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Been doing a lot of soul searching. Thinking a lot about the "size of the fight in the dog" starting to find a few things to work on. Managed to get two skates in last week which is an improvement. Starting to think about broadening my photography range. Wondering how to take photography to become a job. Went and looked for actual jobs. Looking forward...
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Day 2

Did some star jumps, drank some water, played some assassins creed

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The last month has been hard, really really difficult. It was all going so well and then it seems my cart got knocked and I've been crashing through one disaster after another and I just find it so difficult to even do the most simple task. I need to get my head screwed on. I need to get focused. I need to live again.

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Guess its been a while since I wrote anything. This is mostly a good thing as I found some self confidence and I stopped procrastinating about things and started getting out there and I was doing quite well but I guess I have started to slip again and then I need to keep a record of these things as I hunt for the mental strength...
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So tomorrow is the start of my "birthday week" Its 7 days till I turn 33 and I want to spend the next week celebrating and indulging myself with good food, great company, the odd gift or two and lots of hot sex. First up a small trip to London. Then a nice day or two at home and hopefully a small family party. But...
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Wow been an intense few days, In between trying to get the house tidied up and organised I had a really big talk with my girlfriend and I think I'm in a place where I can accept me sexuality and start to explore my body, my desires and my beliefs. I really have grown as a person and now I feel I'm ready...
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Same old problems - I have so many things going on in my head that its difficult to see anyway out of here yet I have to try remain positive I have so many demons, so many urges that things are so difficult and I don't know what to do or where to do it. I must concentrate on my photography, I will start trying...
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Same old problems - I have so many things going on in my head that its difficult to see anyway out of here yet I have to try remain positive I have so many demons, so many urges that things are so difficult and I don't know what to do or where to do it. I must concentrate on my photography, I will start trying...
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I promised myself to try turn 2014 around after the disaster of 2013 so here is the list of Resolutions. Hoping that by blogging here more often I can get focused and move forward

New Years Resolutions
1. Work out 4 times a week
2. Improve nutrition
3. Visit Friends
4. Photography Goals
5. Energy Drinks on Sunday or after practice only
6. Cut down...
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Today has been a day where I start to think about the year ahead and what I want to achieve and to a degree what I want to buy and where I want to go. I think the main goals are trying to accept myself for the deviant that I am and trying to grow as a photographer and ,maybe even trying to combine the...
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