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well...I don't know what to say really. I am tired and I think I am going to go to bed soon. I just wanted to say that I love you all and I hope you have the best of holidays this year.
aidian:
Hiya boy-o. Yeah... I know that's how it is.. I just can't wait for it to be over. Miss you too!
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Who wants to be my special christmas someone? I am looking for someone to spend christmas with and exchange gifts with. Any takers?
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architectonic:
Oh yeah, and how are the books going? Any more that you want me to read over? I really enjoyed it last time blush maybe I should be an editor. How's the publishing of the other one going?

Full of questions... x
architectonic:
Don't worry about making cyber-advances on me, just don't be offended when I say no :-P

Sucks about your publisher. I think at that point I'd go and sit in their offices until they do something, providing that's an option and doesn't involve flying to the other side of the country. Otherwise, it's sitting on hold for a long time!

I really wish people would keep to what they say. It makes it a lot easier for everyone.

I appear to be flooding your blog comments. Muahahaha! I'm taking over!

And have apparently had too much caffeine. Oh well. Here's a little haiku from Threadless to make you smile -

Haikus are easy
But sometimes they don't make sense
Refrigerator

biggrin x
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well...it has been a very hard week. My grandmother called me a couple of days ago and was in tears. She suffers from major depression and she was talking about suicide. I cried for hours after that and then cried yesterday and then once again today. I can't believe that my grandmother, the one person in my life that I have always look towards for...
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architectonic:
I wish I could help hon, I really do. x
lizzi:
Whoa. I'm sorry that you're going through all this, but it seems to me the solution might be in spending Christmas with your grandma? It sounds like you both need eachother right now. Good luck and try not to get too down kiss
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I hate people who use others to make themselves feel better. People who use friendships like they are nothing more than a piece of paper to take notes down on before a school test which they will throw away when they are done with them. I have had too many people treat my friendships like that, and then when they are done or gotten what...
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jessie:
Well, it wasn't a picture from a set. Our profile photos have to be approved by staff.
lizzi:
Agreed!
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well shit...sense the last poem was so well taken, I guess I'll write a new blog for today.

I don't knw what about really, I am just blah tonight I am tired, but my bed has a ton of wash that I need to put away, yet I don't feel like doing it. I might just pass out on the couch watching a movie. I...
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Okay, as promised from yesterday, the new poem. It is rather long, but I like it so HA. This is still very rough, no editing...but let me know what you think

Untitled 3

Ice storm
No work
Eager minds
Lay dead
As Time Slips By
Nothing happens
Everyone entertains themselves
In the distance
A mermer can be heard
It is life
It has come back...
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architectonic:
Chilling poem, very expressive. That wasn't supposed to be a pun, either.

Heh, as for the nerd loving I get plenty of that! Syrrys is just as big a geek as me, if not more so shocked ... but then I'm not one to turn down teh lurve! kiss
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wow...I can't believe that last blog actaully worked. I was afraid that it wasn't going to sense the youtube thing was messing up.

There is an Ice storm right now here in KC. I love it. It makes me happy to be inside, curled up in my bed, drinking hot coco and watching a movie. There really is no better feeling in the world, besides...
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sky:
i love weather like that! freezing cold weather is my favourite.
long time no speak, hope you're well x
architectonic:
I'm jealous of all the snow people seem to be getting! It's still 12C here, which is nice, but I really enjoyed having a "proper" winter last year (in Siberia and Canada) so it's all a bit of a disappointment being back in Britain.

Glad the funeral helped. That's good.

I'm off to deal with translations biggrin I'm such a geek, I love this part of the course so much!

Take care, and have fun in the snow! x
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you know what, I thought that I would do a little something special for you guys tonight...something a little different. I have yet to see anyone do this on here, so I hope you like it.

[YOUTUBE]http://www.youtube.com/v/aUOePMhnb-k[/YOUTUBE]
architectonic:
You're welcome hon. And good luck with the documentary - sounds like a hard thing to do, but worthwhile. x
nena:
kiss
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Okay, Big fucking news now.

Timeless Avatar Press has sent me the confirmation today that now the Second book that I wrote, the naked dragonfly chronicals, the one that has recieved all of the reviews which most of them praise short stories will be printed by Christmas.

Here is how the email went (I am retyping this from memory, so it my not be word...
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lelaina:
biggrin biggrin biggrin biggrin weeeeeeeeeeeeeee! things are looking up!!
architectonic:
Fuck yeah that's awesome! Well done sweetie biggrin
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well shit...

I feel better now...after getting drunk off my ass sitting here at home, then talking to Sid for a couple of hours. THanks dear...I needed that talking to.

I am back in the saddle again.

I have no idea where the fuck that just came from

feeling very random.

publisher emailed me today, want to publish the second book now before the first...
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toxii:
we just couldnt make it work right now. for various reasons. but i think we`ll get back together eventually. only time will tell.

i work at a phone sex place. i am a supervisor there.

all is well. things will be okay. thank you for caring. <3
toxii:
the boy that i moved to florida for, his mom worked there. she helped me get the job. everyone starts out on the phones at first. i hated it though.

yeah i absolutely hate it. its making me miserable. :/
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An Untitled Poem about Depression -

Created by Christopher Matthew Ortiz
11.22.06

I tried to kill myself tonight
and as I lye on the floor
Bleeding
A Vision came to my head
It was of you.
A tear came to my eye
then another
More Came
Until I couldn't stop them
I picked up the knife once again
and Cut
Deeper than before
Thanking you...
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architectonic:
Keep going hon. Losing someone sucks (I know, for every year I've been at uni I've lost someone close to me - fucked up) but you have to keep going. If talking helps, do that. If you don't want to talk, consider going to the doctor and getting put on antidepressants for a while, until you're feeling stronger. It's not a weakness, sometimes everyone needs help.

Take care x
little15:
So sorry to hear about your friend. I hope the poem isn't literal, like Architectonic said maybe you should go see someone, you shouldn't have to feel that way all the time. I hope things start to get better soon kiss .
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Rest In Peace Bob -

You were a close family friend for the 24 years that I have been alive. You were one of my close friends when I was growing up. Thank you for everything you have done for me.

Passed 11.19.06 of a heart attack in his sleep.
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liv:
frown frown frown im so sorry

*hugs*
architectonic:
I'm sorry hon. But like Bebe said, it was peaceful. Take care x