Home, sweet sanctum from reality. Another day in dullsville; it is really begining to wear heavily on me. I hate being bored at work, and there isn't anything to do about it since I'm the guy that is making up jobs for everyone else and there just isn't enough work to go round. I have a day off tomorrow and that should help, I'm going...
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I'm just gonna go to bed, I hate it sometimes; the void where the laugh never carries or the self deprecating manner in which something is said doesn't exsist and the joke dies in your throat and you feel like you did something wrong.
*Sigh*
Maybe tomorrow things will work better. Oh and what does merf mean, I chat long hand and so far all...
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*Sigh*
Maybe tomorrow things will work better. Oh and what does merf mean, I chat long hand and so far all...
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mei:
i'm sorry you're having a bad day.. i send you a bucket of tasty fishies to make you feel better.. or something..
merf is actually the name of my hard drive. it's the sound a small furry creature of some sort makes, i think. or the sound i make when i'm real hyper.
*merfmerfmerfmerfmerfmerfmerf!*
merf is actually the name of my hard drive. it's the sound a small furry creature of some sort makes, i think. or the sound i make when i'm real hyper.
*merfmerfmerfmerfmerfmerfmerf!*
demigauge:
merf is just a saying i say monkey
nothing more..nothing less
nothing more..nothing less
In the softest moments of the day I look around and wonder where I am. Delicately a voice whispers in my ear that I am outside, but that's impossible I think. The voice says outside of yourself, go back in where you belong and in that moment a flash of life lived to it's fullest of warm people and me glowing like a sun at...
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mei:
i want to watch you dance some day.. my boyo danced classical russian ballet for ten years, but quit to play grown-up. maybe someday again...
and i'm sorry that you watched dancers with no emotion. that's like watching a singer with no emotion for me - technical mastery does not art make.
and i'm sorry that you watched dancers with no emotion. that's like watching a singer with no emotion for me - technical mastery does not art make.
So slow today, I finished in 3 hours what takes a full day of work and then sat on my ass drinking wine and chatting to sales reps. Then had lunch and left work 2hrs early. Sometimes it really is an amazing job.
Going to a dance show tonight, it should be wicked. I can't wait, they are from montreal and are awsome; if only...
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Going to a dance show tonight, it should be wicked. I can't wait, they are from montreal and are awsome; if only...
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mei:
naw, you should go to the dance-show nekkid!
i'm glad you have such a good job.. so many people spend all their time hating their jobs. seems useless to me. that's why i don't like to watch the movie "office space.." it's almost unbearably depressing for me.
you have a good night too.. sounds like you don't need my well-wishing to make that occur, though...
i'm glad you have such a good job.. so many people spend all their time hating their jobs. seems useless to me. that's why i don't like to watch the movie "office space.." it's almost unbearably depressing for me.
you have a good night too.. sounds like you don't need my well-wishing to make that occur, though...
In the space of moments the world turns slightly askew and things as they were shall never be quit the same. The muse is fled leaving space so small and yet so ominous, requiring to be filled or to be left as a solemn memorial to the goddess. There in the expanse of jagged streets and rippling fields of metal, the glow is lessened. There...
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atrasties:
In other news I just got offered a job in a charity gala. It's for aids research and sounds like it's going to be dirty raunchy fun. The offer came from a new dance company that is starting up and my name was given them by a bunch of people and may lead to being a member of the company. That would be pretty kick ass, and I still have the improv thing in the works and another audition later in spring; mother pussbucket ,it never rains it pours and damn it ;I love getting soaked. so with this much good news I'm gonna go to bed giggling like a lunatic, not really different from any other night but this is glee, not sleep deprivation.
hehheeeeehheehhehhehhehhehhe haaahahhahhahahhheehehhahhahehhehhehahahahehehhheahhehhaehehhea
*snore, heeeeheehehe, snoark, mmhnmhmnh, ooohooohho, snore*
hehheeeeehheehhehhehhehhehhe haaahahhahhahahhheehehhahhahehhehhehahahahehehhheahhehhaehehhea
*snore, heeeeheehehe, snoark, mmhnmhmnh, ooohooohho, snore*
mistersatan:
Kiss? Naughty boy!
j/k- thanks for the well wishes, sir.
j/k- thanks for the well wishes, sir.
My ex called last night to chat and I realized how much I miss her. Not in the physical sense but as the friend I had before and during our relationship. It was great to reconnect on that level and she is now one of 2 women that I have a really special close friendship with. The other is also an ex from years back....
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mei:
phone calls are good!
exes are sometimes good too, except for when they're not
i'll think about fireengine red, but reds are *so* hard to get and maintain; they often turn out pink in the first place, and to keep a really good color they take dying every week or so. i did have hair once that was that color between true red and magenta, though - which was lots of fun. nice thing about those colors is that they can be dyed over, unlike dark colors.
oh - tingly is good too...
exes are sometimes good too, except for when they're not
i'll think about fireengine red, but reds are *so* hard to get and maintain; they often turn out pink in the first place, and to keep a really good color they take dying every week or so. i did have hair once that was that color between true red and magenta, though - which was lots of fun. nice thing about those colors is that they can be dyed over, unlike dark colors.
oh - tingly is good too...
demigauge:
damn it...you never on when i am on...gerken
My drive is in the throws of an impending crash so, I may be unavailable for a few days until I can beat this pooter back into an upright position. I swear I'm gonna be the victor, I swear it. 
By thors hammer I'll crush this beasty.
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demigauge:
and do you ahve any more pictures?
mei:
if you crush the beasty, then you won't be able to use it at all, ja?
's funny to lose the evil glowing box for a few days and realize exactly how much you miss it.. or at least that's what happens to me...
's funny to lose the evil glowing box for a few days and realize exactly how much you miss it.. or at least that's what happens to me...
Spoken word festival last night was really good, 2 of my friends were reading and that was cool. There were some dance and theater shows on too. It's a multimedia festival that I actually thought was next month but is going on now so I ran into tons of old friends and people from old companies I used to dance with. A couple of us...
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atrasties:
oh yeah new pic, well from a while back, my hair is not as long right now but whatever.
mei:
i like your pic..
i'm so jealous of the dancing bit - entirely, either committed or not.
the universe may be pushing you to greatness, but it doesn't have to be either or - it could be setting you up for reasonably impressive-ness..
i'm so jealous of the dancing bit - entirely, either committed or not.
the universe may be pushing you to greatness, but it doesn't have to be either or - it could be setting you up for reasonably impressive-ness..
Going out tonight to a spoken word festival, buddy of mine is reading selected works of lunacy, then I believe there is drinking and dancing planned for the rest of the night. I think we are going to a really solid club later so that should be fun and festive. Nosh a little, kibbitz a bit then get a little feclempt by it all; promises...
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mistersatan:
That's dirty!!!
mei:
getting into trouble is so much easier when you're happy.. i think brow or lip would be better.. maybe brow? i didn't eat my pillow, but i was real hungry. hopefully i'll have better dreams soon. have lots of good fun tonight!
The minds eye burns with the mottled images of smoldering flesh and pestilence, of small forms bathed in flame reaching seemingly towards you. There in the light of rippling shadows we find ourselves, smoke rising off the edges of perception. Cascades of molten rock and igneous metal fall in showers of liquid fire, in the deluge, beasts caper and dance as children at the beach....
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mei:
no, actually, my most fearsome nightmare happened when i was 7 (when everything the least bit scary is godawfully terrifying) and it involved my entire family being turned into vampires who were trying to run me over with a red corvette. ah, if only there was a vampire smiley.
Huzzah; I got real mail today not just bills. A girlfriend of mine in poland sent me a care package. A new cd by Myslovitz and pictures of her and her husband from their new dance show. If he wasn't such a fucking nice guy; ah well gave her up by coming back and she so deserves happy which is what he makes her. I...
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demigauge:
so thinking of moving ot portland i needa rommate....see hook-up to see what i mean and what IM system works for you?
mei:
*sigh*
i wish i could spend time in europe again. only a month, quite awhile ago, but it was so nice.
and i have 4 more months of school, then i'll be wherever whenever whatever i want - the ability to be impulsive is one of the greatest privileges ever.
i hope you do get to teach - it sounds like you'd be wonderful at it. witty people always make the best teachers.
i wish i could spend time in europe again. only a month, quite awhile ago, but it was so nice.
and i have 4 more months of school, then i'll be wherever whenever whatever i want - the ability to be impulsive is one of the greatest privileges ever.
i hope you do get to teach - it sounds like you'd be wonderful at it. witty people always make the best teachers.
Ah woe, my holidays are almost over; back to the grind on wednesday. I have had a very relaxing vacation There wasn't any snow but I did get out of town and got some hiking in. Love my mountains, hope there is snow out there soon to really enjoy them this winter. We broke a record for today as it was 15C (59F) when it...
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demigauge:
plus i want you to keep you job..it's hard finding one these days
atrasties:
nite kids
Wow, I totally didn't think of that.