Last night I couldn't sleep. I started to think about how I would have done things differently if I could.
Admittedly most included not getting into relationships I had entered into.
I can't help but wonder where i would be, what things would be different. Where would I be now?
If I had taken the job at home instead of moving up to Troy, where...
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Admittedly most included not getting into relationships I had entered into.
I can't help but wonder where i would be, what things would be different. Where would I be now?
If I had taken the job at home instead of moving up to Troy, where...
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I am still feeling a bit off.
I am still just kinda like, run or stay? I feel like I am evaluating everything. Do I stay and risk the fact that this may not just be a commitment phobic act due to a horrible ex? Or go and possibly lose something?
And overthinking, as any woman will tell you, is like a slow painful death!
I am still just kinda like, run or stay? I feel like I am evaluating everything. Do I stay and risk the fact that this may not just be a commitment phobic act due to a horrible ex? Or go and possibly lose something?
And overthinking, as any woman will tell you, is like a slow painful death!
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vegemite:
OK, this sounds dorky, but have you made a list yet? (pro/con list)
I think it really helps put things in perspective - it takes some of the emotion out of the decision and lets you make the choice with your head, not your heart
I think it really helps put things in perspective - it takes some of the emotion out of the decision and lets you make the choice with your head, not your heart
halfjack:
what do you think about it the second you wake up in the morning and first start thinking about it?
Things I have learned in the past 5 days:
1. The cell phone may work after you drop into a huge mug of tea and milk, however it will randomly call people when you don't even know it.
2. Eating spicy Indian food for 4 days straight will lead to not a happy tummy.
3. Rice is the worst thing to throw up (see #2)...
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1. The cell phone may work after you drop into a huge mug of tea and milk, however it will randomly call people when you don't even know it.
2. Eating spicy Indian food for 4 days straight will lead to not a happy tummy.
3. Rice is the worst thing to throw up (see #2)...
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gangstaswan:
I totally watched Bridezillas at like 5 a.m. today. It sorta comforts me when I can't sleep.
Why can't you use the phone yet?
Why can't you use the phone yet?
oriole:
<3 #8. I'm slowly learning this, and acting accordingly.
I've stressed out about going to school the same way as everyone else for years. This past month, I said "eh, fuck them".
I've stressed out about going to school the same way as everyone else for years. This past month, I said "eh, fuck them".
Baby Shower today.
One of the six girls I went to college with, we are very close.
One already has a baby, and I realized my maternal instinct hasn't kicked in yet. As I watched her feeeding the baby disgusting baby food, I was like really not into this. Didn't think the little clothes were cute, didn't think the kid was cute.
I also talked...
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One of the six girls I went to college with, we are very close.
One already has a baby, and I realized my maternal instinct hasn't kicked in yet. As I watched her feeeding the baby disgusting baby food, I was like really not into this. Didn't think the little clothes were cute, didn't think the kid was cute.
I also talked...
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the_deacon:
You know what they say....we can pick our friends, but we can't pick our families...we're kind of stuck with those genetics...and the upbringing...
Enjoying life is always the most important...some people just have that paternal and maternal instinct and it brings joy to them...others do it to try and fill the void...I have always been the type to try and do what is right for me and not be a sheep to the flock because that is sure to get you something you don't want or need or something that just isn't you. Enjoy your path!
Enjoying life is always the most important...some people just have that paternal and maternal instinct and it brings joy to them...others do it to try and fill the void...I have always been the type to try and do what is right for me and not be a sheep to the flock because that is sure to get you something you don't want or need or something that just isn't you. Enjoy your path!
vegemite:
I guess if every woiman wanted the same thing out of life the world would be an awfully boring place.
Mmm.... still not feeling so hot.
I feel like it is a mix between heartache and disappointment, and just plain old tiredness and depression.
My tummy just won't keep anything down.
Though it could be the new diet pills.
However, I have lost 7 pounds!
Now I just have to start exercising to keep it off.
I also got my halloween costume today. I am...
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I feel like it is a mix between heartache and disappointment, and just plain old tiredness and depression.
My tummy just won't keep anything down.
Though it could be the new diet pills.
However, I have lost 7 pounds!
Now I just have to start exercising to keep it off.
I also got my halloween costume today. I am...
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prikkelpop:
Thanks for the beautiful comment on my set. xoxo
xoxo
weapon0:
I think you are very hot. 
Congrats on the weight loss. I hope you feel better soon. *hugs*
Congrats on the weight loss. I hope you feel better soon. *hugs*
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panthro:
there is nothing apealing to me about nascar. but getting to ride in the pace car, and getting your picture taken with the ricky bobby wonder car had to be amazing. i love that movie. 
and it is very good to see you smile again.
and it is very good to see you smile again.
mydogfarted:
Riding in the pace car? Would you be offended if I called you the "C word"?
Not a big NASCAR fan, but that would kick ass!
Not a big NASCAR fan, but that would kick ass!
Sob, sob, sob.
So close to done, so close to walking away. My heart fighting every part of my body that wants to flee. I swear love will kill ya by keeping you dumb.
I am seriously thinking of moving so I can get pets.
So close to done, so close to walking away. My heart fighting every part of my body that wants to flee. I swear love will kill ya by keeping you dumb.
I am seriously thinking of moving so I can get pets.
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calamity:
Aw, darlin'.
I'm so sorry. It is a goddamn shitty position to be in.... I can definitely relate.
I'm so sorry. It is a goddamn shitty position to be in.... I can definitely relate.
mydogfarted:
Move... get a cat. The sound of a purring cat is the most soothing sound I've ever heard. I need a place soon where I can have some of my cats... I miss them so.
I am in limbo - and not in the SG way
The reason for most of my heartache is I don't know what is going on. If I am still with someone or not.
It is definitely the worst. It also makes moving on hard, because 1. I dont' want to, and 2. I don't know if I am supposed to.
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The reason for most of my heartache is I don't know what is going on. If I am still with someone or not.
It is definitely the worst. It also makes moving on hard, because 1. I dont' want to, and 2. I don't know if I am supposed to.
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destillat:
hahaha now you really get me jealous!! i hope she is fine! send kisses for her!
and you have to think in youself principally when nobody are doing it!
cheers!
and you have to think in youself principally when nobody are doing it!
cheers!
the_boss:
Do what ever you are comfortable doing hun just don't fool yourself into feeling a way you know you normally don't feel.
Today was supposed to be my anniversary. Instead it is day #3. It is also the last day I am giving myself for hurting and greiving. I will still continue to take care of myself, but get back into regular life. Back into the stream of things.
Nothing else to report.
Hope is still going, though I hate myself for it cause I feel it...
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Nothing else to report.
Hope is still going, though I hate myself for it cause I feel it...
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ms_strange:
you're going to need to give yourself more than 3 days. the theory is at least half the time you were together is the length of time you need.
saraphine:
Then do it! And it might just be the thing to cheer you up and get you back on track-- sorry to hear about your break up. At first I thought someone died by reading your blog, but thankfuly that is not the case Hang in there darlin'-- we're all better off without the jerks in our lives 
Hang in there darlin'-- we're all better off without the jerks in our lives Why is it that when you are sad and depressed you seem to masterbate more? It seems like it is so for one second you can feel that euphoria....though it does seem sick that you always seem to think of "them" as you do it.
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tos:
It's weird w/ me pal...I rub one off more often when I'm involved in a relationship. I know, it's odd, but from my recollection it's true. When I'm not involved or just having some booty calls like I have currently, I tend to rub one off a lot less frequently. Don't get me wrong, the euphoria you get from having an orgasm is always good: It doesn't matter who you're thinking about. If it gets you off, why not?
weapon0:
I have to agree with the others. I Masturbate more when I'm feeling hyper. When I'm depressed all I want to do is watch tv and sleep. I hope you feel better soon hon. *hugs*
*hugs*
Try to do something fun w/ your w/d hon