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Hey, Thankyou for tonight. I'm sorry I got pissy over the girl comment. I just know i'm tougher then what most people think. and i think i proved that to ya. hehe. im sorry im so scared of commitment even in the slightest bit. It's just I dont want to fall to hard to fast. I mean how do you go from a 3 year engangement to boyfriend and girlfriend... I feel like I've lost so much and so little at the same time ya know? I miss Robbie so much, and I love him with all my heart, its hard to know when to move on... i feel so like.. i dunno how to put it. when i was with robbie, he took care of everything. from how my money was spent to how his was spent. i mean he budgeted just for me. i never had to pay for anything. which has left me with no knowledge of how to set aside or anything. its like i already knew he was there to care for me, and when i married him i knew what was going to happen and that id be alrite. I dont know anything anymore, and it scares me... I know I shouldnt rely on a guy to take care of me, and i didnt want to get to that point ever, but somehow i did, and im left to figure out all this shit on my own. im so scared.. alrite, im done. thank you so much.. x.kisses.x luv ya. roarie

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