It's been a pretty rough year for me (mentally). Been feeling like Artax in the swamp of sadness. I know I'll eventually pull myself out, but it has taken a huge toll on me. I wish I could find the motivation to get back to the gym. I always felt better after a good workout. I wish someone would just swoop into my...
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wrencher:
If I had a nickel every time I had those wishes... chin up man, you never truly know the ripples of your life and the wounds you heal on your  journey and the people that hold you close to their heart. That's what I try to remind myself every time I feel down. 
korbendallas:
@wrencher thanks for the words of encouragement man. They are truly appreciated.

I just realized that I have been a member of this site since 2005. 12 freaking years (off and on)

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osiruss:
me too!!! on and off since 2004 i think
gadget:
I'm back, and I remember you! The way the site functions now seems to make it nearly impossible to socialize. What's up with that? Definitely cause it to feel sort of pointless.

My doctor has referred me to a psychiatrist. He believes that I may be battling depression or be bipolar. Not sure I agree but nevertheless I will go talk to him. Although I know my mind doesn't function like most typical ones it's never been anything I couldn't control (for the most part). I know this is cliche but my mind runs...
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I remember back when I could click a section and see new updates of everyone of my friends/people I follow. Now it feels like I have to hunt everyone down to see if anyone has posted anything. I am sure there is probably an easier way but, for the life of me I can't figure it out.

I have another check up pretty...
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chef:
So I scroll through posts from people I follow every time I log in.   If I click the home button it takes you to a feed of everyone you follow.  You can sort it by blogs/pics/videos or by members/hopefuls/sgs.   

@fishball thought you might enjoy this.

Quick update

Doctor said my uric acid levels were a little high so he put me on some preventative meds (gout) to lower them. I don't have it but if not controlled it's a possibility. The next one is not so good but not certain so i won't jump to conclusions but my hemoglobins were a bit high which could suck but...
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caraphernelia:
Good luck, i'm sure you're going to be okay, sendind positive vibes your way :3
korbendallas:
Thanks a lot @caraphernelia need all the positive vibes I can get.

and they called me today because there was some abnormailites.

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fmm08:
hope everything is ok! sending positive vibes and thoughts your way.
korbendallas:
Thanks @fmm08 I'll be keeping my fingers and toes crossed all night

Ugh. It's 7am and the office doesn't open until 8:30. Need a prescription refill some blood work and hopefully some good news. Wish me luck folks.

caraphernelia:
good luck :3