erin

it's time to get my cat fixed. she went into heat a week or two ago. i gotta say when you don't have cable tv or the internet, watching the behaviours of the sexually frustrated in the animal kingdom is a delight. family fun. the pissing thing is another story.


i bought $45 of makeup today, and i only walked away with the basics. there's...
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Stevie the sound guy at Dante's called me in to go-go dance at berbati's tonight. i don't know how to go-go dance! i don't know what to wear! i have two hours to figure it out and get my tookus to berbati's. i am not the sort of girl to pull miracles out of my ass, but i think this might be the time for...
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god i love my music. i know everyone loves thier own music, but wow.

I'm in seattle, hanging out with cousins. it's so peaceful up here on thier hill, i'm coveting thier lifestyle. fucking weirdos though. all about satan and throwing puppies down flights of stairs.

i know they probably read this. pbbbth.

i'm dissatisfied with my apartment lately. i don't have enough room for...
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i'm in such a shitty mood today. apologies to whomever my wrath may fall upon on this wretched morning.

i'm making cinnamon rolls! maybe that will make things ok.

I would like to publicly announce that i was never molested by my father or any role model in my life, male or female. i do not have emotional issues other than the occasional monthly crying...
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i am backwards. i can handle falling asleep just as the sun comes up and sleeping until early afternoon, but sleeping from noon to 8pm, long after the sun goes down.... this is really getting to me. i would try to skip a night and get back on track but i start bogging down around 11 and can't deal with the sickness and wasted day...
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whoa. this is pretty neat-o. i'm in seattle passing time at kinkos, wishing i was back in portland. one more day....

people are wrestling on my living room floor and i'm on my computer. what's wrong with this picture? should i be jumping into the mix and try to get a free grope once in a while, should i stand on the side and wait for the opportunity to slap a wandering ass cheek? should i drink another beer? i think so. i love the early...
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silly sleepless little me. apologies all around today. why does being naked have to be so difficult.... why is my cat insane? i just want to sit by myself on my couch and stare at the carpet for a few hours, is that too much to ask? for someone with basically nothing to do it seems like i never get the chance to do nothing....
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damn these feelings. it's proving a bit difficult to step out of one life and into another, and the complications seem to add up as the days go by. i've always been a bit impressionable - honest-to-goodness opinions are always clouded by my fear of my own bad judgement and the repercussions of playing with the lives and feelings of others. if i could only...
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exposing the mind is much more difficult than exposing the body.

i went to sghq last night about dante's. zona scared me like a little bitch, she is so pretty and glowing.

6:00 am, time for bed. maybe i can beat the sun this time. I hope my balance/hand-eye coordination is better at work tonight, it's no fun to dance like a camel. not very...
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what a strange feeling, to think that perhaps there are a hundred people, at any given time, inspecting you, analyzing the very flaws you would try to hide from them in a 'normal' situation, remarking to thier friend or coworker on the size and shape of the very bits and pieces that make you a sexual being...laughing at the funny bits.... taking this all into...
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i remember this time i stayed at a boy's house. he lived with his parents, and i barely knew him, only that he was damaged and delicate. i woke up all alone the next day with leatherface on the record player, playing over and over and over in a very depressing way... i lay awake on that futon for what seemed like hours, afraid to...
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