YAY IM BACK 
3 months thanks to the great cdt21
he's the greatest! MWAH
altho i am having a particularly SHIT day....
im sorry peeps i know im always moaning but this is the last day of term, and i got a massive deadline tomoro plus am missing out on loads of last day of term celebrations. so i should be slightely better net company...
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3 months thanks to the great cdt21
he's the greatest! MWAH
altho i am having a particularly SHIT day....
im sorry peeps i know im always moaning but this is the last day of term, and i got a massive deadline tomoro plus am missing out on loads of last day of term celebrations. so i should be slightely better net company...
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schismatic_god:
hey atleast your motivated to do somthing with your life, I know plenty of people who do jack, and are perfectally happy with "Would you like fries with that" for an existance.
schismatic_god:
Yeah, well people just have to get off thier asses, I mean it is totally doable, I mean, I have worked hard since I was a teenager, I started with nothing, now I own my own buisness, a couple of nice cars and a house. And I am 23, it is all about preparedness meeting oportunity!
thanks Jojo, but as much as i fancy the pants off other girls my size of larger and size has never been an issue in what i find attractive in other people... i still manage to have stupid weight issues with myself.
its stupid i know. but sumtimes i have to force myself to eat, because otherwise i ... well i just dont... for days...
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its stupid i know. but sumtimes i have to force myself to eat, because otherwise i ... well i just dont... for days...
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someoneuk:
Yay, you didn't go grey!
I've felt like that before, anyways you'll be in London next year, so things should be different!
Yay, you didn't go grey!
I've felt like that before, anyways you'll be in London next year, so things should be different!
yuriel:
your body is just fine hon
it hurts me to hear people have to fight shit like this.
eveyrone is into someone for some reason
Im sure the man thinks yer just fine
sorry about work being hell
i hope you are well and enjoying coffee or something right now.
it hurts me to hear people have to fight shit like this.
eveyrone is into someone for some reason
Im sure the man thinks yer just fine
sorry about work being hell
i hope you are well and enjoying coffee or something right now.
dear all. am having a good day being super organsied but STILL CANT FIND MY PASSPORT!
eating chocolate! talking about shooting a set once i get thinner!
sitting here online for a few mins while i have a MAJOR deadline which i am SOOO behide of PLUS i have to work tonight! ARGHHHHHHHHHHH
iIn more exciting news someone bought me a gift membership yay! i...
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eating chocolate! talking about shooting a set once i get thinner!
sitting here online for a few mins while i have a MAJOR deadline which i am SOOO behide of PLUS i have to work tonight! ARGHHHHHHHHHHH
iIn more exciting news someone bought me a gift membership
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djsik:
There's a man called Jose standing at an immigration desk at Heathrow wearing your clothes and holding your passport, trying to convince officials that his name's Barny.
Be scared!
(Let me know if you want help with the meditation stuff!)
Be scared!
(Let me know if you want help with the meditation stuff!)
6underground:
you don't have to worry about getting thinner - theres quite a few bigger than a stick girls on this site and loads of admirers!
good luck finding your passport!
good luck finding your passport!
ill be back soon
just a little time to rest my head.
This was written on a friends funeral invite.... although i didnt see them regularly ... they were such an influence... such a being in my life...i miss them almost everyday.
I am in a space in which no bell may ring
No whispered word, no footfall echoing.
I am a mist in which...
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djsik:
Sorry to hear your news. Hope it all goes OK at the funeral.
I'm based in Manchester/Leeds, and I've got a few contacts in various places around the North who could help get you started with meditation. Although I'll be able to find people in London, or wherever pretty easily. If you let me know roughly where you are in the UK, I'll see what I can find
Personally, I find the best people to visit are Buddhist monks - they spend just about their whole lives meditating, so they know exactly what they're talking about... and it's against their religion to try to convert anyone.
My teacher's a really interesting bloke. I think he used to be a bit of a stoner in Wales originally. He did a PhD in genetics, and worked in cancer research for several years before training as a monk.
Most Buddhist centres do some kind of General Program, where they guide fairly gentle meditations and give some short teachings and discussions on how to generally feel better in life. Normally you can just drop in and see how it goes for a couple of sessions and if you want to get into it a bit deeper, they'll have more advanced classes too.
Personally, I found that meditation pretty much saved me from a big ugly downhill spiral about 18 months ago. I can now control my mind much better, and I honestly can't remember the last time I felt bad about life.
One word of advice though, it's kind of like weightlifting. The first couple of times you do it, it might feel like a lot of effort emotionally, or that your mind is running away with itself. That's because you're effectively observing your mind in its natural state before you start getting it under control. After a couple of weeks though, you can expect to be leaving the sessions with a big cheesy grin once you start to master your crazy jedi mind tricks.
Give me a shout if I can help! xxx
I'm based in Manchester/Leeds, and I've got a few contacts in various places around the North who could help get you started with meditation. Although I'll be able to find people in London, or wherever pretty easily. If you let me know roughly where you are in the UK, I'll see what I can find
Personally, I find the best people to visit are Buddhist monks - they spend just about their whole lives meditating, so they know exactly what they're talking about... and it's against their religion to try to convert anyone.
My teacher's a really interesting bloke. I think he used to be a bit of a stoner in Wales originally. He did a PhD in genetics, and worked in cancer research for several years before training as a monk.
Most Buddhist centres do some kind of General Program, where they guide fairly gentle meditations and give some short teachings and discussions on how to generally feel better in life. Normally you can just drop in and see how it goes for a couple of sessions and if you want to get into it a bit deeper, they'll have more advanced classes too.
Personally, I found that meditation pretty much saved me from a big ugly downhill spiral about 18 months ago. I can now control my mind much better, and I honestly can't remember the last time I felt bad about life.
One word of advice though, it's kind of like weightlifting. The first couple of times you do it, it might feel like a lot of effort emotionally, or that your mind is running away with itself. That's because you're effectively observing your mind in its natural state before you start getting it under control. After a couple of weeks though, you can expect to be leaving the sessions with a big cheesy grin once you start to master your crazy jedi mind tricks.
Give me a shout if I can help! xxx
yuriel:
you rest well an take it easy
hey there. having an interesting everning.
anyone care to tell me how they cheer themselves up when they're grumpy?
i go online! HAHA!
and smoke joints...
lol
bedtime.... night night all
i cant decide. i think it would be fun to model but havent found the time to take any really decent full body shots yet. i keep wanting to press the apply button but...
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anyone care to tell me how they cheer themselves up when they're grumpy?
i go online! HAHA!
and smoke joints...
lol
bedtime.... night night all
i cant decide. i think it would be fun to model but havent found the time to take any really decent full body shots yet. i keep wanting to press the apply button but...
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maia:
Thank you sweetie!
djsik:
Meditation all the way - wipe absolutely everything out of your head and program in the good shit. Works like a charm if you find a good teacher
hey there. having an interesting everning.
anyone care to tell me how they cheer themselves up when they're grumpy?
i go online! HAHA!
and smoke joints...
lol
bedtime.... night night all
i cant decide. i think it would be fun to model but havent found the time to take any really decent full body shots yet. i keep wanting to press the apply button but...
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anyone care to tell me how they cheer themselves up when they're grumpy?
i go online! HAHA!
and smoke joints...
lol
bedtime.... night night all
i cant decide. i think it would be fun to model but havent found the time to take any really decent full body shots yet. i keep wanting to press the apply button but...
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dear all! having a good weekend. bf is home and sorting out sum stuff.... quite emotionally draining but im very stressed with work which is being very counter productive!
day has cheered up abit tho and kinda half watching independence day! woop woop!
how is everyone else's weekend?
study hard study hard studay hard! GRRR NOT ENOUGH TIME!
day has cheered up abit tho and kinda half watching independence day! woop woop!
how is everyone else's weekend?
study hard study hard studay hard! GRRR NOT ENOUGH TIME!
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pillboxhat:
How are you doing? It sounds like you're feeling a bit better. I'm glad to hear that your boyfriend is back. You say it's draining (you've been having serious talks, I take it?), but at the very least some greater understanding should come out of it, which can only reduce the amount of stress you've been under. Sounds tough, but good.
For me, I've noticed that my number of (real life) friends is dwindling as time passes. People move away or we all grow apart as we refocus on newer, different priorities. It's very, "Oh well," at the moment.
For me, I've noticed that my number of (real life) friends is dwindling as time passes. People move away or we all grow apart as we refocus on newer, different priorities. It's very, "Oh well," at the moment.
southernbelle:
The fabric is all different kinds. I can take a picture and show you. Let me find out how much shipping is over there, and we'll talk!
OH POO!
my memebership runs out like REAL SOON! and i have two groups....
oh phew... have just seen it was the 25th may! i was terrified for a second it was the 19th may! oh dear....
anyone know if the membership runs out that morning or if you get the day? dumb q... i know...
am just updating my deviantart page .... HERE
mwah
my memebership runs out like REAL SOON! and i have two groups....
oh phew... have just seen it was the 25th may! i was terrified for a second it was the 19th may! oh dear....
anyone know if the membership runs out that morning or if you get the day? dumb q... i know...
am just updating my deviantart page .... HERE
mwah
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kickinglovers:
thatsweird, i was jus lookin at your page and noticed andywarlock mentioned me.. strange stuff..
hi anyhow..
hi anyhow..
cinnamon_spider:
Hey hun... I'm adding you on my deviantART watch list, I didn't know you were on there! 
I'm fragileangel ... just so you know!
I'm fragileangel ... just so you know!
hey there... thanks for the comments
i couldnt sleep last night... im trying this new thing... erm... not gettin soo stoned you fall asleep anyway!
i couldnt sleep for hours and hours tho.... everything thats going on at the moment, family problems, bf problems, work problems, and school problems just kept on going through my head and i couldnt stop them!
i was feeling so...
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i couldnt sleep last night... im trying this new thing... erm... not gettin soo stoned you fall asleep anyway!
i couldnt sleep for hours and hours tho.... everything thats going on at the moment, family problems, bf problems, work problems, and school problems just kept on going through my head and i couldnt stop them!
i was feeling so...
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pillboxhat:
Take care. Thanks for adding me to your friends and for updating us on the DO board. I hope you're feeling better. Good luck with everything.
yeknomyknuf:
prozac always makes me feel better
all alone and no1 no1 to talk to....
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johnfm1:
Awwww....ring the samaritans! They're always up for a chat about stuff.
allyn:
Awww! I know the feeling all too well...
yo, shit day...
best thing - some friends were really great to me, sumtimes you gotta reach out to them for them to show you some loving back
worst thing - i was a complete mess, knakered and havent done anything since i got back from work. Went to the docters and got upset at the lady cos aftetr 2 hours waiting for a repeat...
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best thing - some friends were really great to me, sumtimes you gotta reach out to them for them to show you some loving back
worst thing - i was a complete mess, knakered and havent done anything since i got back from work. Went to the docters and got upset at the lady cos aftetr 2 hours waiting for a repeat...
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dear all... shit day...
hugs?
but im doing good! and im guna do well in these exams in the end! just a few weeks left....
plus im strangely very horny at the moment, but not much inclination to jerk off but lots to do random hot guys! god damit for not being single.... its not even sex... i just wana passionate kiss!
hugs?
but im doing good! and im guna do well in these exams in the end! just a few weeks left....
plus im strangely very horny at the moment, but not much inclination to jerk off but lots to do random hot guys!
god damit for not being single.... its not even sex... i just wana passionate kiss!
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johnfm1:
Yeah, jerking off nevers gets you that passionate kiss....
6underground:
Good luck on your exams! Did you get all your art work done? You gonna post pics for all of us to see??