Ok so it's about time for a new rant, I keep looking at that old one and getting annoyed because it's so out of date. I've been getting drunk and/or stoned way too much recently and making an arse out of myself.. but yet I haven't been laid all year and i'm starting to worry whether my weight has just reached the point where men...
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First things first i'm still clean. Well, I have weed every now and then but that has been because of the immense stress i've been facing after being kicked out of our flat. Well, I left voluntarily but otherwise I would have had a black mark on my name. My flatmate was the one who fucked it up; coming home drunk and 3am and screaming...
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hodssorrow:
Good work conquering an addiction is fricking hard its one of the reason why I refuse any drug treatments. There's no harm in a little weed every now and then, I don't know if I could survive an entire semester of uni if I didn't have some occasionally.
beez_kneez:
gardening with native plants is awesome.
Still going strong.
Got a lot to do this week - moving into a new flat with a very good friend. We click like mad and though we've known 'of ' each other since we were 11 we've only in recent months begun talking and realising how much we have in common and how well we get along. He's gay so it's not like there'll...
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Got a lot to do this week - moving into a new flat with a very good friend. We click like mad and though we've known 'of ' each other since we were 11 we've only in recent months begun talking and realising how much we have in common and how well we get along. He's gay so it's not like there'll...
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lightandshade:
Awesome. I am SOOOOOO proud of you Mandy. Unbelievably proud. Sobriety suits you. Being able to control your drinking suits you. I think it would be awesome if we could be in chat together again... but you are never in there on the rare occasions I wander in there... and if you are going into V and E, I was banned from there for god only knows what reason, as I was not told why and Skullgrid saw fit to block me so I can't even send him a message to ask him as the group's moderator. Awesome, eh?
Keep up the hard work!
Love ya babe!
Gary
Keep up the hard work!
Love ya babe!
Gary
floyd:
sorry to hear about the issues! i hope your move went well and life is good! i like the old school bathing suit!
So.
I'm clean.
Well i'm still on a maintenance dose of suboxone (a drug which helps with withdrawals) and am still lowering my clonazepam but it's progress and eventually i'll be completely clear of everything.
I met some wonderful people in detox, I miss them terribly, it was so awesome to have the companionship especially when they're people on the same wavelength who aren't hiding...
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I'm clean.
Well i'm still on a maintenance dose of suboxone (a drug which helps with withdrawals) and am still lowering my clonazepam but it's progress and eventually i'll be completely clear of everything.
I met some wonderful people in detox, I miss them terribly, it was so awesome to have the companionship especially when they're people on the same wavelength who aren't hiding...
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english_dave:
Looking good MP.
I am pleased for ya!
Looking good MP.
I am pleased for ya!
veehaitch:
Miranda thats awesome!! You never really looked bad, cant wait to see ya back all happy
So tomorrow i'm going into the inpatient unit and staying there for two weeks. I'm not only getting off the codeine now but my clonazepam (like valium) aswell which is a huge step for me as i've been using it for about 3/4 years. So i'll be completely clean. Scary. 
So i won't be online for two weeks.. well i have my cell but it's...
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So i won't be online for two weeks.. well i have my cell but it's...
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mercie:
You left chat before I had a chance to say good luck. I missed what you had typed because I'm all bleary-eyed and just waking up.
If it matters at all, I'm getting myself off of painkillers right now. I don't have the help of rehab. I am going through it by myself.
So I hope you do well and I do know how you feel. It IS scary. Because I'm highly addicted to them and I don't feel so hot right now... plus, sobriety sucks.
If it matters at all, I'm getting myself off of painkillers right now. I don't have the help of rehab. I am going through it by myself.
So I hope you do well and I do know how you feel. It IS scary. Because I'm highly addicted to them and I don't feel so hot right now... plus, sobriety sucks.
Aint so bad when I think about it
I can get through this
Life aint so hard with you not around, yeah
I think I'll make it on through
Oh yes I miss the company
And then my friends remind me you aint who I need it from
I'll bet there's plenty more
I'm feeling free and so happy
I'm realizing I've survived to fight...
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I can get through this
Life aint so hard with you not around, yeah
I think I'll make it on through
Oh yes I miss the company
And then my friends remind me you aint who I need it from
I'll bet there's plenty more
I'm feeling free and so happy
I'm realizing I've survived to fight...
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english_dave:
Wicked girl! Congrats!
Ok so update. I went into the detox clinic expecting to be admitted however they said they really only admit people who don't have a safe place to detox, which i do. They're going to give me a drug called suboxone which is meant to lessen the withdrawal symptoms and also quicken the time the withdrawal takes. I saw them on Monday, they were meant...
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bearnked:
enjoying who you are is a very good thing! Good luck to ya! Chat's always here to try an help ya and give ya lots of support!!! <33333
the_deacon:
good luck with getting clean. i just went through a long process with a recent girlfriend. we are no longer together and she continues to have relapses. It is hard. So Good luck and think positive.
I feel completely isolated from everyone on earth. I wish I had someone to talk to about things, it helps somewhat but i never feel any sort of connectedness like i used to. It's been years and i havent been able to form any new relationships of any worth. I haven't done anything of any worth actually. I want this to end, this nothingness. Also...
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the_deacon:
Chin up...I have had meaningless relationships for some time now myself. Now I am working on ME being happy...it is a long working process. once i do this, maybe i can be confident enough to share that with someone else. I can honestly say i know how you feel
So i'm off to rehab in Australia within the next couple of days.
If good vibes exist, send them.
If good vibes exist, send them.
So i've been feeling a great need to vent lately. And suddenly I remembered there was such a thing as blogs and that you can just take a large dump and leave it for people to catch a whift of.
Anyway.
So everything's pretty normal - i'm thinking rehab is now my only option because i've now tried three times to quit the nurofen plus...
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Anyway.
So everything's pretty normal - i'm thinking rehab is now my only option because i've now tried three times to quit the nurofen plus...
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lightandshade:
Mandy. First off, hugs and such. I love you. I do not want to see you dead, ok? I mean, if I have to move to NZ and be your creepy old man option, so be it 
But seriously, GET INTO REHAB PRONTO. Tell your parents about your problem. You need their support / asskicking. You need to get yourself well, that is your first priority.
love you,
gary
But seriously, GET INTO REHAB PRONTO. Tell your parents about your problem. You need their support / asskicking. You need to get yourself well, that is your first priority.
love you,
gary
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muddy36:
and by all those needy people, you mean me. hahaha
kultboy:
Thanks for the show in chat lady. Enjoy your strawberry schnapps and coke. You always make lurking pleasant. Hehehe.
Enjoy your strawberry schnapps and coke. You always make lurking pleasant. Hehehe.So i think it's safe to say now that it's been 7 days and i'm through the detox that i've successfully come off the codeine. I was taking an average of 20 or more a day of nurofen plus for around 5 months and slowly (or quickly i don't even know) giving myself kidney failure in the process.
I no longer feel so bloated and...
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veehaitch:
wow thats awesome that your getting over that miranda, and that dress will be so sexy on you
darksaiph:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!
have a drink for me too!!
enjoy
have a drink for me too!!
enjoy
Instead of focusing on what you can't control, focus more on what you can control. Focus more on your writing, sketching and guitar and perhaps you will find more inner happiness? Once you can make yourself happy, that shines through and people will be attracted to your happiness and confidence. Good luck!