I'm (still) just looking for a kiss...
Last entry was rad, but it is a new year and time for new entries.
2004 is over and I am very happy to see it go. It brought me a little bit of good and a whole lot of bad--mostly shot my self-esteem to shit a bit at a time, from work to friends to everything else....
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Last entry was rad, but it is a new year and time for new entries.
2004 is over and I am very happy to see it go. It brought me a little bit of good and a whole lot of bad--mostly shot my self-esteem to shit a bit at a time, from work to friends to everything else....
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...I'm just looking for a kiss. -the New York Dolls
I really miss kissing more than sex. I love first kisses. I love all the kisses in between. I love movie kisses and novel kisses...
Kissing with the tip of the tongue feels like ice cream melting. -Wei Hui
I have this theory that you know with a kiss whether the sex would be good,...
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I really miss kissing more than sex. I love first kisses. I love all the kisses in between. I love movie kisses and novel kisses...
Kissing with the tip of the tongue feels like ice cream melting. -Wei Hui
I have this theory that you know with a kiss whether the sex would be good,...
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boundcreature:
i can only think of one favorite movie kiss:
bill pullman and kim dickens in ZERO EFFECT. it is pullman's characters first kiss. it is so tentative and shy and exploratory.
it does not hurt that i have the hugest crush in the world on kim dicken's character in that movie.
i love that movie.
ok, i'm off to write about kissing in MY journal now...
happy new year
bill pullman and kim dickens in ZERO EFFECT. it is pullman's characters first kiss. it is so tentative and shy and exploratory.
it does not hurt that i have the hugest crush in the world on kim dicken's character in that movie.
i love that movie.
ok, i'm off to write about kissing in MY journal now...
happy new year
mylf:
It's pretty sad that I don't have many memorable kisses. The ones I remember the most are from this summer, and last summer.
Well there are two kisses besides the summer ones though these can't even really compare... they were right before I started dating the person who would become my fiancee. First was with a guy that was so bad for me but was so sexually compatable it was insane. After we tried dating (and failed miserably) we were great fuck-buddies. This was the goodbye last kiss. Damn. If our relationship couls have been half as good as that kiss... The next was with my summer fling that year (dude what is it with me and the summer?) We were at a club for his birthday and out of nowhere in the middle of a sentence he just grabbed me and pulled me in for a kiss. I think after about 30 sec he was completely supporting me. It was a full out weak in the knees, loss of breath kiss.
I've only had one kiss that good since. But the guy it was with makes me happier than I could ever have imagined.
Just 41 more days...
Happy New Year!
Well there are two kisses besides the summer ones though these can't even really compare... they were right before I started dating the person who would become my fiancee. First was with a guy that was so bad for me but was so sexually compatable it was insane. After we tried dating (and failed miserably) we were great fuck-buddies. This was the goodbye last kiss. Damn. If our relationship couls have been half as good as that kiss... The next was with my summer fling that year (dude what is it with me and the summer?) We were at a club for his birthday and out of nowhere in the middle of a sentence he just grabbed me and pulled me in for a kiss. I think after about 30 sec he was completely supporting me. It was a full out weak in the knees, loss of breath kiss.
I've only had one kiss that good since. But the guy it was with makes me happier than I could ever have imagined.
Just 41 more days...
Happy New Year!
I am so effing SICK of people telling me my ideas won't pan out. I do enough of that on my own without help from supposed friends.
BuckyKatt666 and I had a chat about humility the other day, which dovetailed nicely with a comment someone made about moms trying to make you feel shitty for doing things they'd be afraid to do. And all of...
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BuckyKatt666 and I had a chat about humility the other day, which dovetailed nicely with a comment someone made about moms trying to make you feel shitty for doing things they'd be afraid to do. And all of...
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tinfoilhalo:
I'm sure that everybody that wrote an original story got shot down by a bunch of people before it finally caught on . Maybe if you're serious about writing as a profession you can compromise a bit and write some commercially viable crap until you hit it big . You're not selling your soul as long as you keep your desire to tell GOOD stories intact . It may take a little time , and you gotta' eat . 
The new Nick Cave double album is AWSOME . I liked Abbatoir Blues a lot more than Lyre Of Orpheus , but there was some good stuff on it as well . Hope you dig it .
The new Nick Cave double album is AWSOME . I liked Abbatoir Blues a lot more than Lyre Of Orpheus , but there was some good stuff on it as well . Hope you dig it .
bettietwoguns:
i seem to have hit my sexual peak early.
aoife:
Pics from my camera phone!
1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before?
saw a Stanley Cup final game, saw the Pixies, went to New Brunswick, volunteered for the election....lots of things, really.
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I don't remember. So probably not.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
No.
4. Did...
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saw a Stanley Cup final game, saw the Pixies, went to New Brunswick, volunteered for the election....lots of things, really.
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I don't remember. So probably not.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
No.
4. Did...
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bryn:
1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before?
saw the Pixies! also saw a Stanley Cup game... and saw GWAR... been to New Brunswick before....not so very impressive...oh! went to Disney World!
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
i didn't make a resolution. i plan on sticking to mine this year though. i need to.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
yes... she was close a while ago...we stopped having contact... and then i randomly bumped into her on the street. we're having girls night soon.
4. Did anyone close to you die?
no....thank god
5. What countries did you visit?
O USA....?
6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004?
a better job--also preferably a writing gog. my current head editor is trying to drop my name a round Spin. yeah. thatll happen.
7. What dates from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Nov 13th....my 1 yr anniversary w/my boy....Sept 1...my 1 yr anniversary w/my dumbass job. both of which i hope to remedy soon.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
gaining 20 lbs.... and going OFF the pill...again.
9. What was your biggest failure?
not standing up for myself enough
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
nope
11. What was the best thing you bought?
my pixies, disney world plane ride and gwar tickets
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
my best friend Allison for finally realizing that i'm not being a bitch or ditching her... im just more of a misanthrope than ever before (wow!)
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
George W. Bush and everyone in his administration...definitely. and America's for picking him...again.
14. Where did most of your money go?
bills, booze and food. i have a very expensive diet
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Disney World
16. What song will always remind you of 2004?
"Cherry Blossom Girl" by Air
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder? definitely sadder.
b) thinner or fatter? MUCH fatter.
c) richer or poorer? eh. about the same.
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
art. CREATIVE writing (done a lot of essay). walking. reading.
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
stressing. eating. fighting.
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
in FL w/the fam.
21. Did you fall in love in 2004?
Nope.
22. How many one-night stands?
None.
23. What was your favorite TV program?
monster house
24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
nope.
25. What was the best book you read?
The Hazards of Sleeping Alone
26. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Moldy Peaches
27. What did you want and get?
a new apartment... alone.
28. What did you want and not get?
a thinner waistline, more time to myself, more freedom.
29. What was your favorite film of this year?
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind.
30. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned 24. i went to the park w/my best friend, her boyfriend, and my boyfriend. we cooked meat and potatoes on an open fire all day and drank vodka. mucho fun.
31.What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
more freedom and not having to constantly explain myself and battle for the right to be myself.
32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004?
fat and frumpy. i dont dress nicely at work and i dont dress cutely when i feel like shit.
33. What kept you sane?
as always...my cat.
34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
kate winslet...i adore her... and johnny depp...as always.
35. What political issue stirred you the most?
Election 2004. and this goddamn ongoing war.
36. Who did you miss?
Dan.
37. Who was the best new person you met?
my boyfriends mom. she rocks hard core.
38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004:
Never compromise who you are for anyone... especially not once, as they'll continue to expect it.
39. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
"i should have never left, and the weight of regret makes me feel like i'm sinking"
Pull Yourself Out by Pony Girl Bradlee
saw the Pixies! also saw a Stanley Cup game... and saw GWAR... been to New Brunswick before....not so very impressive...oh! went to Disney World!
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
i didn't make a resolution. i plan on sticking to mine this year though. i need to.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
yes... she was close a while ago...we stopped having contact... and then i randomly bumped into her on the street. we're having girls night soon.
4. Did anyone close to you die?
no....thank god
5. What countries did you visit?
O USA....?
6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004?
a better job--also preferably a writing gog. my current head editor is trying to drop my name a round Spin. yeah. thatll happen.
7. What dates from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Nov 13th....my 1 yr anniversary w/my boy....Sept 1...my 1 yr anniversary w/my dumbass job. both of which i hope to remedy soon.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
gaining 20 lbs.... and going OFF the pill...again.
9. What was your biggest failure?
not standing up for myself enough
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
nope
11. What was the best thing you bought?
my pixies, disney world plane ride and gwar tickets
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
my best friend Allison for finally realizing that i'm not being a bitch or ditching her... im just more of a misanthrope than ever before (wow!)
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
George W. Bush and everyone in his administration...definitely. and America's for picking him...again.
14. Where did most of your money go?
bills, booze and food. i have a very expensive diet
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Disney World
16. What song will always remind you of 2004?
"Cherry Blossom Girl" by Air
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder? definitely sadder.
b) thinner or fatter? MUCH fatter.
c) richer or poorer? eh. about the same.
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
art. CREATIVE writing (done a lot of essay). walking. reading.
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
stressing. eating. fighting.
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
in FL w/the fam.
21. Did you fall in love in 2004?
Nope.
22. How many one-night stands?
None.
23. What was your favorite TV program?
monster house
24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
nope.
25. What was the best book you read?
The Hazards of Sleeping Alone
26. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Moldy Peaches
27. What did you want and get?
a new apartment... alone.
28. What did you want and not get?
a thinner waistline, more time to myself, more freedom.
29. What was your favorite film of this year?
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind.
30. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned 24. i went to the park w/my best friend, her boyfriend, and my boyfriend. we cooked meat and potatoes on an open fire all day and drank vodka. mucho fun.
31.What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
more freedom and not having to constantly explain myself and battle for the right to be myself.
32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004?
fat and frumpy. i dont dress nicely at work and i dont dress cutely when i feel like shit.
33. What kept you sane?
as always...my cat.
34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
kate winslet...i adore her... and johnny depp...as always.
35. What political issue stirred you the most?
Election 2004. and this goddamn ongoing war.
36. Who did you miss?
Dan.
37. Who was the best new person you met?
my boyfriends mom. she rocks hard core.
38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004:
Never compromise who you are for anyone... especially not once, as they'll continue to expect it.
39. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
"i should have never left, and the weight of regret makes me feel like i'm sinking"
Pull Yourself Out by Pony Girl Bradlee
scooter11:
1. Held a decent job.
2. Don't make 'em.
3. Yup.
4. Nope.
5. Canada.
6. Some savings, or a girlfriend.
7. July 20, the day I defended my dissertation.
8. Ibid.
9. Not getting laid.
10. Nope.
11. Dunno.
12. Jarome Ignila.
13. The American electorate.
14. Rent and food.
15. New job. The Red Sox. The Flames.
16. To soon to say.
17. Happier, thinner, richer.
18. Time with women.
19. Dealing with banks.
20. At home.
21. No.
22. None.
23. The Sopranos.
24. Tom Coburn.
25. Robert Caro's The Power Broker.
26. The Shins.
27. Ph.D and a good job.
28. Laid.
29. Sideways, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, Maria Full of Grace.
30. 32. I don't remember.
31. Relationship.
32. Don't have one.
33. Reading, teaching.
34. Kate Winslet.
35. The federal election.
36. Too many to mention.
37. It's a secret.
38. Take risks.
39. "People tell me it's a sin
To know and feel too much within.
I still believe she was my twin, but I lost the ring.
She was born in spring, but I was born too late
Blame it on a simple twist of fate."
--Bob Dylan, "Simple Twist of Fate."
2. Don't make 'em.
3. Yup.
4. Nope.
5. Canada.
6. Some savings, or a girlfriend.
7. July 20, the day I defended my dissertation.
8. Ibid.
9. Not getting laid.
10. Nope.
11. Dunno.
12. Jarome Ignila.
13. The American electorate.
14. Rent and food.
15. New job. The Red Sox. The Flames.
16. To soon to say.
17. Happier, thinner, richer.
18. Time with women.
19. Dealing with banks.
20. At home.
21. No.
22. None.
23. The Sopranos.
24. Tom Coburn.
25. Robert Caro's The Power Broker.
26. The Shins.
27. Ph.D and a good job.
28. Laid.
29. Sideways, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, Maria Full of Grace.
30. 32. I don't remember.
31. Relationship.
32. Don't have one.
33. Reading, teaching.
34. Kate Winslet.
35. The federal election.
36. Too many to mention.
37. It's a secret.
38. Take risks.
39. "People tell me it's a sin
To know and feel too much within.
I still believe she was my twin, but I lost the ring.
She was born in spring, but I was born too late
Blame it on a simple twist of fate."
--Bob Dylan, "Simple Twist of Fate."
Whee! XXXmas. Mine isn't really very x-rated, though. Drank too much and got maudlin at dinner and with friends, and woke up xmas morning with a headache. French toast helped, though my ass is now not quite small enough for the Diesel jeans my sister got me. I also FINALLY got the Diane Arbus "revelations" book, Coffee & Cigarettes and Fahrenheit 9/11 on DVD, and...
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twwly:
YES!YESYES!!!!
Diane Arbus + You = FANTASTIC!
I'm going to Canada to pick up my degree in late Feb, but after that. YES PLEASE!
Diane Arbus + You = FANTASTIC!
I'm going to Canada to pick up my degree in late Feb, but after that. YES PLEASE!
topaz:
I applaud bitchiness, personally. And it's especially acceptable when you are right and most everyone else is wrong...
Don't worry about whining, hon. I think that's partially what having a sg journal is for.. and the holidays are sort of designed to put us in a position where everyone gets on our last nerve.
Don't worry about whining, hon. I think that's partially what having a sg journal is for.. and the holidays are sort of designed to put us in a position where everyone gets on our last nerve.
Who knows when I'll be back on this thing, so Merry Christmas. If you don't celebrate Christmas, happy December 25th.
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scooter11:
Best holiday greeting ever.
Yeah, being named after Bush would be enough for me.
Yeah, being named after Bush would be enough for me.
jovanka:
Thanks sweetie, I'm really touched by your comments. I hope you sort everything out too but just do it on your own terms and at your own pace. Merry Christmas.
So, since it's coming up on New Year's and I'm doing some soul-searching, I'm working on a list of things that I REALLY want to do. Since I'm getting nowhere trying to accomplish things that I don't want to do anyway....
1. write fiction. come up with a plot that sticks and finish it!
2. write a comic! this part requires a partner in crime,...
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1. write fiction. come up with a plot that sticks and finish it!
2. write a comic! this part requires a partner in crime,...
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tinfoilhalo:
Fuck realistic .
If you're looking for a partner to WRITE a comic with , I officially offer my comic nerdishness to you . If you're looking for somebody to DRAW you're comic book....ask EricJ . Maybe if you sweet talk him , he'll hook you up with some arse kickin' pencils .
P.S. Hope your holidays rock your stockings .
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If you're looking for a partner to WRITE a comic with , I officially offer my comic nerdishness to you . If you're looking for somebody to DRAW you're comic book....ask EricJ . Maybe if you sweet talk him , he'll hook you up with some arse kickin' pencils .
P.S. Hope your holidays rock your stockings .
eponine:
i'd totally help you make a movie. that would rule.
i stole your quote and put it in my journal...
bliargh.
merry almost christmas lady.
i stole your quote and put it in my journal...
bliargh.
merry almost christmas lady.
I used to dress like a rockstar. High heels, short skirts, jewelry, boots, corsets, wigs, clip-on hair...
Going out was a production. Half the fun was doing my makeup and hair and choosing an outfit. I danced on the stage down in New Orleans and flirted like crazy with everything that crossed my path.
Somewhere in between then and now, I got lazy. Started spending...
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Going out was a production. Half the fun was doing my makeup and hair and choosing an outfit. I danced on the stage down in New Orleans and flirted like crazy with everything that crossed my path.
Somewhere in between then and now, I got lazy. Started spending...
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curmudgeon:
you can do it!
boundcreature:
hell yeah! i'm gonna scream "your opinion doesn't matter" at everyone i see tonight! haha.
seriously dude, sometimes our heads get stuck right up our asses and we need some kind of jolt to realize that we are the only people we need to answer to.
follow your heart.
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i have to go get dressed like a rockstar now and dance on a stage
(i had a brief and ill-advised period where i stopped wearing nail-polish and dressing fun and tried to be all classy and work my full-time job. fuck that. live is meant to be lived, not suppressed).
seriously dude, sometimes our heads get stuck right up our asses and we need some kind of jolt to realize that we are the only people we need to answer to.
follow your heart.
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i have to go get dressed like a rockstar now and dance on a stage
(i had a brief and ill-advised period where i stopped wearing nail-polish and dressing fun and tried to be all classy and work my full-time job. fuck that. live is meant to be lived, not suppressed).
I think I'm getting sick.
New Twwly set!!! Gorgeous, as per usual.
Sin City is the number-one most requested flick on Moviefone, and it doesn't come out until April. I may have to start counting days.
I feel too shitty to think, so here's more song lyrics that should've been written about me:
Lucero, "The Last Song"
Little Mara Lee always sings so sweet
On...
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New Twwly set!!! Gorgeous, as per usual.
Sin City is the number-one most requested flick on Moviefone, and it doesn't come out until April. I may have to start counting days.
I feel too shitty to think, so here's more song lyrics that should've been written about me:
Lucero, "The Last Song"
Little Mara Lee always sings so sweet
On...
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boundcreature:
thanks for helping me regain perspective.
you are cool.
you are cool.
obliviousfocus:
omg they made a sin city movie ???
life is good!!
life is good!!
I was in a really deep funk last night. Hating the job hunt and hanging out with girls young enough to still think that they've got all the answers, and my friends who manage to innocently make me feel like a super-slut when I don't even believe in sluts.
But I went to sleep, and it was better in the morning.
See, there are plenty...
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But I went to sleep, and it was better in the morning.
See, there are plenty...
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screamqueenpinup:
Wishing You & Yours All The Best This Holiday Season,
& Here's To A Healthy & Prosperous Year In 2005!
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( . *hearts sqp*
Wishing You & Yours All The Best This Holiday Season,
& Here's To A Healthy & Prosperous Year In 2005!
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( . *hearts sqp*
eponine:
i totally want to put that trailer up on the screen in the lobby, but the damn computer won't let me save it. bliargh.
My friend Jay and I are playing phone-tag again. But this time it's making me mad because Rhett's in town and he's with Jay. I called him on Wednesday. He called me back and said he'd call me Thursday after work. He didn't, so I called him. Said I was going to dinner with the parents and he should call me in a few hours....
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boundcreature:
NETWORK is pretty fun. its psychotically over-dramatic, but all of the actors are really good so it's forgivable... plus it just seems like it was supposed to be a play as there are many monologues, but the whole thing is neat and crazy and i'm surprised i'd never heard of it.
when i was home for the thanksgiving, i was explaining the joys of netflix to one of my best friends and he just made me a list of movies to queue when i got home.
he and i have such similar tastes that i'll trust any of his recommendations blindly....
we used to live together; our video collections dovetailed magnificently
i had CONAN THE BARBARIAN; he had CONAN THE DESTROYER
i had THE BREAKFAST CLUB; he had SIXTEEN CANDLES
it was awesome. i've never missed someone's video collection so much
when i was home for the thanksgiving, i was explaining the joys of netflix to one of my best friends and he just made me a list of movies to queue when i got home.
he and i have such similar tastes that i'll trust any of his recommendations blindly....
we used to live together; our video collections dovetailed magnificently
i had CONAN THE BARBARIAN; he had CONAN THE DESTROYER
i had THE BREAKFAST CLUB; he had SIXTEEN CANDLES
it was awesome. i've never missed someone's video collection so much
boundcreature:
hahaha... yeah, but then they would invent a disease that was transmitted when people watched the same movies...
To please myself and only myself. It is my life, and I have not yet met the person that gets to make me compromise it.
THAT is a great one. I think that has been some of the problem with my past relationships. I compromised who was was.
Well at least this time, he KNOWS who I am and yet he likes me anyway... how strange
Hope 2005 brings you all that you are looking for