. leaving me bewildered, unsettled and spent.

Where does my inner compass come into play in this situation... Where up is down and east is west depending on the day?...
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Today is a day for staring at the river. So many things happening around me, swirling and billowing. Red and festering. And I just want to stay with the river. I block all else out. Constant and even, Her low voice whispers to me and I sway to the cadence of it. What profound human utterance could break it's spell today... Visions revealed and lives...
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I took the day off and spent it painting and listening to music. It has been a pretty good day all told.

It's nice to be very tired in a good way.

All is good in my little corner of the universe.

Right now.
In this moment.
no questions asked.

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but I think that I might put some in a jar for later... like fireflies.

hey, ummm, you've reached david. I am feeling quiet and tired and have gone out for a very long walk... please leave a message and I will get back to you, when I return.



I miss you already...







*beeep*