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I need you!

Did you live in VA during the cradle of punk? I have lived in Los Angeles all my life so we had a great punk scene here. I was always surprised when I heard about scenes that rivaled ours, like in some weird town in Wisconsin or something. But I guess angst is not something reserved for the big metro areas only.

In West Hollywood, there was a fast food stand called Okie Dogs. Now what an Okie Dog was ... ummm ... a couple hot dogs, pastrami and chili all rolled up in a tortilla. They were so wrong, I think it would kill me to eat one now. This was the place to hang after a show. I made friends there, flirted with tough little boys with bleached, spiked hair, posed for pictures from the tourists, even got arrested once (at 17). Fond, fond memories of Okie Dogs after seeing Black Flag at the Starwood or the Dead Kennedys at the Whiskey or something like that.

It was so cute. I have a 6 year old. Still trying to figure out how that happened, but I digress. I was listening to NOFX and Whoops I OD'ed came on and Daron was singing along. (I know, that sounds wrong to me, too.) But anyway, at the end he was singing in his little 6 year old voice ... I'll see you all at Okie Dogs, see you all at Okie Dogs. I just laughed out loud. That's my boy.

You know, you were lamenting about how punk rock used to mean something and now it is just commercial dribble. I was thinking about that. I'm sure there were many down for the cause, and you are certainly right about more riots then, but there were a lot of poseurs, too. There were all the little rich kids from Orange County that thought their parents didn't understand them and shaved their heads and came to Hollywood to start fights because it was so punk rock. I don't know that is truly meaningful, but I guess it was enough to die for back then. Just like my kid thinks that his generation is smarter, cooler, more sensible, whatever. And you are right, he will be disillusioned in 20 years as well.

And my 6 year old by then, I'm sure, will think that I'm so old I'm just waiting to die and that his big brother (17 years older) is hopelessly uncool and "doesn't understand." Ha!

Well, today I'm gonna try to embrace change. I need to feel better and like I told you before, if I want that to happen I'm gonna have to make it happen.

~Suzy

Well just from casual observation of your journal updates lately .. I would think your are going through some fucked up feelings. Might sound a bit blunt but well friends have to be like that sometimes.

Hey what's up?
I'm not sure I really know what to say to that entry
so i'll just say hi!

Make some noise then

Definitely NOT excited about tomorrow!
On behalf of the female gender I will that you for the above comment. Thanks!
It's nice to know that we are not overlooked.
If a girl calls you after 2 years and says dumping you was a big mistake, your actions from that point on depend on your feelings for her.
If you still love her and want to try again, then take her back.
If not, then tell her "hey your loss babe"

I agree, people can get scary about religion. Families torn apart, feelings hurt, grudges beheld. ugghh.
So I just thought I'd say Hi. your journal caught my eye.

If you keep doing what you're doing, you'll keep getting what you're getting. At least thats what they say, but what the fuck do i know. Good luck on your test.

Talk to your girl and get it all out. If you get things off your chest maybe you'll feel better about the relationship, and life in general.

Thanks for the comment! books are so expensive. They always come out with new editions that are way more expensive and they are almost the same as the old ones.

You're doing great, baby! Perseverence ... wish I had it. What classes are you taking?

And you are right, I am totally a lot of fun.

Love to you,
Suzy

[Edited on Jan 13, 2005 9:53PM]