I was doing my last minute Christmas shopping and i found a book called "Everything i've ever done that worked", and it's "a resource book...for when life bowls you over and you forget what works. Like a fantastic spiritual and emotional first aid" I sort of thought it might be horse shit, but i bought it... Read More
My head is wrecked. Like, completly all over the place, and up until now i've used this journal to vent, as you all know. But i can't even do that anymore.
Drama follows me around. Sometimes i think i create the drama, and sometimes, when i'm doing nothing i find myself right in the middle of a huge mess. Like now. I'm quite used to... Read More
Can I hold on to that offer until next year? I am trying to do a year of travel next year and get to stay in places as far from here as I can...with people that I, too, admire...
Oh noes! Yeah I usually put things as 'members only' most of the time, just because if you google for certain things you can find your journal or page on here can come up as a search result.
Hope things do work out...hadn't read that updated bit at all till I came here to wish you a Happy New Year, but you're a lovely girl and dear god I hope people do realise that.
So Snotty Nose Tear and I hope 07 is good to you lovely!
I went on my first date, and i can't even begin to describe how good it was, but i've had such a pants week.
First off, i had my driving lesson on Thursday. My driving is quite good. I can drive a car. Anyway, i was out on the road, and the instructor was shouting at me, like, constantly. It's not the first... Read More
Do you remember a few weeks ago, when i was on my learning buzz. Do you remember i told you about the boy that was nice to me, twice, for no reason?
Well................
I dedided that he was extremly nice, and i could do with a nice boy for once, so he was my crush, that i thought i scared off. I didn't though. I... Read More
Daze-eeeeeee!
Yeah I must call down sometime over the xmas period. Just have to see if I have any days off to myself to be honest. Something tells me I wont have many. Not until the massive lull after the Janurary sales and everyone gets fired
Today my work pants split. There was very many jokes made hitherto about my large bum.
Also, the crush i have, on the boy. I've scared him off. Already. I just got nervous, and started talking at him, and he ran. RAN LIKE THERE WAS NO TOMORROW. Oh well.
I applied for a new job yesterday. And another one today. I don't really know what... Read More
Well , as usaual it is a pleasure to read the lines you dropped here.
in the other hand let me tell you my thoughts on those subjects (leave it as well if you it sounds like shit)
Our life is the result of our own acts and performance , for sure sometimes the chance could be helpfull , but anyway only the involvement and implication can give back a return on investment and can guarrantee a real sucess (anyhow I cross fingers too... Never give up , this new you job will become earlier than foressen.
Take care , don't change anything ...just only try to be and remain yourself..keep your good energy on !!!!
Kiss !
Well. Like i said, i'm back. I am properly fucking back too. No more misery for me, oh no.
Like i said in my last post, i've learned a lot. A scary lot in the last 3 weeks. More probably than in the last 3 years. And even though i sometimes surprise myself, like last Saturday night, i like me. I'm nice. I'm fun, and... Read More
Believe it or not, regular After Eights are actually vegan already!!! and yes, the white chocolate did taste nice, which was a suprise, cos I was expecting it to taste like AIDS.
As for Propagandhi, I'm in danger of peeing my pants with excitement.
Sometimes a friendly voice does so much more than anything.
This weekend i learned an awful lot.
I learned how disgusting people can be.
I learned that other people WILL let you down. Sometimes there is no malice in that fact, sometimes there is. People are just more often than not unreliable.
I learned how i'm not much better myself. But i am better than... Read More
When i was growing up i never climbed a tree. So i've decided i MUST climb a tree, and soon. I think my life may depend on it.
Where i grew up, there were 7 kids my age, 3 boys and 4 girls. 3 of the girls were older and did "cool girl" things, and the younger girl, she wasn't into boyish things, and the... Read More
Sometimes it's very hard to see what's really going on when you're so involved, and have invested emotions in something. And when you do walk away and manage to look at it objectivley, you see some things.
I took a step back, and did some hardcore thinking, and y'know what, i'm alright. Handsome man, isn't what i made him... Read More
Y'know that confused smiley face, , that one. Well, like maybe a million, trillion of those could begin to describe how confused i am.
I won't go into the in's and out's of it, but i am still single. Handsome man says he still loves me, i still love him, but he thinks we need time apart. I don't know what that means, but all... Read More
Actually I would kinda complain, she's a nice girl to work with and is a good friend of my sisters...but er, seriously not my type. I'd prefer no molesting from her in all honesty.
And how do you know I'm not a serial killer eh? I might have tons of musli, cornflakes and weetabix chained up in my secret basement. No, wait, that's a ceral killer. I'm one of those alright.
Choosy, perhaps. But I don't know how to be less choosy, or even if I want to be. I would just like to meet a girl I actually do fancy and who quite likes me. But that's seemingly impossible of late. And quit flattering me like that, I clearly aint good enough for you
Haha. By proxy that makes me class eh? Fair enough, I'll put that on my CV if you don't mind.
<3
One ending is the start of a new beginning. You do deserve better!!! Give it time and you will find that special man that will always keep you in his heart!!!! I wish you all the happiness in the world!!! Thank you for you kind words too!!! I always try and be positive and never say anything rude or offensive unless it's a joke or something. Matters of the heart take a special kindness when others need help or advise. Good luck honey, and keep us up to date!!!
It really upset me, i'd be lying if i said it didn't. I had a proper fucking wobble after, i was just so upset, and just wanted someone to cry to. I went out and met two wonderful friends, and they both, and other people that i've talked to since have all said i can do better. I... Read More
What a confusing time.
and yes, the white chocolate did taste nice, which was a suprise, cos I was expecting it to taste like AIDS.
