calgoth

well- yet another night of sitting around bored. no wonder why i like to be out of the house, whenever i am at home anymore, i'm just trying to find something to do outside of here

damn- drank alot of vodka this weekend- i was drunk alot. i also went to my ren faire guild's, the Clan MacColin, bad movie night- and the movies were as bad as promised....now i'm sitting bored

well- i'm definitly starting to feel better about my life- i may not have a job, but at least i have friends, both in the outside world and on here.

well- so begins another day of pounding the pavement, i swear the job market is so much crap right now....me sad

sooooooo bored, sitting at home all day while my car is in the shop blows, hopefully a friend will come by

well- my car broke down yet again- alternator went out. so i'm carless for a day or two and further in debt....life sucks

well- i feel unloved, no one ever posts in my journal. I'm trying to be part of the whole SG community, but it seems i'm failing miserably.

well- i'm drunk and alone on a saturday night- i'm feeling way too bloody alone right now. i miss my ex so much it hurts- i'm really not want to live, but i lack the courage to take my own life, so i drink, and drink more till i can' think

Well- i'm getting ready for another weekend of clubbing and drinking. i hope the IT market picks up soon so i can actually look forward to the weekends as opposed to them being just another day of the week for me.

well.....i'm sitting a my puter yet another lonely night. I swear during the day i seem to be able to last, but when its the middle of the night, i just feel so alone it hurts. drinking sounds good, but i'm doing that too much these days

well- just got back from the networking class i'm taking at crafton- after 3 weeks we are finally hitting computer stuff i don't already know- yey!

well- i have started a journal in an effort to vent my life online, i don't know how much i'm going to be writing, but i do feel quite alone right now, my life in the last month or so has changed so much since my fiancee left me. now i'm struggling to try and live my life again with her. i don't even know...
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