The allure of darkness for me is that It is so fucking warm and comfortable. When I am in all black, wearing my Baphomet with my leather jacket covered in pins and patches it is so warming, I am so at one with showing all my influences, all my musical energies it is just so fucking incredible. I wouldnt change me for all of the...
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abyssia:
yeah, i love you just the way you are. dark and powerful. delusional and aware. hum. kinda like me! ;o) (does that mean i should start loving myself?)
shark_____:
I'll get more beer
Pretty fucking grey out there today, the world looks devoid of hope. There really doesn't seem to be anything moving outside. Everything looks really black and white. LOL, just the way I like it!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm getting dressed. I have another twelve hour shift to work today, If I can I'm gonna get some more overtime tomorrow and I know I'm working all weekend. Fuck no,...
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I'm getting dressed. I have another twelve hour shift to work today, If I can I'm gonna get some more overtime tomorrow and I know I'm working all weekend. Fuck no,...
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abyssia:
i love this entry. i love it.
funny, i keep playing with my last post and the idea of caesar and the five gold pieces got in there.... i don't usually "edit" but this one just doesn't feel quite right - maybe it's not supposed to. nothing feels quite right. maybe if i get the words right, things will make sense? hehehe. kidding. maybe my guy will look for jobs overseas or in canada. and i'm not kidding about that. he works for GE. they used to bring good things to life, now they're imagination at work. kind of like killing the clean air laws and replacing them with clear skies.... means nothing. not to say that imagination isn't a good thing - but the problem is that they don't manufacture things here anymore. they fucking outsource their TRAINING to india! not that i have anything against india - fuck. i'm so done.
oh, there was this place i used to go to when i was a kid - punk shows and the like. for some reason i can't remember the name. but i do remember the last band i saw there was meat beat manifesto. 'twas a cinderblock building somewhere in jersey. maybe it began with a G - City Gardens? fuck it. no memory.
once again, this post of yours is amazing and i love it. and you're totally right about the politics of fear having won the election.
funny, i keep playing with my last post and the idea of caesar and the five gold pieces got in there.... i don't usually "edit" but this one just doesn't feel quite right - maybe it's not supposed to. nothing feels quite right. maybe if i get the words right, things will make sense? hehehe. kidding. maybe my guy will look for jobs overseas or in canada. and i'm not kidding about that. he works for GE. they used to bring good things to life, now they're imagination at work. kind of like killing the clean air laws and replacing them with clear skies.... means nothing. not to say that imagination isn't a good thing - but the problem is that they don't manufacture things here anymore. they fucking outsource their TRAINING to india! not that i have anything against india - fuck. i'm so done.
oh, there was this place i used to go to when i was a kid - punk shows and the like. for some reason i can't remember the name. but i do remember the last band i saw there was meat beat manifesto. 'twas a cinderblock building somewhere in jersey. maybe it began with a G - City Gardens? fuck it. no memory.
once again, this post of yours is amazing and i love it. and you're totally right about the politics of fear having won the election.
I've got a few fucking twelve hour shifts coming up the next few days. Fucking Bush, four more fucking years, this sucks, I ought to move to Canada, my first choice was some cool place in Texas my friend Steph wants me to go but fuck that noise now.
My fucking healthcare is through the goddamn roof, hurray for working for a living, hell man,...
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abyssia:
i'm a little too depressed for insights right now. and angry. very fucking angry. i mean, ok - so our state went for Kerry - but what the fuck is wrong with fuckers who voted for that simpering, smirking, evil-in-the-bad-way, fucking fool? Thomas Jefferson had this thing where he wanted to restrict voting rights to educated landowners. at this point, i'm thinking he was half-right. the education part. fucking fuck me and fuck me some more! i used to think it was funny - "why wait for the apocalypse, vote Bush/Cheney '04." or, "why vote for the lesser evil? vote C'thulu!" my fucking insight is that america - no, the US - is going to hell and there is nothing i can fucking do about it. my insight is that this is only the beginning of the havoc that man seeks to wreak and that WWIII is right around the corner.
i keep wondering what the Roman's thought toward the end of their empire. did they know it was coming? did they feel it? does that half of our country who seemingly voted for the war monger have any idea of what they've just done? ok, before i say fuck another time, i'm gonna stop talking about this fucking shit.
i keep wondering what the Roman's thought toward the end of their empire. did they know it was coming? did they feel it? does that half of our country who seemingly voted for the war monger have any idea of what they've just done? ok, before i say fuck another time, i'm gonna stop talking about this fucking shit.
lilmissmorbid:
You are so good to me..
Is it wrong for me to totally be crushing on you?
Hope today is better for you
Did the instructions above make sense?
Is it wrong for me to totally be crushing on you?
Hope today is better for you
Did the instructions above make sense?
Back to fucking work today for another two fucking weeks. This is no way for a person with delusions as great as mine to live. I need to win the fucking lottery and be done with it. I was just jamming out on my guitar, killing fucking time more or less. I wanted to be in bed by two to go out and vote tomorrow...
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sarcasticmenace:
Hey cutie. I am one delusional bitch myself. 
abyssia:
how 'bout just maing it "ALL HAIL AJ"??? ;o)
Fucking Philadelphia Eagles are god man. 7 wins and no losses. I did most of my fucking partying Friday and Saturday. Tonight I hung out with friends at TGI fridays here in Pennsylvania. We expierimented with a shitload of fucking drinks and I just slammed martini after martini after fucking martini. I'm more of a beer drinker but sometimes I get into my moods. After...
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lilmissmorbid:
You and me both sweetcheeks.. Im giving up drinking for 2 weeks my body needs a break.. I have one friend who i open my soul too and its actually a dude.. I dont open up to girls cause they are lying deceitful bitches for the most part.. so i trust a guy with my inner thoughts. I wouldnt bare my soul to a girl if you paid me a gazillion dollars they just turn it around on you and use it to thier advatage.. bitter? hell yeah.
Anyways hope your helloscream was delish.. Kisses to you sexy he beast.
Happy dayafter
Anyways hope your helloscream was delish.. Kisses to you sexy he beast.
Happy dayafter
YEAH FUCKERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The fucking Philadelphia Eagles are now 7-0 as we beat the Baltimore Ravens!!!!!!!!! Its about time for me to get in the fucking shower and dive in and out of Halloween parties all fucking night. There are supposed to be Sobriety checks all over the city of Lancaster tonight so the papers say. Fuck them, its propaganda, who gives a fuck. Anyway, I...
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brightnight:
we'll find out if your football team can beat mine. steelers blew the patriots out of the water today. next week will tell. big ben gonna light up that scoreboard. let's see if mcnabb can keep up 
Well, it was a fucking insane night last night. We went to someplace that is generally known for great holloween parties. The problem is that it was fucking packed. My friend Jen was freaking out cause she didn't have enough space to move. She bitched and moaned until we ended up somewhere else. Fucking christ, I did alot of shots last night. I think my...
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I told the Priest, don't count on any second coming.
God got his ass kicked the first time he came down here Slumming.
He had the balls to come, the Gall to die and then forgive us.
No I don't wonder why, I wonder what he thought it would get us..........." Tommorow Wendy"----Concrete Blonde.
God got his ass kicked the first time he came down here Slumming.
He had the balls to come, the Gall to die and then forgive us.
No I don't wonder why, I wonder what he thought it would get us..........." Tommorow Wendy"----Concrete Blonde.
pretty_kitty:
HAPPY HALLOWEEN 
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pretty_kitty:
HAPPY HALLOWEEN
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I maim now the demon clothed in Wolfskin
Having to hide in the hollow of a tree
Metamorphoses Lycanthropie Poussant Inquam
Having to hide in the hollow of a tree
Metamorphoses Lycanthropie Poussant Inquam
abyssia:
hi. (smile)
My views on the whole fucking infestation of religion on mankind, as Written by the band Borknagar.................
Temptation impales the vunlnerable, Transforming the breed as it strains to erase, cleansing the body and perfecting the bliss.
Falling further in to this enticing hypnosis, falling further in.
Absurd scenery of strength and endurance, The mundane (religious) endeavor for the perfect resistance.
The evolution axis bent, manipulation...
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Temptation impales the vunlnerable, Transforming the breed as it strains to erase, cleansing the body and perfecting the bliss.
Falling further in to this enticing hypnosis, falling further in.
Absurd scenery of strength and endurance, The mundane (religious) endeavor for the perfect resistance.
The evolution axis bent, manipulation...
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pretty_kitty:
hey babe x x x
heheh ur really into Anton Lavey
thats cool! u rock!
my dad always told me about the beast in all of us! i told him to fuck off...
ne way wat u been up too babe? x x x x
heheh ur really into Anton Lavey
thats cool! u rock!
my dad always told me about the beast in all of us! i told him to fuck off...
ne way wat u been up too babe? x x x x
abyssia:
you do know that you put the needs of others before your own. you didn't need your boss to tell you. i know it. you know it. it is known. you're especially protective of those you care for.
I'd like to know how you see us as being so alike. Then maybe I'll tell you what similarities I see! ~kiss~
I'd like to know how you see us as being so alike. Then maybe I'll tell you what similarities I see! ~kiss~
When heaven burns I will dance in its fire.........Deicide.
I am in a fucked up mood, feeling fucked up, wanting to dump the wench and go back to Jersey. This fucking sucks. You really can't live your life for someone else who doesn't know what it is like to have a passion for life or death. Live for fucking living or dying but the stagnation...
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I am in a fucked up mood, feeling fucked up, wanting to dump the wench and go back to Jersey. This fucking sucks. You really can't live your life for someone else who doesn't know what it is like to have a passion for life or death. Live for fucking living or dying but the stagnation...
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abyssia:
i too struggle with the lust for freedom. i know that my soul is always free. that i could be free even if confined to a 4 by 4 cell and that i could be trapped even if alone in the wilderness. i know that it is my mind that controls my reality. i also know that my mind/will is not yet strong enough for me to truly be free no matter where i am. damn that hurts to admit. it's also liberating to tell you. hum. no, i have no point.
i did want to tell you though that i love that you comment so much in my journal. please, always say whatever you care to share.
i did want to tell you though that i love that you comment so much in my journal. please, always say whatever you care to share.
abyssia:
there is a point. be free no matter what you need to do. if you know you can free your mind, then do that. if you know you need to seek it in a more physical sense right now, then do that. be free. i'm done.
[Edited on Oct 27, 2004 4:59PM]
[Edited on Oct 27, 2004 4:59PM]
When heaven burns I will dance in its fire.........Deicide.
I am in a fucked up mood, feeling fucked up, wanting to dump the wench and go back to Jersey. This fucking sucks. You really can't live your life for someone else who doesn't know what it is like to have a passion for life or death. Live for fucking living or dying but the stagnation...
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I am in a fucked up mood, feeling fucked up, wanting to dump the wench and go back to Jersey. This fucking sucks. You really can't live your life for someone else who doesn't know what it is like to have a passion for life or death. Live for fucking living or dying but the stagnation...
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