faye

You just keep getting more interesting You're truly an amazing and fascinating person

that is awesome.....and i used to know all the words to the carebears, i am not cool enough to still remember them

Your Profile pictures is stunning

Honestly I'd rather see all good things going your way right now ... I remember seeing you and seeing how happy you could be sometimes ... and I miss that. Hope you're doing better

have i ever told you how incredibly gorgeous you are?

oh yeah, you're right, i have.

well... you're still incredibly gorgeous.

tequila is evil.

lizard fuel is good.

"Glou glou glou glou..."

::hugs:: you are amazingly beautiful! we will miss your sets in PSW! and if you ever decide you want to move to the US....i will need a roommate in Las Vegas starting in june ^_^

Now is one of those times I really wish I had some comforting words of advice, all I can say is I hope things get better and this darkness goes away very soon for you. I hope there's many brighter days ahead in the near future

"And now, Im not that person at all. It changed slightly, every year while I was preoccupied with other things. Taking care of you and all of your problems I left myself behind. I lost all the internal light and now Im unsure of how to get it back. I dont regret it. There should be no regrets in life. I just wish I would have been older. I wish I would have been given more wisdom to work with and would have known how to deal with things a little better. While I was busy with you, and all the other people I pushed me away. All the things that I thought and felt, no one had time for so I buried them deep. Then it became second nature and that happened with all things. Now, its like Ive forgotten how to feel anything other than sadness. Forgotten what its like to be happy in a true sense. Most of my smiles are faked. Some can exist in a brief moment but once the moment is over that brief sign of happiness is erased."


I don't know what it's about this paragraph, but it really touched me. I guess maybe because of the way you wrote it, your feelings and thoughts really are projected through it, and also it's probably because I know exactly how it is to feel that way. I guess I'm just now trying to find myself and what I lost by pushing myself away for others.

Life is filled with bullshit, idiots, morons, people that want to screw you over, people that want to use you, religious hypocrites, martyrs that can't enjoy life and are mad at you when you enjoy it (especially vices or naughty things.)

i do. its full of all sorts of bullshit. most of it unnecessary.

im sorry your sad and angry today. it seems to be going around.

one of the worst feelings ever - hating the way you feel and not knowing what to do to fix it. it bites a big hairy sweaty ballsack! ew. how about that visual.

Well theres plenty left to paint and i'm tired off painting by now so have at it girl..

lol..... u wish u had firends like mine..... aww cute lol.. well if u come to iowa u can lol

if you ever wanted to visit the states, new yawk is where the money's at! and i've always wanted hot roomies!

and you can cash all that american money in for canadian!

of course, if you had visa problems we could always get married and you could become a citizen! hehehe

best of luck with everything honey!

grrrr baby, very grrrr!

and it gets cold down here too! and there is no french talk!

Hope you're feeling better ... *hugs*

Alright, sooooo after who knows how many days without internet I'm back...and I must say HELLO to those mulitple sets.

HELLO!

How amazing are our beloved SGs??? Too gawd damn amazing if you ask me.

It seems that I haven't missed all that much group wise but I'll be taking a better looked after updating.

Nothing really at all has happened that much mostly just long ass hours at work. I almost quit on Sunday night because it's the same BS with that place over an over and they can't seem to get it through their thick skulls to actually change something. So I mentioned to one of the managers that I almost quit before I left for my vacation and that night made me realize why all over again, so hopefully things will get a bit better.

WMA (my old school) are harassing me for money again, and again I'm asking them for copies of my signed documents...it's been two years why not let it go if you don't have the records?? Just a big piss off really.

And I was considering moving away and keeping going back to school on hold again just because I hate where I am and even if I were in school which is what I really want I know I would be depressed and all that which isn't worth while. So after my mom informed me that Paul her newest boyfriend would be moving in at the end of April, she kinda made that decision for me.

So guy, I need a place to move to, a room mate and a job! *LOL I'm thinking either BC or Montreal....Montreal I know people there and they are amazing but it's FUCKING cold, and I don't speak french so I'm limied job wise. BC is hella expensive...and even if I did have a good enough job it would be hard to save all the money I'd need for school. BAH!!

Maybe school and me just aren't meant to be?

Hopefully going out to dinner and to a club tonight with my ladies. YAY...and I got all my sets printed for me which I have to pick up I can't wait to see them. I'm home alone tomorrow so maybe I'll do another set for you guys.

wow girl...i know what you mean about the whole not wanting to have sex with someone. i haven't done it in 3 years just because i haven't really found someone i am that comfortable around, plus i really want to love them before i take that step. old fashioned...yes that is me. even though i love to be sexual with people, it is a very strange combination.

good luck with the job...i have been working a lot of OT lately so that I can either go somewhere else or buy a house. haven't really decided yet.

much love to ya and i hope you can figure some things out

Ah it's okay.

You want to talk about dumb, I accidently deleted your comment. I forgot I wasn't in a group.

But oh well...