So sorry for all of those who had to put up with my venting. Recent stress, plus PMS made me into a raging bitch last night.
I was going to update with all my pics.
Pics of the history channel event where I met Matty D.
Pics of St. Louis
And pics of my visit into the city yesterday.
Thanks for actually reading all of that... I seriously didn't expect that I would get more than 1 or 2 comments, but evidently, people empathize. That makes me feel better, because I don't like feeling alone, or like I'm the only one who feels that way (hence making me a crazy bitch, haha)... anyway, you worded that very well. I do need reassurance and I do need to hear that I'm not investing in something for nothing.
What kind of work did you wanna get done to your lips?
So everyone was right, and I was again just feeling sorry for myself.
Thanksgiving was fine. What is it about holidays that make us so nervous.
I was going to wait until I could post pics to update, but that won't be for a while.
St. Louis was great! If you live out there and you were watching the parade then you probably saw me... Read More
IF you missed my red carpet event go back one blog.
I am feeling really weird, I think it is because I am missing Thanksgiving with my fam.
I am heading out to St. Louis on Weds. to represent my brand during the St. Louis parade on Thanksgiving and then get on a plane in the afternoon and get home late on Thursday.
thanks, im trying to keep up my hopes.
as far as my mom is concerned im so used to her being a fucking total flake and i really need to learn my lesson and cut my ties with her. but its so hard, its confusing. being so mistreated by my own mother. i just have no idea what to do to make it better.
I can't tell when my dreams are just dreams or if it really happy. It becomes a blur. And my dreams are so detailed that I wake up exhausted, sore and drenched. I should write them down, but I'm too lazy. They don't make any sense and I dream in color, in Thai and/or Spanish with English of course and I feel water, snow, textures everything.
I'm really nervous about going through with it because I'm so self conscious. Thank you!
Would you really want everything to be perfect all the time? Think about how boring it would be. I prefer just retreating into my mind once in a while, it makes it that much more satisfying to ignore people.