ellebelle

Have I mentioned how much I like your profile kitty?

so, you know you have to post the pictures from paris!

the workout's going alright. it's super boring, though - at the gym.
i've been doing crunches and lunges at home - lunges are most difficult when you're jumping down and holding - my trainer taught me that, so since i don't have a stair stepper thing i've been using a toolbox. and you stand on it, and then jump down into a lunge, almost strattling the box (about a foot tall) and hold, then step up, jump down into lunge. .. fuuuuuck!
but it's my waistline that needs more work. i have this hereditary belly thing, like the pooch below my bellybutton. not even low enough to consider it a fupa, but still ucky. someone told me it's a "weak abdominal wall" which makes me think my intestines are trying to get out
anyhow, the crunches are most important. i have a pilates thing i've been doing, too (how cheese that it's the windsor thing you see all over the place) - one of the tough ones (that my trainer also suggested) is to lay on your back, put your legs in the air 90degrees to your back and, keeping your arms level with the ground, crunch toward your raised legs. hold it and then sortof bounce your arms, but flex them isometric-like. fuuuuuuck.
but, a muscle cell is three times smaller than a fat cell and WILL BURN THE FAT! sooo it's worth it.
i've only lost six pounds, though. i mean... that doesn't include the one size i lost slowly from cutting calories since october, but the six pounds since the beginning of the year.
and i only gym it on weekdays, too. i'm trying to motivate to do it in the morning but i'm not really a morning person. ideally i'd be at the gym at ten to six so i'd have time to prepare for work and go in after exercise then have my evenings free for time to do something before the sunsets. but nooooo! instead i'm dumb and go to the gym after work and lose the hours of light to inside and fluorescents.
bleh.

um. what else.
oh yeah. the weekends i've been trying to do fun stuff that also includes something anti-lazy.
like, museums - you have to walk around them alot. and i spend a lot of time at the lake, and though it's been getting cold, exercising makes my cheeks warm and it's kindof fun the way my nose and lips and chin get cold but i'm sweating under a jacket.
and i have a friend who lives a little ways from some movies so when i meet her we just walk. and another friend and i ride bikes when we're not remodeling her house. remodeling a house is fun and exercise-y too. even the painting - my arms hurt after pushing a roller all day or clutching a brush to cut in.
my mom has six dogs so i walk them and it's fun cuz they're dogs and they're fun. they're so excited and sometimes i run with them.
but it's just cheesy stuff, you know. if i'm shopping (which i almost loathe to do) i power it through the stores.

whatever. i'm trying. isn't that all we can do, is give it effort.
and i keep in mind the idea that changed my life, so, that makes it worth it, too.
if i want the life i want i have to live it now - and i have to keep in mind that some of the best results aren't fun for doing the work. but it's worth it.

good luck, lovely.
i think of kids, too. i don't want to feel old before my time - i always say that age is an attitude and if i'm young then i should use my body better.

you know,
i could fucking ramble here for another hour but i won't
cuz i have work to do. haha

haha yeah my grandparents are a bit weird.
my grandmother wanted to spike the punch for this "golden agers" meeting. (golden agers = a club of old people that my grandmother JUST became the president of).
i dont think she did, but its still a funny thought.

have a good one!

your new profile pic looks great!

*is confused*

Well the being done being a boy is why I think 38 is a good age. It doesn't bother me, I've just never dated someone more than 4 years older. and he was still a boy.

Details will definitely be in the journal

Where'd I put that number for that house cleaning lady? JK
Notice the date on this post

nope different chick

nope different chick

AWE ...so kool ! i bet your so excited, i know i would.
11 years, im jealous. he must be madly in love with you...i dont blame him, you seem like a sweetheart.

Our trip was obviously extended. Double duh. ND
xo

mah neck! mah back! mah neck AND mah back! i'm suing you for one million dollars, but I'll settle out of court for this fo'ty.

Yeah!!!!


happy new year!!!!

merry christmas sweetie
and be safe and healthy

and you lost your virginity to a potato masher??? i lost mine to a potato peeler. really that was his job!!

jk

!!!!!!!!
i want to write a bunch to you.
but i'm at work... i copied and pasted into another journal from something i wrote this morning.

happy holidays, elle

i'm really glad you had given the update, but i was sure you were just staying away to get a hold on your life - it seems to be somewhat of a trend these days.

and then you come and tell me about what happened and it freaked me out! i'm so glad you're on the up and up.

I thought you took the plunge into leaving. Glad to hear you are feeling better. Hope you have a great holiday!

OH MY GODDESS!!!!!

I am so glad you're OK!!! Holy fucking shit......

I'm letting my membership here expire on Jan 6. I'll still be around til then, though.

Anyway, welcome back, and let me restate - I AM SO GLAD YOU'RE OK!!!!!

I didn't think I was autistic. At least, I don't feel autistic... if autistic is something you feel. Maybe I'm just stuck forever in a dream world of my own horrid creation. hmm.