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i am full of self pity right now. i wrote a few paragraphs about why but wisely deleted them. because they were just too true.
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fuck, i'm totally panicked right now.

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i am taking a break from SG for a while, guys. i am going to live in a tent for 3.5 months at a spiritual learning center. i'll be on staff there. there's no internet there. seeya later.
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heya guys. i just sent missy a new set of me! i don't know if the pics are gonna be up to par, they're mostly just me cuddling myself via the camera. i like them a lot but who knows.
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i haven't left for the summer yet. i leave in a week. after that i'll be away from internet and stuff for 3.5...
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whine whine whine. i am really sleepy. spooky just told me on aim that it seems like i never get much rest. the truth is, i get plenty of rest, it's just always at the wrong times.
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i am in a great mood lately. the weather is getting reallynice and i am taking astrology classes so that's really cool! i love my classes....
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hi. it's 8:17pm. i am wearing a beat up slip that i got from a thrift store, a pair of knee socks, and some boots. i just got fucked. my hands smell like pussy and condom. my lover opened the window behind me and climbed out on the fire escape to enjoy a post coital cigarette amonst the chilly spring air and the prayer...
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ladies and gentleman. for your edification, i present to you, the lyrics of the greatest, and i mean, THE GREATEST, rock song of all time.
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ROCK LOBSTER :

we were at a party
his ear lobe fell in the deep
someone reached in and grabbed it
it was a rock lobster

we were at the beach
everybody had matching towels
somebody went under a...
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you're the icing on the cake at my wake.
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woke up grumpy. actually, woke up fine, then looked at the internet, which made me grumpy.
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coffee + modest mouse = all is now well
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modest mouse is such frat boy music now. don't tell anyone that i like them, i'll be inundated with emails from boys in white t shirts, shorts,...
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well guys, i know i'm going to get the big boo hiss for this one, but i think i'm going to put off doing another set for just a teeny bit longer, so i can spend some time pampering myself and feeling sexy again. i've been really slacking on the self love, skipping yoga, eating cheese (UGH), and just generally sucking. give me a...
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i've gone completely nocturnal. this isn't unsual for me whatsoever. it's 6:30am, bedtime is an hour or so from now, probably. the only frustrating thing about this is that i can't get anything done during business hours, like, you know, errands. other than that it rocks. lots of peace and quiet at night.
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i took out my hair extensions tonight, with the help...
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well, i see lydia has moved to portland to join the cult of SG. it's very powerful, the draw of SGHQ. it is like the mecca in our religion of hot tattoo'd girls who know how to weild a strapon. i too have felt the pull of portland. be warned, remote models. you must journey to the mecca of SGHQ at least once in...
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<p>hey everyone. i'll be in portland monday night. i don't know how much time i'll have to hang out, and i don't know where i'm staying yet, but i'm going to stop by SGHQ for sure. if you're in PDX and you want to say hi, drop me an email and i'll give you my cellphone number, especially if your name is lydia. <tt></tt></p>