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Oh, sweetie...I'm so sorry you had such a bad day. Sometimes it's the little things, you know? There are days even now when merely thinking about "those days" when I myself was all depressed and on medication and just completely withdrawn from life can send me into a sobbing heap on the floor...one time it happened when I was in the shower, even. The day had just started; nothing bad had even happened yet. But for some reason...BOOM. Sobbing in a ball on the shower floor...the water was getting into my mouth and nose and ears and I didn't even care. It happens to the best of us. Honestly, I think there is some connection between extreme emotions of this sort and creativity. You know what we should do? We should write something together...collaborate, you know? And in the meantime...call me anytime, day or night, if you need to talk. I'm good at stuff like that...I listen, and sometimes I even say somewhat intelligent things.

Wow. This asshole should be fired. If he needs to sit on an imaginary throne and treat others like scum to feel good, then fuck him. I know that doesn't help, but that really pisses me off and it's what I'm thinking. Anyway, it sounds like good stuff is happening all around you - it's a matter of perspective. Easier said than done, though. Sometimes when everything is going right, I can't help but dwell on the one thing that is making my life seemingly miserable. And then I get all neurotic and my life turns into a Woody Allen film... Anyway, you'll be partying hard in a few weeks, so that's something to look forward to!

I think the older I get, the more I like the ass. I don't know why. It used to have NO appeal for me. But lately I find myself noticing it a lot more. Maybe it's because fashion, as of late, is shoving it down my throat... But there are worse things, I suppose.

Oh I like an nice ass...

But the logic of it as a photoset close is not clear. Except to say this is "the end", perhaps.

Its a problem. We know they aren't having sex so fake orgasm faces or passed out from exhaustion do not seem to cut it as logical endings either.

If there is going to be any typical ending, I think it should end with the best kiss. Yeah thats it.

EDIT: You'll never know! Seriously it was to add the word "not" cuz I'm a cementhead.

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Well, I only applied like, a week ago. The whole references thing seemed kind of wierd to me, but I guess it makes sense.
People are wierd. Deleting comments? Wacky.

edit: guess this comment doesnt belong here. how odd that was

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[Edited on Oct 10, 2004 5:43PM]

Thanks for the congrats Turns out the job might not be right for me... but it was awesome just to get an offer, boosted the confidence a lot.
Still trying to figure the job out, hopefully it'll all be good and I'll be over there at the start of December!

Turkey is fairly beautiful actually... But I'm confused as to why me being a grad student at 21 is so terrible. Does it help that I'll be 22 in a few weeks? And that I'm the youngest person in my department?

Yeah, the dating thing wierds me out a lot. But I'm perfectly happy to ignore it.

[Edited on Oct 07, 2004 9:22AM]

We should hang out.

It wasnt me. I hate coffee. Eww

My name?

Dys= bad, wrong

esthesia= feeling, sensation

So it's a condition in which physical sensations are warped or unusual somehow...

Gracias!!!!!!!!!!! Tengo ganas de hablar contigo y conocerte mas!!!!

Mil besos guapiiiiiiiiiiiisima!!!!!

hey girlie...yeah company is definitely on the agenda. it'll probably be about a week lag time as i'm getting through the worst swelling and pain in the arm period right now. i had surgery on Thursday night/Friday morning so i'm just pulling out of the severe pain phase of the experience. after that i'll be house ridden for a bit but company is always nice. i'm already restless to get out and do stuff...just too much pain right now and have to keep the arm elevated.

how was the trip? sounds like it was a good bonding experience from what i saw in M's journal...welcome back !!

I would say good luck, but I already know how it went!

I'll e-mail you those pics in a bit.

Thanks for going out with me yesterday; it was a gooood time.

My favorite has always been t-shirt with a skull and barbells for cross-bones that says "Yes. It hurt."

Sweet. All these clever shirts.

Okay. I'm pumped, too. Sure you're just kidding about swinging it? I think it'll be worth eating rice and beans...of course, I eat a lot of rice anyway. 'Cause I like it.

Okay, so you're doing a lot of the moving today? I thought you were doing it tomorrow...ah, well. I have nothing but this planned for tomorrow, and you probably have some of the moving stuff still to do...so you can pick a time that's good for you. Chicago Tattooing and Piercing Company, on Belmont.

Oh, and Cruelty has mentioned a burlesque show at the Playground (Belmont and Halsted) tomorrow...that To-to-the-mutha-fuckin'-mas magician guy will be there, too. Belmont Burlesque

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Where did you have your piercing done?

*insert funny joke about 'getting it' here*

whats up, doc?

you okay sweetie?

hey baby....wish you were here....

Clare! I miss you

Makes you feel lame!? What about me.

Sad I missed you. Sunday was fun as hell.

And by the way, you can knock on that door all you want, but I'll never hear it.

Hey! que tal estas??? hacia tiempo que no te veia por aqui..estaba desconectado... Veo que estas guapisima y sigues pintando genial. Felicidades
Mil besos

First of all, it is fucking R-A-D that you listen to/would want to see Utah Phillips. Wowee.

Anyway, he is soooo last week or his show was anyway. Ever been to Schubas? I have to call to get the jolie holland tix, but I want to know if they have tables and if I should try to get one.

Dont get me wrong, btw, im not in shape. Just bored. It does stuff to ya.

Beautiful new pic...excellent choice !!!