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I quit my job at The Body Shop today. It wasn't a very light hearted decision.
I really do like it and have lots of fun there but after working there for the past six months I have come to the conclusion that it just doesn't pay me enough.
I've tried working at my other job on the side, but I have too many shifts...
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Did an awesome job at the fashion show today. I'm fantastic.

Going out with my mom tomorrow. Funny how I'd rather go out with her than my friends. My mom is just that cool.

I just want to be tied down and fucked hard until I scream.

I am awfully tired and should be in bed but need to chill out for a few seconds....
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I'm thinking so much about the future that my head hurts.
I have decided to apply for some schools next year, get a degree as a social worker. I did some research just for fun the other day and it's really not a bad education, I can pretty much work with anything regarding people and whatnot. And thankfully the pay here in Norway is very...
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Peel and slice eggplant (thank you theconservative), slice up broccoli and add chili, salt and pepper. Or whatever spices you like.
Pour in buttermilk or what you prefer in your cooking, covering up to the top.
Add a layer with cheese on top and gratinate in oven for 35 minutes.

Fry ground beef in a heated pan, add garlic, onion and mushrooms, some of...
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So many advices. I don't know which to follow. Maybe all of them.. or none.
When I don't know what it is I want, have no clue of what I want to say and all words just flee my mind.
It isn't entirely true.. I know everything but I'm too good at pretending I don't know. I don't want to face it. I don't want...
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Had a wonderful day out in the garden with my dad today.
It is so sweet, the way my dad shows that he cares for me. I was out in the garden raking the lawn and two minutes later he came out to help me. And I have never ever seen him as a guy who takes much interest in gardening.
So we spent the...
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I once complained about not having that guyfriend you can talk to about everything.
I really shouldn't. I realized I have someone who is that guy. And so much more.
He let me vent out my frustration and concern over my sister without trying to give me advice or telling me what to do, he just listened, which was the only thing I needed...
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There is just nothing. It is so quiet. So calm. That restlessness suddenly disappeared.
I have slept, no tossing, no turning. No regrets. No thoughts.
My hands aren't holding anything anymore. I have nothing to apologize for.
I am so tired but I have to get on with it. Masks fall off and often there is nothing behind them.

Happy independence day Norway!

Thank you everyone for your comments on my last blog.
It's thoughts keeping me up at night and I can't drink every night until I pass out. I have done that a few times and it doesn't make things better.
It is part the boy going through things and of course I have a million thoughts about that, and to make it worse it's pretty...
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I give up.
Fuck it, lets just stay awake all night, sleep for 30 minutes and go to work, do fuckall when I come home and be exhausted yet not able to fall asleep when I go to bed.
Rinse and repeat until I'm not human.

I hate it when I squirt all over my bed. Even though then and there it is very nice indeed.
But I hate sleeping on the wet spot.
Sleeping on the couch tonight.
If I can sleep at all.
Midnight sun insomnia kicking in.