drnecessitor

Feeling a bit better today, I guess...anxiety seems to be on the wane. Was able to teach class tonight in a non-catatonic state. Seeing the therapist tomorrow afternoon.

Tired...gotta get to bed. But I thought I would upload something nice to look at in the profile pic, at least.

Love to all the SGs and to those in the friends box.

Had a long talk with my boss today...looks like I am going to get laid off, but they're more than willing to work with me on how I go. It probably won't be until the end of June. Letters of recommendation, unemployment benefits, possibly some severance pay...plus, they are willing to pay for some outplacement services for me. Not bad for a small non-profit that...
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So...I've still got my job. I may not be able to say that by the end of this week, but what seems to be happening is what I have been hoping for; I think I may have turned the corner emotionally to where it just doesn't matter to me. It's just a job...I'm a smart guy with skills, and I can always get another. I...
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Thanks to everyone who took time to read my journal yesterday, and to add comments. I think I'm feeling marginally better tonight. Panic and anxiety are no fun. I haven't eaten all day. And I haven't had the urge to listen to music, so you know I'm REALLY not myself. But I had a long talk with my sister in New Jersey and, later, my...
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I guess the site failure yesterday aced all of our profile pictures...I'm going to put the Van Gogh back up again. I need something to calm me. Read on.
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I am very down, frightened and depressed right now. I went into work today to do some computer maintenance (part of my job), and I happened upon some indications that I am to be fired...
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Oh praise buddha, the end of another week....
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Just got back from jamming with some friends...great stuff. Boy, I love making a loud noise with guitars & stuff. Here's some of the tunes we bashed our savage way through:

Talk of the Town - Pretenders
Here Comes My Baby - Cat Stevens, for souljacker
Lip Service - Elvis Costello
Sky Pilot - Animals
Time...
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Gonna look for a digital camera this weekend....
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I don't have much to say tonight...but big love to all in the friends box, and all the byootiful SGs

PS Allergies are a lot better...my head doesn't feel like a snot-filled pumpkin anymore

Listening to: Jayhawks - Rainy Day Music

I'm screwed. Completely screwed. Because of the allergies, I was a wreck all day at work today. So I came home and fell asleep for about an hour or two. I hate when that happens. Now I'm gonna have a hard time getting to sleep tonight, I'll be a wreck at work tomorrow, and the cycle starts again.
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Found a used copy of the...
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Mmmmmmmmm...red beans & rice...yeah, it's from a box, but still....
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Someone made a mistake. A good, earnest person who possibly got a little too comfortable, maybe a little too bold? I'm just guessing. Does the punishment fit the crime? Sometimes education is very cruel. I don't know specifics, I just know what my heart tells me. I hope cool heads and compassion prevail. But...
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My brain has had to work TOO hard today. Drama at work, drama between friends of mine, Giants lose again...aaarrgh. Plus Melissa... why, baby, why?
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I am tired...and headachey...and it's put me in a melancholic mood. I'm going to bed. All will be well with a good night's sleep.

Listening to: Ryan Adams - Gold

P.S. Anne keeps coming and going...make up your mind,...
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Aaaahhh...tonight Six Feet Under ended with Todd Rundgren's "I Saw the Light." Such an upbeat song to end such an unsettling episode.
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I went to get my hair cut today. As usual, Shirin did it. She's a lovely Persian woman who I've been out with a few times. She seemed slightly miffed that we haven't spoken much recently. I'm really hesitant to get too...
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