beatnik

Trust me, this kind of shit doesnt normally happen to me at 1:50 in the morning. I thought everyone here could use a thorough fucked up creeping.

Don't think I'm a demented fuck - you're probobly as shocked as I am that I let this go long enough to grab my camera, insert the battery, remove the lens cap, calibrate the ISO and shutter speed,...
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Got bored so i got all dressed up in my finest threads and shot some photos this evening, and despite my mild dysmorphic tendencies, I'm actually pretty pleased with the ways these piece of shit photos turned out.

I've got this thing..... like this absurd, bullshit issue. I've never felt more unattractive in my life. And despite what people say, people need to feel that...
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4 days ago, someone I knew from high school put a gun to his head and closed his blue eyes.

I looked at his yearbook picture this evening - he had the most picturesque face - like a beautiful blonde boy smiling not for his family or his friends, but for his content. For trees and blue skies and acoustic guitars. For peanut butter sandwiches...
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WOW! My life is awful boring these days. I haven't updated in nearly a week... wow.

All I'm really doing right now is re-mastering an old animated film of mine. I'm going back in, cleaning things up, re-rendering, and hopefully I'll be able to get the rights to the song I'm using - if not, I'll just write some original music for it. Then I'd...
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I'm falling in love with all sorts of things all over again. For example!

Radiohead! I've been listening to OK Computer CONSTANTLY for the last month, and it's like I've never heard it before. I really dig this band, what they stand for, and what they want to achieve with thier music. I've heard some really awesome statements by thom and its just refreshing in...
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Well, time to find a job. Can't stay unemployed forever!

I applied for a temp posititon at Apple just to take in a few bucks during the summer month or two.

I'm getting reels together for Pixar, Dreamworks, Sony Imageworks, Universal Images, Blur, and Blue Sky. Time to see if all that hard work paid off.

*le sigh*

Hmmm.......... time to go spend more money...
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It's the saddest feeling when you get to the point where you've convinced yourself that a certain kind of love only exists in fairytales and movies and suddenly, you see somebody completely in that kind of love. That very love you were so sure simply didn't exist.

I want to feel that kind of love. I want to feel that total, carefree, beautiful love.

Nobody...
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Once again, I breathe the pollenous and mosquito-rich Milwaukee air.

Alas, anything's better than 8 hours of the recycled 1993 Plymouth Voyager air conditioner.

I've been reading a lot lately. I've never been a big fan of, well, reading (novels and such, that is). But suddenly, I'm going to coffee shops and reading (like the artsy little boy I am). It's become a tremendous inspiration...
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Thanks everyone for the kind words!

What now? Unemployment! ....sigh....

Well, I'm moving back to Milwaukee next week, and I'll hang out there for a few months before I ultimately head out to Los Angeles and get a job at one of the major studios out there. We'll see what happens. I graduated top in my department, and people seem to think I have a...
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for the remotely interested:

i recieve my bachelors of fine arts on thursday

and the people rejoiced..... yay.....


hmmm..... golly im bored these days.

i hope you're all having lots of fun!


-chris

boooooooored

i think ive just discovered the most terrifying feeling in the world-

when you realize that there is no way to validate 4 years of personal struggle, emotional growth, heartache, tolerance, grief, despair, loss, abandonment, fear, excitement, and love.

when, in the course of a few small seconds, everything you've fought and suffered for is thrown away as if nothing mattered.

when you have NO...
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