i feel like such a geek, so much to plan for, still finalizing dates but i think it'll be end of next week, for a week.
omg i just can't believe it.
and when we talk about it he's excited, and it's HIS idea, and i dunno i'm just elated. i feel like everything i've been waiting for and working for is finally coming to... Read More
I'm SO excited for you. I get so giddy when Gabriel and I have one of our "off" weekends, so we have 2 weeks apart, and then when we see each other I get really fluttery. Tomorrow, btw. I haven't seen him in 2 weeks, and he gets here tomorrow. Woo!
OK. In order of importance, starting with must not skip:
-shower, shave legs, lotion up so you're soft
-clean under the toilet seat. they lift those.
-put good things in the frig
-ensure favourite bra/undies are clean
-ensure sheets are clean/good-smelling
aaaaaand you're done. everything else is frosting.
so the weirdest thing happened today.
after all the avoiding i've been doing...the not calling back, you guys know the drill...
this morning he texted me and said he had something important to talk to me about...so i was kinda freaking thinking omg what if something's wrong, and he needs me and this and that and then.......
well...texted him this morning as for him not to worry.
getting ready for work, should be another busy ass day - shocker.
i love my job i really do.
i hope everyone has a great day!
Cass
i'm fine guys - i just need to work thru this crap.
i promise i'll be back to my old self in no time.
in the meantime, have a great wednesday.
2 hour meeting at 8am with justin - we'll see how that goes.
i'm really trying to be normal around him.
josh has been getting bugged by how much i've talked about him lately... Read More
well my 2 specialties are chicken marsala and mac n cheese from scratch. i can cook anything but steak lol literally anything. and baking irritates me because of all the math and measuring so the hubby is good at that which came as a shock. i also make really good chicken fingers and the bomb veggie burritos.
worked another 12 hour day today.
he's called, emailed, left a voicemail (which is rare) and texted multiple times now.
i haven't responded :/
i worked until 8 so i didn't want to talk to him late.
fuck this sucks.
you know how i feel? i feel like i want him to miss me so much that he insists on seeing me immediately. i want... Read More
I love ya, you're a great girl and I hate seeing you hurt.
But I think its really weird that yall haven't seen each other since he moved. If it were me, I'd be DEMANDING to see each other. I can barely stand only seeing my boy every 4-5 months. If you love each other, you would both be willing to do whatever it takes to see each other. I'm not sure why you're both so adamant on denying yourselves of each other. You say you want to make him see that its not ok to be away from each other, then TELL him that. Call him and tell him that it is NOT OKAY to be so far away for so long. If you love each other, and not just the IDEA of each other, then you should be able to make a visit happen.
Because personally. If it were ME, I'd be all wound up thinking something shady was going on if the person I love wasn't interested in spending anytime with me. I would think the absolute worst and go crazy. And all of your friends here, all the people who care can see that you're in absolute agony over being away from him.
I'm glad people have started getting real in other peoples blogs. I don't know enough on the back situation, but if you ever want to talk, let me know hunnibuns. As a side note, a friend of mine has started calling the week we are on the crimson tide "shark week." I LOLed.
hmmmph monday.
had the smart car again today which was fun, you can't help but smile when you're driving it, it's like the bringer of joy.
i wanna share the experience with josh.
i want to share LOTS of experiences with josh.
yet...here i am.
and i still haven't gone to visit :/ what AM i waiting for?
crazy busy weekend....literally just slowed down about 5 mins ago.
i'm tired.
spent friday at work with bex all day, then slept over at my mom's friday night with the kid, bday party and pool and shopping and swimming and presents and bbq sat, then slept over again then today we had amazing french pastries this morning, and we had some more pool time (aunty... Read More
i've decided todays going to be a good day.
seriously.
what's your take on sharing lip balm, drinking from the same container and all that...just curious.
normally it's not something i do but i have been doing it with a certain person...
not sure why.
not sure if it's really respectful of josh either.
anyhow.
it's almost friday.
tomorrow night bex and i are sleeping... Read More
I don't necessarily think sharing lip balm and drinking from the same container is a bad thing if you really know the person. But I think your gut is also telling you something and you may need to reflect on that feeling.
just for clarity....i feel better after talking to misa. she's a good kid, but still 23, and certainly acting it in a lot of ways. i don't know if i could be my friend when i was 23. seriously.
i miss josh like crazy and when he does sweet things or mentions old pictures, it makes me even more sentimental. just when you thought i... Read More
im crying.
just feel like crying right now because everything is so fuckin confusing.
sometimes i think it's easier when he's an asshole b/c then i don't miss him as much.
tonight he sent me a picture of a puppy rebbecca used to have named drake that he took when we babysat him for a weekend. he says in his email "i hope this puppy... Read More
Sometimes you just need to cry. Let it all out. it is a form of release.
You are supportive, loving, kind, loyal. But you are not a girl scout.
You have needs and they are not being met. So naturally you are going to obsess a little. You know how when you have a scab - you just can't help but pick it?
Well you have an internal wound. It's scabbed over. You know it's healing but it's not there yet - and it's driving you crazy.
Another thing - you are an achiever. You set standards for yourself. Then others don't achieve those standards - and it feels like a lack of respect. There's a lot of people out there with a laissez-faire attitude and they don't even get what or why you are stressing. Sometimes you just ned to let it go. There will always be a gap with them. it is what it is.
Here's another hug for you. Sometimes I wish I could just wave a magic wand and make it all better.
but i think it'll be end of next week, for a week.
I feel for you. Sometimes I just blame it on us being girls. It's just how we are I guess. Feel better my dear. It'll be better tomorrow. *hugs*
It'll be the southern Aurora Borealis.....